I Was Exhausted From Being Up All Night Last And Ayden Was Seriously Fussy Today I Didn't Know What Was Wrong With Him

He Kept Crying And Crying I Was Doing Everything But Still He Continue To Cry

I Tried Feeding Him,Holding Him,Givin Him A Pacifier And Rockin Him But Ayden Only Began Crying Worse

It Was Early In The Morning And I Was Losing My Mind As I Rocked Ayden In Arms "Its Okay Ayden"

By This Time I Had A Headache Outt This World

"What Wrong Ayden"I Said As I Continue Rockin Him In My Arms

Mrs.Franklin Walked In "Whats Wrong With Em" She Asked As If I Knew

"He's Been Crying For The Last Hour I Don't Know Why He's So Upset"I Said Still Holding Ayden I Was Losing My Mind

Mrs.Franklin Took Ayden From Me And Placed Him On Her Chest And Began Patting Ayden Gently On His Back

"There There Ayden"She Said Softly

I Ran My Fingers Through My Hair As

She Continued Patting Him On His Back Until Finally We Heard Ayden Burp

"See You Just Had To Burp Ayden"She Said

Ayden Stop Crying

"Thats A Good Boy..."She Said Smiling

"He Had To Burp Im His Mother And I Don't Even Know When My Baby Have To Burp"I Said Feeling So Bad

"Don't Be Hard On Yourself Your A First Time Mother You'll Learn Soon Enough"Mrs.Franklin Said

My Phone Rang I Looked At It And It Was Riley Callin

I Answered Quickly And Said "Hey" As I Stood Up And Walked Out Of The Nursery

"What Are You Doin"She Asked

"Just Hangin Around You Should Be Sleep We Stayed Up All Night"I Said

She Laughed And Said "I Don't Sleep Vamp Life,Since You Up And Im Up Let Me Come Pick You Up"She Said

"Its Early"I Said

"No Shit,You Ain't Doing Nothing Anyways"She Said

"Your Right I'll Texted You My Address"I Said As Smiled

"Seen You Soon Love"She Said

I Hung Up The Phone

Cathrine Walked With Groceries "Good Morning"

"Morning"I Said As I Smile

"I Brought You Some Groceries,Hope You Hungry Im Bout To Cook Up A Feast Girl"She Said

"Actually I Have To Run Out And Take Care Of A Few Things You Mind Watching Ayden For A Few Hours"I Asked

"Child Now You Know I Have No Problem Watching That Baby For You... Gon Head Do What You Gotta Do Me And Ayden Will Be Just Fine"She Said

"Thanks"I Replied As My Phone Began Ringin It Was My Mother Was Calling I Answered The Phone "What"I Said In A Frustrated Tone

"Aziah Please I Just Wanna Meet Him I Really Wanna Be A Grandmother Its Been Months And I Miss You..And I Want To See My Grandbaby"She Said Desperatly

"Stop Calling My Phone"I Said As I Hung Up In Her Face

They Way I See It My Mother Is The Reason For Everything Bad Happening In My Life And I Had Absolutely No Words For Her At All Just Wish She Would Stop Calling Me

I Showered Got Dressed By The Time I Was Putting My Shoes On Riley Was Outside In Her All White Bentley

I Got Inside And Said "You Drive An Bentley"

"You Surprise?,It Was A Gift From My Parents My Father Is An Judge And My Mother Is An Attorney They Make Good Money"She Said As She Pulled Off

"Wow They Must Really Love You"She Said

"I Wouldn't Know"She Replied

I Sat Back In The Seat As She Asked Me"What Does Your Parents Do"

"My Father Is A Doctor My Mother Works At An Theft Shop"I Answered

"What About You What You Do You Live In A Fancy Place So I Know You Getting Money"She Said

"My Baby Father Is Just A Good Provider Thats All I Do Much"I Answered

"You Say That Shit Like Yall Still Together"Rilley Stated

"No We Were Not Together Anymore"I Answer As I Looked Out The Window

She Placed Her Hand On My Thigh

I Looked Back At Her And Asked "I Think Your Gay"

She Smirk And Said "I Think You Are Too The Way You Were Makin Out With Me Last Night"

