It Seem Like Everybody Was Going Through Some Shit Around Me While Im Sitting Searching For Happiness

Just Had A Baby Few Weeks Ago And Im Ashamed To Say That Im Not As Happy As I Thought I Would Be Don't Get Me Wrong I Love My Son More Thing Anything In This Whole Entire

I Just Wasn't Happy With Myself At All

Thats Why Im Thinking If I Get August Back Than Maybe Just Maybe I Can Gain Some Happiness

It Was Late In The Afternoon And I Was Getting Ayden Ready For This Family Gathering

I Was Brushing My Baby Hair "My Baby Got Some Good Hair"I Said To Ayden

"Aw See Look At Those Little Fat Cheeks"I Said Kissin Ayden

August Walked In "Yall Ready" He Asked

"Ayden You Lookin Sleeply As Always Wake Up"August Said To Ayden

I Was In Some Jogging Pants And My Hair Was Up In A Bun "Nah Aydens Ready But I Have To Get Ready Why You Here So Early"I Asked

"I Wanted To Talk To You About Something"He Said

"What Is It"I Said

"Put Ayden In The Crib"He Said

"Oh It Must Be Serious"I Said As I Gently Placed My Lil Prince In His Crib On His Back

Than Me And August Step Out In The Hall

"Would You Tell Me Already!"I Said

He Looked Me And Said "Im Bringing Miracle To The Family Gathering"

"What....No You're Not"I Instantly Said

"Yes I Am"He Said

"No You Not August Why You Wanna Bring Her Anyways"I Asked

"She My Girl I Wanna Take Her Around My Family,I Wanna Be Able To Bring Her Around My Son Whats Wrong With That "He Said

"First Off She And Ayden Will Never Ever Be In The Same Room That Bitch Bet Not Come Close To My Son I Thought I Made That Clear"I Said

"You Act Like Im Bringin Him Around A Random Bitch Mircale And I Been At It For A While Now,He's My Son Too"August Said

"I Don't Give A Fuck You Will Not Bring That Bitch Around My Son"I Said As I Frowned My Face And Started Getting Angry

"Ight Aziah Since You Feel That Way Than Ima Respect That I Won't Bring Her Around Ayden"He Said

I Just Folded My Arms

"Go Ahead And Get Ready Ima Go Shoot Some Moves I'll Be Back To Pick Yall Up In A Hour"He Said

I Nodded My Head And He Left

I'll Be The First To Admit That I Wasn't Here For August And Miracle Relationship

I Hate That He Even Cares Enough About This Bitch Enough To Wanna Bring Her Around Our Baby

I Still Love Him And I Still Want Em And I Hated He Was Moved On I Hated That He Wasn't Still Stuck On Me

Remembering Back When Me And August Made Love All Through The Night Until The Early Morning

I Remember Tellin Him "I Never Wanna Be Without You"

It Took Me So Long To Let My Guard With August And When I Let My

Guard Down He Goes And He Cheated

He Cheated,But Right Now That Doesn't Matter Cause Right Now He's Probably Kissin On His New Bitch Just Like He Used To Kiss Me,Right Now He's Probably Touchin That Bitch Exactly How He Used To Touch Me,Givin Her Love That Belong To Me

I Knew That I Wanted August Back,But I Never Said The Words To Him

Maybe I Should Tell Him How I Really Feel Inside Who Knows Maybe Deep Down Inside He Feels The Same Im Hopin He Feels The Same

I Gotta Tell Him And I Gotta Tell Em Now If I Don't I Never Will

So After I Feed Ayden He Feel To Sleep

I Waited On The Couch For August To Come Back

When He Finally Came Back He Looked At Me And Said "You Still Not Dressed"

"August Have Something To Say To You"I Said As I Stood Up And Walked Closer To Him

"Wassup"He Said

"I Love You"I Stated

"Okay???Thats It"He Asked

"No Like I Really Love You,Baby I Always Love You And Every Since Ayden Been Here I Been Feeling Like We Should Be Back Together So We Can Be A Family For Once And All Just You Me And Ayden"I Said

He Just Stared At Me Without Saying Anything

"Miracle And You Will Never Work Out Aug,You Don't Belong With Females Like That"I Added

"And You Think I Belong With Ya?"He Asked

"I Know You Do,Its Me Its Always Been Me Im The One For You August Im The Bitch Thats Really Got Ya Back"I Told Em

He Grinned And Said "You The One For Me? Shit I Can't Tell"

"What?"I Questioned

"You Wanna Know Whats So Funny I Just Got A Phone Call Bout Five Minutes Ago From Ya Little Boy Toy Nigga On My Phone Talking About How Ayden His Baby And How He Been Fuckin You In The Condo That I Paid For! So Don't Tell Me How You The One For Me When You Give This FuckBoy Pussy!"August Said Getting Angry

"Boy Toy? Jalen "I Said

"He Even Said You Fucked Em While My Son Was In The Bed"August Said Furiously

"What No! I Would Never Do That Never August I Never Fucked That Nigga Not One Time He Just Mad Cause I Love You And Not Him"I Explained Myself

"Look I Ain't Fo That He Said She Said Shit Ima Grown Ass Man I Know The Nigga Was Obvious Just Tryna Pissed Me Off But Im Askin You As A Man Have That Nigga Ever Been Around Ayden"He Asked

"No... One Time The Other Day,Well Two Times He Held Ayden At The Hospital"I Confessed

He Really Was Pissed

"At The Hospital ! You Let This Nigga Touch My Son Before I Even Touch Em And Yet You Trippin Off Me Bringin Mircale Around Ayden!"He Yelled

"You Sure Ain't Fuckin This Nigga Cause The Way The Nigga Talkin Assured Me He Was Gettin Up In That"He Said

"I Never Slept With Em Aug,I May Of Kiss Him A Few Times Tho"I Admitted As My Eyes Began To Get Wet

He Shook His Head And Said "Listen To Me And Listen To Me Clearly Me And You We Ain't Neva Getting Back Together ! Nah You And Me All We Are Is Parents To Ayden! Ya Heard Me"He Said

And I Could Just Feel My Heart Breaking All Over Again

"August"I Said Softly

"Save It I Don't Wanna Hear It And Tell That Pussyboy I Don't Make Phone Calls I Make House Calls ! And If I See That Nigga Its Over For Em On Sight"August Said

"August Just Listen To Me"I Begged

"Didn't I Just Say I Didn't Wanna Hear It!? If We Ain't Talking About Ayden Than We Ain't Got Shit To Talk About ....Im Takin Ayden To My Mama's Bbq I'll Bring Him Back Later On"He Said

I Nodded My Head As I Fight Back The Tears That Wanted To Come Down

Mission Operation Get August Back Failed

Shakin My Head Like I Really Mess Things Up With August

Thanks To Jalen I Just May Of Never Get August Back Now

After August Left With Ayden I Grabbed My Car Keys And Headed Over To Jalen