Life Was Still Goin On But Somewhere In The World Life Was Ending..... With So Much Goin On,Today Was The Day My Mother Was Takin My Grandmother Off Life Support And I Stayed In Bed All Morning Debating If I Should Go To See My My Grandmother One Last Time

I Wasn't Ready To Say Goodbye To Her Inside I Was Still Secretly Waiting For A Miracle Or For Someone To Wake Me From This Horror Dream

My Grandmother Is My Heart And These Few Months Have Been So Hard On Me With Her Being On Life Support,I Should Of Told Her I Love Her More,I Should Of Stop By More,I Should Of Told How Much She Meant To Me More

I Couldn't Deal Anymore Times Like This I Questioned Why Would God Take The Only Person Who Love Me Away From Me,I Had No Mother I Have No Father But I Had A Grandmother Who Love Me And Who Love Seein Me Smile

She Loved Me Just As Much As I Love Her And Right Now All I Wanna Do Is Sit At Her Kitchen Table And Eat Her Sweet Potato Pie While Me And My Grandma Talk About Everything

I Finally Made The Decision To Say My Final Goodbye To My Beloved Grandmother

I Knew It Wasn't Gon Be Easy Im Seven Months Pregnant And Was Emotional As Ever It Was A Matter Of Time Before I Break Down

I Drove To The Hostipial Trying To Prepare Myself For This,But You Can't Never Prepare Yourself For Things Like This

When I Walked In Her Hostipial Room I Felt My Knees Get A Bit Weaker And My Heart Get A Lot Heavier

My Mother And My Grandmother Doctor Were Standing Next To My Grandmother Who Was Laying There Almost Dead

I Saw My Mother Wearing All Black Wiping Her Eyes With A Kleenex

"You Just In Time...Say Goodbye To Your Grandmother"My Mother Said

"I Wanna Be Alone With Her"I Said

"Just A Few Minutes Aziah"She Said As Her And The Doctor Walked Out The Room

My Eyes Immediately Started Tearin Up...I Sat Next To Her In Her Hospital Bed

I Grabbed Her Hand And I Kissed It

"..I Love You And I Know...I...I Know You Love Me Too..Words Alone Couldn't Express What You Mean To Me...I Could Never Give You Back Everything That You Gave Me To Me"I Said On The Verge Of Cryin

"All Those Night I Cried And Screamed For My Mother You Was There Rockin Me Safely Back To Sleep You Taught Me To Speak My Mind,You Taught Me Everything...I Don't Want You To Go Grandma I Want You To Meet Your Grandson"I Said As I Started Cryin

"But Don't Worry Grandma I'll Make Sure He'll Know About You And Know How Sweet You Were..I'll Even Tell How Dang On Good Your Famous Sweet Potatoe Pies Were

...I'll Tell Him Everything That You Did For Me...You Saved Me Grandma You Stepped Up And Took Care Of Me You Care About Me And I Thank You For That"I Cried Out

Than I Looked Down At Her And Said "You My Personal Angel,Thank You For Everything I Know It Wasn't Easy And I Know That You Didn't Have Too....You Gave Me So Much Life Why You Have To Go?I Still Need You?How Ima Get Through This Life Without You"

I Began Crying Harder

Than I Heard My Mother "We Gotta Unplugged The Machine Now"

I Ignored Her And Continue Crying Out To My Grandma "I Love You!...."

As The Doctor Finally Came Over And Turned The Machine Off

And I Saw My Grandma Take Her Last Breath On This Earth

My Eyes Were Cryin As My Soul Was Dyin As I Pictured My Grandmother Soarin Away

Her Hand Became Cold As Ice As The Doctor Came Over And Check Her Pulse

"Time Of Death 1:45pm" The Doctor Said

And I Started Screaming Cause This Pain Was Unbearable To Know That I Will Never See Her Smile Again

She Was Gone Gone Gone! And It Was Nothing I Could Do About It

The Only Woman Who Loved Me Unconditionally Was Gone

I Was Non Stop Cryin

Than My Mother Started Hugging Me Cryin With Me

After What She Just Did I Was So Angry With Her

I Pushed Her Off Me And Screamed "I Wish It Was You Who Died Instead Of Grandma,Get Off Me I Hate You"I Scream At My Mother And She Just Cried Harder

I Had To Get Out Of There

I Felt So Empty Inside I Even Felt Lost I Just Wanted To Go Home And Eat And Go To Sleep

By The Time I Got Home My Back Was Hurting And My Feet Was Killin Me

When I Walked In My Condo Guess Who All Boo'ed Up On My Couch ?

