With So Much Going On,So Much Stress,Drama,And Happiness In My Life I Forgot To Stay Calm,I Forgot To Take Care Of Me,I Forgot To Breath

August Rushed Me To Hospital And The Pain Had Me Feelin Like I Was Dyin

And All I Wanted Was For My Baby To Be Okay Ayden Was All I Cared About At This Moment

Everything Was Movin So Fast But Inside I Was Breakin Down Little By Little And All I Could Do Was Pray And I Couldn't Even Do That Cause I Was Too Mad At God Right Now

I Got To The Emergency Room And Doctors And Nurses Immediately Get Me In A Wheelchair Asking Me A Million Questions All At Once

But I Couldn't Answer Any Question I Was In Shock By All The Pain I Was In August Took It Upon Himself To Answer The Questions To Best Of His Ability

I Got To The An Hospital Room And Into The Bed August Stayed Strong Right Next To Me The Whole Time

The Doctor Gave Me Medicine To Stop The Contractions That I Was Having

And After The Medicine Kicked In And I Heard My Baby Boy Heart Beat On The Monitor I Could Close My Eyes And Get Some Rest

Doctors Had Me Stayed All Night Just To Monitor The Baby And Run A Few Test On Me

I Woke Up The Next Morning In The Hospital Bed August Was Fast Asleep In A Chair He Looked So Uncomfortable

He Opened His Eyes And Looked At Me And Said "Goodmornin"

"Morning....You Don't Have To Stay Here With Me You Can Go Now..I Got It From Here"I Said

He Sat Up Straight And Said "Im Not Goin No Where...Im Here You Ain't Gotta Do It By Ya Self Stop Shutting Me Out Aziah We In This Together"

I Held My Big Round Stomach And Smiled "Im Glad Is He's Okay I Just Love Him So Much" I Said

"He?"August Asked

Than It Came To Me That August Didn't Know We Was Havin A Boy

I Smiled And Said "You Havin A Son"

He Said "A Son..." As A Smile Appeared On His Face

I Nodded My Head And Said "Ayden"

"I Like That Ayden"He Said To Me While Smilin Hard

Dr.Taylor Walked In She Was An African With Natural Curly Hair She Had Been My Doctor This Whole Pregnancy And Was Gonna Deliver My Baby

"You Look Much Better See A Good Night Of Sleep Was All You Needed"Dr.Taylor Said

"I Have Been Under A Lot Of Stress Lately I Feel Better Now"I Told Her

"Im Glad To Heard That For These Next Few Weeks I Want You On Very Strict Bedrest,I Don't Want You That Let That Little Guy Untill Hes Finished Bakin"She Said

"Bed Rest Like I Stay In Bed All Day And Night"I Said

"Yes I Want Your Feet Up,Eating Healthy And Drinking Water Lots And Lots Of Water I Want Your Body Hydrated When You Deliver,Im Gon Check The Baby One Last Time Than You Can Leave"She Said

I Laid Back As The Doctor Left My Shirt off And rubbed On Cold Jelly On My Stomach As She Said "Three More Weeks To Go Ms.Glory"

"Three Weeks?"August Asked

"Yea..Ima Have To Have C-section Tho...He's Breeched"I Said To August

"Oh Hes Not Breech Anymore"She Said Staring At The Ultrasound Screen

"What"I Said As I Looked At The Screen

"He Finally In The Right Position,He's Fine A Nice Strong Heartbeat Too"The Doctor Said

August Was Non Stop Smilin And So I Was I

And I Promised To Not Stress Anymore During This Pregnancy I Wanted To Deliver A Healthy Strong Little Boy

When August Got Me Home He Laid Me Down In My Bed Proped My Feet Up And Sat Next To Me

He Said "Ima Stay Here With You"

"For How Long?"I Asked

"For However Ya Want"He Answered

I Smiled And Said "August No...You Have A Career You Still Have To Do Shows And Finished Up Ya Album ...We'll Be Okay"

"Listen To Me...None Of That Means More Too Me Than My Child...I'll Give It All Up For My Seed I Love Him How Can I Not He's Apart Of Me Now"He Said

He Looked My Belly And Said "One Night In Miami Gave Us A Blessing Ziah"

"I Feel The Same At Least Something Good Came From Us..."I Said

"About The Things I Said The Otha Day...I Didn't Mean It"He Said As I Interrupted Him And Said "You Was Upset We Cool The Only Thing That Matters Is Ayden Right"

"Right"He Agreed

And Right Then And There Ayden Started Kickin Me

"Oh"I Said Holding My Belly

I Smiled And Said "He's Kickin"

I Grabbed August Hand And Placed It On My Stomach As Ayden Kicks Again

"Wow"August Said In Amazement

I Smiled And Said "He's Just Like You He Don't Get Tired Very Active"

Than His Phone Ringed "I Gotta Take It" He Said

He Steps Out And Take His Phone And I Started To Think How Much I Missed August

How Much I Missed Him Being Around Me

He Walked Back In And Said "I Gotta Get To Rehearsals,After That I Gotta Fitting For The Premiere To Some Movie Scheduled"

"Premiere You Goin Alone?"I Asked.

