My Final Exams Was Coming Up And The Last Thing I Needed Was To Be Stressed

I Was Studying Like My Life Depended On It Everything I Was Working For Was Literally Right Around Corner

Success Is On The Way And I Can Feel It Graduating Was So Important To Me So I Had To Pass My Exams So I Kept My Head In The Books I Was Only Focus About Graduating

Its Was Like Ten At Night And I Was Up Studying When I Heard Azian Crying

I Knew It Was Something Wrong With Him By The Way He Was Crying So I Got Up And Went Up To His Room

I Walked In And Turned The Light On Azian Was Sitting In His Crib Crying

His Cheeks Were Red And His Skin Looked A Bit Flush I Picked Him Up And Said "Whats Wrong Baby Boy"

I Placed My Hand On His Forehead And He Was Burning Up

"You Have A Fever"I Said As I Began Rocking Azian

I Hated When My Kids Are Sick It Makes Me So Miserable To See Them Not Feeling Well

I Check His Temperature With A Thermometer And His Fever Was Really High And I Knew I Needed To Take Him To The Emergency Immediately

I Called August And Azian Was Still Crying

August Answered The Phone "Hello"

"...Azian Has A Bad Fever...Im On My Way To Take Him To The Emergency...Im Dropping Ayden Off At My Mother House"I Said

"Im At The Studio Right...Im Ten Minutes Away.....Just Stay Right There Im On My Way To Come Get Yall"He Said

"Just Hurry Up August Im Think Im Starting To Panic"I Said

"Stay Calm...Im Leaving Now"He Said

I Calmed Down And Than I Manage To Calm Azian Down

I Woke Ayden Up And Put Him On A Jacket And Some Shoes

Five Minutes Later August Was Outside

When Things Like This Happens Its Fuck Me And August Drama And All About Making Sure Are Kids Good

We Took Ayden To My Mothers House Than We Took Azian To Emergency Room

August Was Holding Azian As I Filled Out Azian Medical Forms

August Kissed Azian And Said "You Gon Be Ight The Doctor Gon Make You All Betta"

We Sat In The Emergency All Night

I Was Happy To Hear That Azian Just Had A Bad Cold The Doctor Gave Him Tylenol For His Fever And Told Me To Make Sure Azian Get Plenty Of Fluids And Within A Few Days He Will Feel Much Better

I Was Exhausted I Feel Asleep In The Car As August Drove Us Home

He Woke Me Up

"You Home"He Said

I Opened My Eyes And Said "What Time Is It"

"3:44"He Answered

"I Have Class Tomorrow Well Today And I Been Up All Night"I Said Shaking My Head

"You Want Me To Stay The Night With Him So You Can Get Some Rest"He Said

I Rolled My Eyes And Said "Why So We Can Have Sex Be Back In Our Feelings And Than Start Beefin Again...No Thanks"

"Whats Ya Problem"He Asked Me

"My Problem Is We Said Its Over So Let It Be Over Stop Tryna Sneak Yo Lighskin Ass Back In My Life...All I Want From You Is To Be A Father To Our Kids"I Said

"You Trippin I Was Just Tryna Help You Out"He Said

"I Don't Need Your Help Goodnight August"I Said

I Said As I Attempted To Get Out His Car

He Pulled Me Back And Said "Hold Up"

"What"I Said

"I Got You Something"He Said

He Pulled Out A Small Box With A Bow On It

He Gave Me The Gift And I Opened It And It Was A Key

"What Does It Goes Too"I Asked Him

"I Bought You Space For Your Business...It Can Be Anything You Wanted It To Be A Restaurant A Store Whatever Your Vison Is...Its On Peachtree...I Know You Graduating And I Know How Badly You Want Your Own Business So Here You Go...I Also Wanna Invest In You Give You Everything You Need To Start This Thing Up Because I Believe You Just Like You Believed In Me All These Years"He Said

It Was The Most Thoughtful Thing August Has Ever Did

And Instead Of Saying Thank You I Said "What Type Of Games Is You Playing..You Give Me Divorce Papers And Now You Tryna Help Me Start My Business"

"Its Not A Game...I Only Gave You Them Papers Because I Was Mad..You Did Step Out On Me So Course I Was Gon Be Mad..But Than I Thought About How Many Times I Made You Cried When I Cheated On You Wasn't Wrong I Was...I Shouldn't Acted Like That And I Apologize For That"He Said

