I Had Exactly Only A Few Minutes Left In Rehab

And I Was A New Person I Was No Longer Sad,Depressed Or Angry At Things I Couldn't Control

I Was Sober Happy And Could Think Clearly I Felt Free From My Demons

I Overcame My Own My Evil Spirts i Learned To Take Responsibility In Aziah Actions,I Learned To Forgive Others,And Most Importantly I Learned To Love Myself

So Much I Learned So Much Has Changed I Was Literally Glowing Smiling Every Chance That I Get,Thanking God For Every Second That Im Still Breathing

Life Is Unpredictable And Im Only A Human Who Make Mistakes Just Like Any Other Humans

Never Once Did I Ever Think I Would Become An Addict Never Once Did I Think That I Would End Up Abandoning My Son For Drugs Never Did I Think I Would I End Up Somewhere So Dark So Cold So Lonely

I Didn't Plan On These Things To Happen But Shit Just Happens

I Found My Own Strength In A Moment Of Weakness I Saw The Light In The Dark And I Heard God While Being Deaf To This World

I Was Lost I Was Dead Inside I Almost Lost It All I Almost Said Fuck It All I Almost Let The Devil Take Me But I Was Saved

I Was So Low In Life,I've Givin Up,I Lost Faith Because I Was Sick Of Being Hurt

I Turned To Drugs To Stop The Pain,To Make Me Feel Good About Myself,To Escape From Life

I No Longer Have That Pain No More,Now I Feel Damn Good About Myself And Im Not Running From Life Anymore

Im A New Person And Im Proud Of Myself

I Was Sitting Talking To My Mother Waiting To Get Processed Out"You Look Good Miss Thang" She Said

I Smiled And Said "I Feel Good...I Can't Wait To Get Home To Ayden And August"

"You Did It..Im So Proud Of You 90 Whole Days In Rehab Completed"She Said

"It Was So Hard At First But I Made It...Mama I Never Wanna Go Back To That Dark Lonely Cold Place Again"I Said

"Long As You Keep The Lord With You Gon Be Alright..."She Said

She Kissed My Cheek Than She Said "Your Really Glowing...Aziah...You Sure You Not Pregnant Again"

I Giggled And Said "Ma No You Just Want Another Grandbaby"

"Well A Granddaughter Would Be Nice...But I Love My Ayden No One Can Take His Place That Little Boy Gon Make You So Proud One Day"She Said

"I Can't Believe He's Almost One..I Wish He Can Stay A Baby Forever"I Said

"No...You Don't...When You Watch Your Child Learn And Grow Thats When You Really Feel Like A Good Parent"She Said

I Grabbed My Mama Hand And Said "Mama I Wanna Thank You For Being There For Me And Supporting And Helping Me Along The Way"

"You Don't Have To Thank Me Its My Job"She Said

"No Mommy I Do Have To Thank You I've Been Rotten I Treated You So Badly I Said Some Real Messed Up Things To You And Through All Of This I Now Know That Im More Similar To You Than I Thought I Love You You Gave Me Life And I Owe Everything To You It Was You Who Help Me Ma...Thank You"I Said

She Kissed My Forehead And Said "Anytime..And I Mean Anytime You Need Me I Will Be There"

"I Appreciate It Mama...I Really Do"I Said

"So After We Leave Here Lets Go Celebrate...Im Thinkin Cupcakes Just You And Me"She Said

"I Would Love That...Something Going On Werid..August Haven't Been Answering The Phone All Day"I Said

"Oh Sweetheart...Im Sure Just He's Busy"My Mother Said

"Busy What Ma..."I Said

And With Who I Said Thinkin To Myself

With A Smirk On My Mother Face She Said "Im Sure He's Very Busy Workin On Something We All Will Appreciate"

I Was Looking At My Mother Dumb I Didn't Understand

Ms.Jane Mae Walked Out With My Release Papers

I Stood Up And She Hugged Me "You Been A Pleasure...Serving You....Im So Proud Of You Do Me A Favor Call Me Sometime Keep Me Updated On Your Journey...Rememberin Rehab Is Easy After Rehab Comes The Real Work..But I Think You'll Be Okay"She Said

"Thank You For Everything And I Will Call You.....I Couldn't Do It Without Your Sessions..I've Learn So Much About Myself You Opened My Eyes To An Whole New World"I Said

She Released Me From Her Arms "If You Ever Fall Off The Wagon Which I Don't Think You Will But If You Do These Doors Are Open Anytime"She Said

I Nodded As She Gave Me My Release Papers

My Mother Stood And Said "Come On We Don't Wanna Be Late Now"