"Nah About That......I Been Meaning To Tell You That I Kinda Being Seeing Someone"He Said

"Seeing Someone? Seeing Who?"I Asked

"A Model,Her Name Is Miracle Watts,My Label Hook Up Us Say Its Good For My Image With Her Being A Model And Business Woman And All"He Said As He Smiled

I Faked A Smile And Said "Thats Great August I Mean That,Does She Know About Me I Mean About The Baby Ayden"

"Yea She Know,She Cool With It,You Good With Me Havin A Girl"He Asked

"I Mean If You Like It I Love It,I Know You And Me Been Through Alot But At The End Of The Day I Want You To Be Happy And I Want Us To Be Friends So We Can Raise Ayden Together"I Said

"I Agree With You Aziah,All That Matters Is Ayden Now But Just So You Know I Want You To Be Happy As Well"He Said

I Faked A Smile And Lied"Im Happy August"

He Smiled And Kissed My Stomach And Said "Daddy Gon Be Right Back"

"You Need Anything While Im Out"He Asked Me

"Nope"I Replied

He Left

As I Grabbed My Phone And Called Brea

She Answered And Said "Wassup Prego"

"What's The Best Way To Kill A Bitch"I Asked

She Laughed And Said "Is That A Trick Question? Kindness Is The Best Way To Kill A Bitch...And What Bitch Is You Trynaa Kill"

"Did You Know August Has A New Girlfriend"I Asked

"Who Miracle Watts??...Girl Please The Blogs Been Talking About Em For Weeks Now Why You Care You Hate August Remember"Brea Said

"Im Still Carrying His Baby Tho,Who Is This Bitch Any Ways And How Come I Never Heard Of Her Before She Probably Some Thirsty Bitch Looking For A Come Up From August"I Said

"Bitch,You Wasn't Thinking About August Ass Now You Worry About His New Bitch Go Sit Yo Big Pregnant Ass Down Somewhere"Brea Said

I Rolled My Eyes And Said "Seriously Brea He Can't Be Over Me Its Only Been Seven Months"

"Seven Months Is More Than Enough Time To Get Over Someone Girl"She Said

What Am I Feelin ? I Don't Even Know What This Feelin Was Called All I Knew Was That I Didn't Want August To Be Happy With Somebody Else Because We Supposed To Be Happy Together Forever

I Just Wasn't Ready To Let Go Of That Dream And If He Still Had Any Type Of Feelings For Me He Wasn't Either

I Know August And I Know Im The Only One Who Good For Him Won't No Bitch Ever Compare To The Joy I Gave August

As I Was Thinking About August Mimi Walked In

"Jalen Told Me What Happened Why Didn't You Tell Me"She Asked

"Huhh...Tell You What"I Asked

"Tell Me You Was Lowkey Feelin Jalen,I Would Of Back Off Em Look I Really Like Jalen Alot He's Fine,Smart,And He Motivates Me To Be A Better Me...Hes Real Good To Me He Doesn't Hit Me,Insults Me,Or Put Me Down...Yeah Jalen Is Great But I As Good As He Is I Will Not Let Him Or Anyone Else Come Between Our Friendship"She Said Breakin Into Tears

"Mimi"I Said Feeling Bad

"Mimi....Come Here"I Said

She Sat Next To Me As I Wiped Her Eyes And Said "Jalen And I Are Just Cool...I Just Had A Moment But Trust Me Im Not Checkin For Him If He Makes You Happy Girl Than You Have My Blessing I Don't Know If You Noticed But Im Kinda Pregnant...And Im Now On Bed Rest For The Rest Of My Pregnancy Jalen Is The Least Of My Problem The Least"I Said While Smiling

"Bed Rest Is Everything Okay"She Asked

"Yeah I Just Been Over Doin Things The Doctor Put Me On Strict Bed Rest...So You And Jalen A Real Thing Huh" I Said

"Yes...We Are We Really Talkin About Movin To New York Together,He's Gonna Try Have A Chain Of Barbershops Around The World And Im Goin Back To School Ima Get Into Psychology I Wanna Be An Therapist To Woman Just Like Me"She Said

"Well I Think Thats Great,He Really Is A Good Man He Has A Heart Of Gold Just Don't Hurt Em"I Said

"I Won't Ima Take Real Good Care Of Him"She Said

Seem Like Everybody Was Moving On And I Was Just Stuck Here On Bedrest