It's all going to be fine

There's no need to worry

I need to stop overthinking

It's a Friday night, I'm going out, and I'm going to enjoy it

Self-reassurance, people go on and on about it, but it's complete bullshit, at least to me.

How can mumbling a couple of phrases to yourself change your mood completely

From feeling insecure and sorrowful to content and confident in the blink of an eye

If only it were that easy.

When I attempt to compliment or assure myself of something, anything really, it makes me feel even more anxious than I already was.

One of my worst qualities are, I always try to find the worst in everything

My appearance, personality, mostly every physical and or personal characteristic about myself.

It's seven-thirty, Blake and Vivienne are almost done getting ready while I'm standing in front of my wardrobe, not knowing what to wear

What are other people at the party wearing

Jeans?

Skirts?

Sweat pants?

Dresses?

I turn around and focus my attention on my friends; Blake is wearing beige Carpenter pants with a white satin-like cropped tank

Vivienne has on this black long sleeve mini dress that reaches right on her mid-thigh

I look through the racks of clothes, and I have nothing that I can wear

I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and see Vivienne standing there with an eager look on her face

"Don't know what to wear?" she asks, and I nod.

She gently pushes me aside and starts to look through the racks of clothes

"What are you do-" I say but get cut off

"Oh my god, you need to wear this."

She turns to me, holding up my black satin mini dress that I wore last year to an event my Father dragged me to

I thought I threw that out, guess not

"I don't know," I reply, looking away

Another voice chimes in, Blake

"I agree you need to wear that."

I cave in and take the dress from Vivienne.

I get changed, and I walk back into the room

Blake and Vivienne turn their attention to me

"Oh my god, you look hot," Blake squeals, literally squeals.

I walk further inside and look at myself in the mirror

The dress fits perfectly; it reaches right above my mid-thigh, it hugs my body in the right places, but it's a little short for my liking

Staring at myself longer, I start to think

Is it too much?

I suddenly feel someone standing beside me "don't overthink it. You look amazing."

Vivienne assures me with a smile

Maybe I should wear it; I need to get out of my comfort zone.

Before I can overthink it again, I reply

"Okay, let me just do my makeup, and we can go."

I quickly put on mascara, concealer, highlighter, some light blush, and lipgloss

I debate putting on eyeliner

But considering every time I attempt to put it on, I ruin it, so I decided it might not be the best idea

For jewelry, I put on my

Vivienne Westwood necklace and a pair of small gold hoop earrings I got last year

Blake and Vivian are standing by the door. I get up put on some shoes, and we leave.

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After a few minutes of walking, we reach oak wood house

I see the letters oakwood, written in bold cursive letters

"Everyone has their location shared, right," Vivienne asks

"Yeah," me and Blake both reply

"Okay, let's go" Vivienne opens the door, and we walk in

Music is blasting; people are making out on couch's, red solo cups are scattered everywhere

This is going to be fun

"I'm gonna go get a drink," Blake says and walks over to the table filled with multiple kinds of alcohol

Slow down by chase Atlantic starts playing

"I love this song. Let's go dance," Vivienne says happily before she pulls me into the room where people are dancing

the second we get in, Vivienne is already dancing

How does one even dance at a party

I awkwardly look around the room. I see Rowan and walk over to him.

When he sees me, he ignites me a tight hug

"Blair, You're here!" Rowan screams happily and pulls away

I laugh "yeah, I am."

"Oh my god, Mrs. Blackwell was so annoying today," he says while standing beside me

"She was"

Rowan turns his attention from me to somewhere in the room

"Luca, come and say hi to Blair," Rowan screams across the room

I suddenly feel a presence behind me. I turn around and see Luca

Luca hugs me just like Rowan

What is with them and hugs

"Liking the party?" he questions

"It's fun," I reply

He nods and asks, "you come here with anyone"

"Yeah, Blake and Vivienne," I say and point over to Vivienne, who's dancing with some guy

Luca looks over at Vivienne, and clench's his jaw before turning back to me

Wait

A voice cuts in, "Oh my god, they're doing body shots; come on!" Rowan says excitedly and pulls Luca and me over to where they're doing them.

"Okay, who's next," some guy with blonde hair says and looks over at with a smile

He's cute, he's wearing jeans and blue crewneck, his hair is in a middle part, and he's pretty tall, about 6,1 maybe 6,2

"I'll go, I'll go," Rowan says and lies down on the table

After someone took the body shot, he got off the table

"That was fun."

The blonde from earlier talks, "Alright, who's next."

"I'll go," I blurt out

Why on earth did I do that

"Okay, new girl," the blonde chuckles

I get onto the table then the blonde says

"Alright, who's going to take the shot,"

"I'll do it," a voice answers, a very familiar one

Leo.