"What?" He breathed out harshly, his body jolting upright and his frame frigid. The words he had just heard- haunted him forevermore.

For a moment, a long excruciating moment, Donghyuck froze- his body stiff and shock ridden as his eyes became wide open with the overriding fear of denial.

Surely not- surely it didn't actually happen right?

Wrong.

His heart heavy in his stomach and his blood running cold as it pulsated around his veins, leaving traces of guilt and emptiness that stabbed at every moment.

Without even noticing the pain bloomed in his eyes and the lingering love crawled down his face with hot streaks of salty tears

Heart stained with pain and his mind full with dread- his body automatically flung itself out of bed, hands fumbling as he threw on clothes and the voice of his concerned lover became blocked out by the hot ringing in his ear, the room spinning as his stomach churned and the insides threatened to spill.

He was frantic, unresponsive to her questions as he ran to the front of the house, grabbing his keys yet Yuji followed closely. Her own heart beated faster than she could keep up and she allowed herself to sit in the car with him, confused and concerned.

He hadn't noticed though, every inch of his body painting with nausea and self destruction.

Surely not?

If the time could have turned back, maybe he would have been honest? Bare faced and defenceless the ugly broken crack began to glow and his shattered heart began to show.

If time turned back would he have smiled how he did before it all began?

Forever.

The single word sent a deep, choked up laugh out of his dry throat and the grip on the steering wheel tightened as he recklessly drove.

Words of advice and comfort were destroyed by the thumping of his chest and the crushing of his lungs.

Car headlights and the red traffic signs didn't stop him as he drove straight into danger, swerving past every death sentence and every accident- only just.

Surely not?

The love he once had resurfaced and strangled him brutally, the claws of childhood scraping his throat as it pierced through with the forgotten memories of the past.

Every hour, every day, year that he had pushed aside.

He was just scared.

Surely not?

The lonely, toxic, vulnerable little boy still lingered and his face began to show. If time turned back could he have been more sincere?

He car jolted to a stop and he launched himself out of the car. His feet walked towards the same place, but here it became his last.

Because what was once described as forever, was mercilessly destroyed. The dreams they dreamed became nothing but ash.

Surely not?

His feet were heavy, as he barged through the doors- he fell to his knees. His heart was heavy, he'd rather burn it- so pain and regret would no longer linger.

Surely not?

Why?

However the answer was set, but the answer was hard to swallow. It was his beggining and his ending- the time could not be turned back and his mistakes could no longer erase.

There was no such thing as a beautiful parting and forever turned into never.

They had walked to the same place, yet their journey together had ended as he stared up at the lifeless figure that hung from the ceiling.

The figure that belonged to his Mother.