I Drove All The Way Over To Rileys Place

She Opened Door Wearin Only Boyshorts And A Pink Tank Top

It Was Late, I Was Stressed,And I Was In Need Of A Stress Reliever

We Stood There Just Looking At Each Other For A Moment

I Bit My Bottom Lip

Setting Riley All The Way Off She Pulled Me In And Stuck Her Tongue In My Mouth And Began French Kissin Me Passionately As She Tightly Grabbed My Ass

I Paused For A Moment "Lets Get Toasted First"

"Come On In"She Said

I Slowly Walked In She Locked The Door Behind Me

That Night Was The Night I Think I Really Got Hooked On Drugs Because After That Night I Carry Coke And Pills In My Purse Everyday After That

And After That Night I Began Getting High Off Anything Every Single Day

I Just Love Being High I Felt Better High I Couldn't Function Without Being High

It Was Safe To Say I Had A Problem But Hadn't Acknowledge It Yet

After A Long Night Of Partying And Getting Lifted I Was In Bed Tryna To Sleep Untill August Woke Me Up Holding Ayden In His Arms

I Opened My Eyes As August Asked "Who Is That Bitch In Ther And Why Is She Holding Ayden"

"What Time Is It"I Asked

"Its 4 In The Afternoon,Do Even Know That Bitch Out There"He Said

"She's The New Full Time Nanny You Told Me To Hire One So I Did Now Please Leave Me Alone"I Said As I Rolled Over

"Did You Do A Background Check,A Drug Test,Did You Atleast Google The Bitch"August Asked

"You Do It Since You Care So Much"I Said

"You Got A Strange Ass Bitch In Here Taking Care Of Ayden She Could Be A Killer Or A Kidnapper"August Said Being Over Protective

I Figured He Wasn't Gon Leave Me Alone So I Got Up And Said "Ugh....August She's A Professional Nanny I Doubt She Kidnaps Kids Since She Is One Her Damn Self She's 18 Her Name Is Tiffany She's In College She's Just Tryna Make Some Extra Cash So Please Go Now"

Than I Look At My Fat Baby And Smile Said "Hey Ayden"

Ayden Smiled At Me As August Said "Look Im Still His Daddy Ya Gotta Check Shit Out With Me Before You Just Let Some One Come In Aydens Life"

"Look Im His Mother I Know Whats Best For My Child,Now Go On Home To Ya Little Ho"I Said With A Frowned On My Face

"Can You Atleast Act Like You Grown For A Moment For Ayden,Hes A Happy Person And Im Not Letting You Or Anyone Else Take That From Him"August Said

I Rolled My Eyes And Said "Don't Act Like Im The Reason We This Way You Did This When You Got With Miracle Your The Reason Why We Don't Get Along"

"You Gon Spend Ya Whole Life Blamin Everyone For Everythin In Your Life You Need Help Professional Help"August Said

He Hit A Nerve

"Get Out!"I Yelled As My Face Turned Red

He Looks Disgusted At Me And Walked Out My Door

I Threw My Pillow Across The Room

Those Words Had My Soul On Fire

I Got Up And Slammed My Door Placed My Back Against The Wall And Slowly Fell To The Ground

"I Don't Need Help..Im Fine"I Whispered To My Self As I Placed My Head In My Hand

I Slowly Lifted My Head And Saw My Purse On My Nightstand

Im Tryin To Convince Myself That I Don't Need It,"I Don't Need It" I Keep Lying To Myself Until I Couldn't Take It No More

I Stood Up And Walked Over And Gtabbed My Purse And Opened My Purse

I Pulled An Bottle Of Percocets Out And Popped Two Pills No Need For Water Im Practically An Pill Poppin Animal By This Time In My Life

I Was Hurt So Bad Inside So Painkiller Were Easing My Pain

My Whole Life Has Been Crap Everyone I've Ever Love Has Either Let Me Down Or Turn Their Backs On Me

People I Thought Would Be Here Forever Ain't Even Here No More

All My Friends Are Gone I Have No One And Lately My Life Has Been Feeling Pointless

And All Im Reminded Of Is All The Bad Shit That Ever Happened To Me

My Father Left Me,My Mother Abandon Me,The Man I Thought I Would Be With Deceive Me Than I Met August A Man I Gave My All To He Hurted Me In The Worst Way,God Took Away My Angel Away From Me,And To Top It All Off August Call Me A Bad Mother

I Was In So Much Pain My Heart Still Aches From Previous Heartbreaks That I Never Got Over

I Was Feelin At My Lowest Point,And With All This Shit Running Through My Head Ima Need More Painkillers

Later On That Day Riley Came Over

"I Know Where You Look Familiar From"Riley Said

She Showed Me A Picture On Her Phone Of Me And August Kissin

I Laughed And Said "That Picture Is So Old"

"Why You Ain't Tell Me You Dated August Alsina"She Asked

"I Didn't Only Date Him We Have A Baby Together"I Said

Her Eyes Got Big

"Seriously?......You Ain't Tell Me You Was Into Rich Niggas"Riley Said

"Im Not It Just Happen"I Said

"Why Yall Break Up"She Asked

"He Cheated Just Like EveryOther Man In My Life He Hurted Me"I Confessed

I Picked Ayden Up Out Of His Playpen

"He's Adorable"Riley Said Smiling At Ayden

"Well Thank You...... Tiffany..."I Called

As Tiffany Walked Out The Kitchen And Said "Yes Ms.Glory"

"Ima Need You To Watch Him,And Its Time For An Another Bottle"I Said To Tiffany

"Yes Come On Ayden"Tiffany Said As She Grabbed Ayden

"I'll Be In My Room"I Said To Tiffany

"Okay"She Said

I Grabbed Riley Hand And Lead Her To My Bedroom

Riley Was An Free Spirt With An Wild Soul She Probably Was Just As Twisted In Brain As I Was

Her Smile Alone Set Chills Upwards My Sphine Through All We Do Is Get High Together And Have Hot Sweaty Sex She Lets Me Be Free

She Wasn't A Bad Person At All She Just Been Through Some Shit Like All Of Us Have Been

At My Lowest Point Her And Cocaine Take Me So High

We Don't Talk Much When Were Together I Guess Just Like Me She Was Trynaa Hide Her Pain As Much As Possible

I Can Look Her In Her Eyes And See How Empty Inside And As She Look Into My Eyes I Could Feel Apart Me Dyin

All These Drugs Was Turnin My Heart Cold And My Soul Dark But Still I Couldn't Stop

Sitting Across From Riley In My Bed "You Think We Need Help" I Asked

She Laughed And Said "Nah We Just Livin Life Havin Fun Stop Thinking So Much"

She Came Closer To Me And Placed Her Hand Over My Cheek So Softly And Said "We Don't Have A Problem We're Just Havin Fun Everything Is Cool With Us I Promise"She Said

I Looked In Her Eyes As I Kissed Her Hand Believe Every Lie She Just Told Me