Dear Namjoon,

Day 6/28. I explained to Taehyung as we sat at our couch about what happened between us, and what happened to me, and why I feel these things. It was confusing at first but I felt as if Taehyung understood everything I said. He looked at me as he was reading my face, like he was a fortune teller of sorts. "It's okay Hoseok. I'm sorry what happened between him and you, and I understand why you've felt like that. But don't you think for the both of you guys that you try to live your life the best way you can?". I explained it wasn't that easy, and he nodded. He most likely never experienced what I've been through, but was sympathetic nonetheless. I then mentioned the agreement I made. "What was the agreement?". I told him that if I couldn't find a reason to live in twenty two days, I would end my life. He looked at me in shock as he frowned. I only made a small smile and shrugged before looking at the ground, feeling the bags under my eyes getting cold. Taehyung quickly hugged me after that. I wasn't sure why, but I didn't let go, and it felt quite comforting. Twenty two days left, I wonder what will happen.

- jh