"Me"I Said Pointing To Myself Smilin

"No Sweetheart You Were Makin Out With Me"I Said As I Giggle

"Either Way It Goes We Both Enjoyed It"Riley Said

"Where You Takin Me Anyways"I Asked

"To Ecasty"She Repild

And I Just Smiled At Her As She She Handed Me Over And Whole Bag Of Coke

Ridin Around With Riley Doin Lines Of Coke Sippin On Tequila Getting Stoned Out Of My Mind

No Wonder I Ended Up Stumblin When I Walked Back In My Condo

August Was Sittin On My Couch And I Was So High

"Im Sick Of Seeing You Here"I Said

"Not As Sick Of I Am Of Seeing You,You Know What Time It Is"He Asked

"Time For You To Get Up And Get Out My Shit Bye August"I Said

"Its 1:30 In The Morning"He Said

"It Is?"I Said

I Was Havin So Much Fun With Riley I Let The Time Slipped Away

"No Shit,You Left Ayden All Day"He Yelled At Me

"I Asked Your Mama To Watch Him"I Said

He Stood Up And Said "My Mama Had A Flight Back To New Orleans...She Called Me While Im At The Studio With Wayne And Mrs.Franklin Is An Part Time Nanny Not She Still Have A Family She Has To Go Home Too Im Sick Im Leaving Work For This Shit"He Said In A Frustrated Tone

"Than Get Me A Full Time Nanny Who Doesn't Have A "I Said

"You Get Ya Self Nanny Im Givin You More Than Enough Money Too!"He Yelled

I Shook My Head And Said "Whateva August"

"No Its Not No Fuckin Whateva I Have An Career,I Dont Got Time To Be Sitting Waiting For You To Come Take Care Of Our Son"He Said

"I Been Takin Care Of Our Son Very Well So Don't Come Checkin Me Like Im Not A Good Mother"I Said

"You Not! "He Yelled

And My Feelings Were Instantly Hurt I Just Got So Angry

I Start Hittin Him In His Chest "How Dare You Fuckin Say That"

He Grabbed Me By Arms And Pinned To The Wall

"Its The Truth You Would Rather Be Out Being A Hoe Than To Be Here Bein A Mother"He Said To Me

I Was So Full In Anger And Unware Of What I Was Doin

I Spit Right In His Face

And As Soon As My Spit Hit His Face He Raised His Hand Slapped The Life Outta Of Me

So Hard I Fell Across The Room

"What The Fuck Is Wrong With You!"He Said With A Face Frowned Wipin My Spit Off His Face

I Got Off The Floor And I Ran Up August And We Starting Fightin Like Cats And Dogs

He Pushed Me On The Couch And Started Chokin Me "Stupid..Ass...Bitch"

I Was Still Tryin Hitting Kick

We Were Really Goin At It

And We Both Heard Ayden Cryin We Both Paused As Ayden Cried Louder

August Immediately Stop Choking Me And Got Off Me And Went In Nursey

"Ayden,Daddy Comin"He Said

As I Got Up And Followed Him

He Picked Up Our Son As I Felt Pain In Face

I Held My Face As August Kissed Ayden On The Forehead "Its Okay...Everythin Gon Be Okay Daddy Here"

I Literally Fell To The Floor As I Realize Messed Up Things Were

Me And August Done Had Some Pretty Bad Arguments But We Never Once Gotten Physical

God When Did Things Get This Bad For Us How Did Two People Who Loved Each Other Whine Up At Each Other Throat With Knives

I Used To Love Him,I Used To Be So In Love With Him He Used To Love Me He Used To Love Seeing Me Smile And Hear Me Giggling

What Happened To Us? Felt Like I The Answer That Question Was Empty

Thoughts Were Killin My Mind And I Couldn't Deal I Needed To Let Lose

I Got Up And As I Walked Out As August Said "Wher Ya Goin"

I Ignored Him And Proceeded To Leave

I Just Couldn't Stand Being Sober All I Wanted To Do Was Hid Behind A Good Ass High

I Didn't Wanna Think,Feel Pain,Or Be Depressed I Just Wanted To Be Free Away From All That