It Was Jalen And Mimi

"Whats Goin On"I Asked

"Jalen And I Was Just Talkin About Moving To New York Together"She Said

"What?Yall Don't Even Know Each Other That Well Enough To Move To A Whole Another State Together"I Said Lookin At Em Stupid

"We Really Have So Much In Common...He's Everything I Want In A Man"She Looking At Jalen Like He Was A Superhero

"Really You Know He Gotta Baby On The Way Right"I Said To Mimi

"He Told Me...Its Cool I Have Two Of My Own"She Said

"We Do Got A Lot In Common,She Cool,"Jalen Said

I Rolled My Eyes As She Kissed Him On His Lips And Said "But I Gotta Get Too Work So I'll See You Later" As She Stood Up

I Was Feelin Some Typa Of Way

She Walked Out The Door And Jalen Walked Up To Me And Said "She Got A Personality Out This World" Blushin

I Shook My Head And Said "You Aint Shit" As I Walked Passed Him And Went To The Kitchen

He Followed Me And Said "Come Again"

"Forget It I Don't Even Wanna Go There With You"I Said Getting The Milk Out Of The Refrigerator

"No You Say I Ain't Shit Right So Explain How Im Not"He Said

"I Said Forget It"I Said Pouring Me A Glass Of Milk

"No Tell Me! "He Insisted

I Frowned My Face And Looked Him His Eyes And Said "Okay I'll Tell You You Was Just Gettin Busy With Me On That Same Couch You Just Was Layed Up With Mimi On"

"Okay Thats We Doin Now!..Yeah You Right Than What Happened Yo Baby Daddy Aka The Nigga You Madly In Love With Showed Up At Your Door!..."He Yelled Gettin Angry

"So What Im Havin His Baby...But You Around Here Actin Like You Still In Love With Me Than You Go And Start Fuckin Wit My Home Girl Typa Shit Is That!"I Said Back

"I Am In Love With You But You Made It Clear Time After Time That We Just Friends!..You Don't Love Me Like I Love You..You Will Neva Love Me Like I Love You I Had To Face It Mimi's Not You But She Been Through Alot She Can Use A Good Nigga Like Me In Her Life!"He Explained

I Shook My Head And Said "You Just Like Every Other Dog Ass Nigga In My Life.

"Am I...?..Last Time I Checked I Neva Cheated On You,I Neva Lied To You And I Neva Hurt You Purposely...I Kept My Promise I Been Here For You...Im Just Not Boutaa Keep Chasin After You Like A Puppy When I Know Damn Well You Don't Want Me...And Now You Don't Want Nobody Else To Have Me!"He Said

"Oh I Don't Won't You And She Can Have You..Matter A Fact You Can Leave Now...And When You Leave Don't Come Back!"I Yelled

"Leave Ya Life Or Your Crib Aziah"He Asked

"Both..!"I Said Staring In His Eyes

He Shook His Head And Said "You Ain't Gotta Tell Me Twice Peace"

And He Left

I Couldn't Believe This Nigga Out Of All People Gon Try And Play Me

Standing In The Kitchen Shakin My Head Next Thang I Know I Hear The Door Bell Ring

And I Was Already Havin A Bad Day When I Opened The Door And It Was August

"I Been Callin All Fuckin Day.....Erica Been Callin You My Lawyer Been Callin And Can't Nobody Get In Touch With You....Ya Heard Me...We Still Got Some Shit To Talk About !"He Said Attacking Me

But I Wasn't In A Position To Attack Back Today I Was Too Weak

"August My Grandmother Died Today So Can We Do This Another Day Im Too Weak To Fight Today"I Cried Out

I Started Cryin Hysterically

He Stood There For A Moment And Said "Im Sorry I Ain't Know...I Didn't Kno!"

He Grabbed Me And Hugged Me As I Began Cryin Harder

Than My Stomach Started Crampin Up Like Badly

I Placed My Hand Over My Stomach As I Started To Feel A Pain In My Stomach

I Paused Cryin And Said "August Something Not Right....My Stomach Is Hurtin Really Bad"

"Well Just Sit Down....You Might Just Be Overwhelmed"He Said

I Shook My Head And Said "No...No..I Think I Should Go To The Hospital"And Than My Back Started Hurtin

"Owe..Oh My God..I Hope The Baby Is Okay"I Said As I Started To Panic

"Come On..I Can Get Ya To The Hospital"August Said

"I Can't Take Anymore Bad News To Day...Please God Just Let My Baby Be Okay"I Said

The Pain Started Getting Worse And I Just Was Hopin And Prayin Everything Is Okay