Dear Namjoon,

Day 8/28. I don't know. I've completely become numb and my hands are shaking. Our house is dark, and I'm cold and alone. Taehyung insisted coming over, but I told him I was fine. He came over an hour later and hugged me tight as I was siting up in bed, crying. He asked me what was wrong. I told him I was scared and numb. He asked me what I was scared of. I told him I was scared of dying, and I was also scared of being alone. He told me that I'll never be alone on one condition. I asked him what the condition was. He said if I dated him. I was hesitant at first, of course I loved Taehyung as much as I loved you. But, I didn't want to hurt him. I said yes.

- jh