And I Was Thinking To Myself Late For What

As Were Walking To The Door Ms.Jane Mae Called My Name An Said "Congratulations...On Everything"

And I Wasn't Sure What She Was Talkin Bout

Leaving Out Those Door Of Rehab With My Soul Refresh And My Mind Back On Track I Pray I Never Have To Walked Through These Doors Again

I Was A New Person Felt Like I Was Born Again In The Most Pure Way

I Can't Tell You If I Will Stay Sober Or If I Will Never Make Another Mistake In My Life Because Life Is Unpredictable Never Say Never

All I Can Say Is That I Will Better Every Day I Wake Up I Will Look At My Son And That Will Motivate Me To Keep Going

I Know Alot Of People Judgin Me But You All Got To Know That Im Just Human I Fucked Up Too I Sin Just The Rest Of You Im No Better Than Anyone

Nobody Perfect..No One Is Even Close To Perfect..But Im Tryin And That All The Matter So I Don't Really Care What People Think Of Me All That Matters Is That I Stay Sober

For Ayden I Will...

My Mother Drove Me To An Huge Manson It Was Beautiful But I Didn't Know Why We Were Here Or Who's Mansion This Was

"They Sell Cupcakes Out Of Here This Is An Mansion"I Said To My Mama

She Smiled And Said "Get Out Of The Car"

She Got Out And So Did I And I Still Didn't Know What Was Goin On

"Ma..What Is This"I Asked

She Just Kept Smilin....

"Ma..Tell Me Something"I Said Being Curious

She Still Didn't Say A Word

We Walked Around To The Back

And I Didn't Believe What I Was Seeing "Oh My God" I Said With My Mouth Open In Shocked

I Saw Rose Petals On The Ground Ayden And August Dressed In Matching Tuxedos Standing By A Big Pool

Both My Two Babies Holding Red Roses

Im Freaking Out Inside Because I Think August Is About To Do Something I Been Waiting On For So Long

And Than I Start Hearing Stevie Wonder Ribbon In The Sky...Starts Playin

I Turned Around And Stevie Wonder Yes Thee Stevie Wonder Was Behind Playing And All White Piano

"Oh My God"I Said Getting Teary Eyed Very Quickly

Than I Looked At August "Welcome Home"

"Home"I Said Holding My Tears Back

He Smiled And Said "Oh Nobody Told You This All...Is Yours..Well Ours"

Than He Walked Over And Grabbed My Hand As My Mother Picked Ayden Up

As August Is Holding My Shaking Hand He's Looking Me Dead In My Eyes

And He Said To Me "Seem Like The Moment I Laid Eyes On...I Could Never Stop Thinking Bout You...You Made Me Fall In Love By Doing Simple Things You Gave Me Something I Ain't Never Had Before...Real Love I Know If I Go Broke Tomorrow You Still Gon Be Here Making Me Feel Like The World Richest Man And You Can't Put A Price On That"He Said

His Eyes Start Watering As He Continued "I Prayed So Long To Find Someone Who Could Love Me Just As Much As You Do...I Never Had No Woman Care About Me Like You Have And You Don't Know How Much It Means To Me To Have You By My Side Baby You Everything I Ever Wanted..God Made You Just For Me What A Good God He Is...He Sent You To Me... An Angel You Are...I Wanna Spend All My Bad Days With You As Well As All Of My Good Days....If You Cry Baby We Gon Cry Together Your Pain Is My Pain You Ain't Gotta Fight Alone Cause Im Fighting With You"He Said

Tears Now Fallin From My Eyes He Got On One Knee And Pulled Out An Little Box And Opened "Im Ready To Spend The Rest Of My Life With Don't Make Me Wait Another Second Marry Me"He Asked

I Was Shaking When I Saw The Ring It Was That Same 80 Thousand Dollar Ring That I Had Picked Out Back In Miami A While Back

I Was Cryin My Heart Out

I Looked That Man Whom I Loved To Death And I Said "Yes"

My Mama Was Cryin As He Placed The Diamond Ring On My Finger

He Stood Up And Picked Me Up And Kissed Me

"I Love You"I Said

Ayden Started Clapping His Hands We Both Smiled At Ayden As August

Grabbed Him "She Said Yes Ayden" He Said

Than All Three Of Us Hugged It Was One Of The Happiest Days Of My Life It Was Magical I Was Engaged To The Man I Loved

We Were Finally Going To Be A Family Now..

I Found Out Later On That Our Small Family Was Expanding My Mama Tight Was I Was Pregnant Again And I Couldn't Be Anymore Happier

How Many Times I Gotta Tell Yall Life Is Unpredictable