"How Many Times Are You Going To Apologize I Don't Wanna Keep Hearing Sorry From You I Wanna See That You Sorry I Want You To Be A Man..Be A Man Thats All I Want!...Im Not Playing Any More Games With You No More August If You Want Me You Show Me Stop With The Mind Games And The Petty Shit Cause It Won't Be Tolerated Anymore!"I Said

"I Just Want You To Come Home,I Don't Know What It Is About You But I Can't Get Over You...Going Crazy Over This Shit But Baby I Wanna Make This Work I Love You And All I Want Is You...You Won't Me Be Man Well Dammit Im Being A Man And Im Telling I Need You...If You Come Home I Promise It Won't Be No More Lying,No More Cheating,No More Hurting You Just Come Home Tonight Please"He Said As He Looked Me Desperately In My Eyes

I Looked In His Eyes And I See How Bad He's Been Hurting And I Can See How Badly He Wants Me And How Much He Needs Me

August Didn't Wanna Lose Me Foreal I Felt That Tonight We Can Start Over

We Been Through So Much And Im Just Ready To End All This Bullshit

I Like My Man And His Bare Eyes And Said "Lets Go Home Than"

"You Serious"He Asked Me

"Yes Lets Go Home"I Said

"I'll Have Us Home In 20 Minutes"He Said As He Pulled Off

Yes He Lied To Me,Yes He Hurt Me,Yes He Cheated On Me,And Yes He Broke My Heart One Too Many Times

He Ain't Been The Best Man To Me But Looking In His Eyes I Got So Much Hope For Him

I Took Em Back Because I Love Him Because We Got History Because We Have Two Babies Together

I Vowed To Love Him For Better Or Worse

He's Man A Man Who Is Learning From His Mistakes I Know Alot Of You Out There Will Call Me Stupid And Say Im Dumb But Let Me Tell You Something Life Is Too Short To Not Be With The Person You Love

Im Willing To Give Em Another Chance And Im Willing To Go Home And Make This Marriage Work

When Pulled Up At Our Mansion August Carried Azian In And I Was Right Behind Him But Before I Walked Through That Door I Said To August "Just So We Clear You Will Never Hurt Me Again"I Demanded

"Understood"He Said

Than Finally I Walked In Home Sweet Home

A Few Weeks Later

Being Back At Home With August Felt So Right He Was Tremendous We Was Going To Counseling Going To Church August Had Stepped His Game Up 100 Percent And I Was So Proud Of Him He Was Being A Man Of His Word Everything He Said He Was Gon Do He Did

He Was Coming Home On Time At Night Being Supportive Of Me Cheering Me On And He Was Considerate

Definitely Was Loving The Changes I See In August

Even Though My Friends Had Hated That I Was Back With August I Was Still Happy To Have My Family Back It Was The Best Feeling In The World

I Had Finished My Exams And Was Waiting For My Test Scores To Come In I Felt Like I Passed But You Never Know

Waking Up This Morning Was Different I Stared In The Mirror And Notice How Thin I Looked I Never Been So Boney In My Life

It Was Weird Because Lately I Been Experiencing Some Thing Like I Was Throwing Up Alot,Having Shortness Of Breath,And Night Sweats

I Took A Pregnancy Test And I Wasn't Pregnant......Something Was Wrong With Me So I Went To Go See A Doctor

My Doctor Told Me That Its Probably Nothing But She Ran A Few Test On Me Just Make Sure And Said She Will Call Me To Let Me Know

I Went Home And Began Preparing For Dinner When My Mother Walked In

"Good To Be Home"My Mother Said Smiling

I Smiled And Said "Yes Ma'am..What You Doing Here I Thought You And David Was Going Out Tonight"

"We Are I Just Stop By To See What You Doing Where My Grandbabies At"She Asked Me

"Upstairs Playing The Game With August"I Said

"When You Gon Have Me Little Girl Grandbaby"My Mama Asked

"I Thought I Was Pregnant But Im Not...We Both Agree We Do Want A Baby Soon...But Im Graduating And Than I Will Start Opening My Business So I Will Be Busy..."I Said

"Did I Ever Tell You Im Proud Of You"She Said

"Everyday"I Said As I Smiled

August Came From Behind Me Kiss Me

"Hey Ma"He Said To My Mother

"Hey Baby"My Mother Responded

"When You Walking Down That Aisle"He Asked My Mother

"Early Spring I Will Be Officially A Married Woman"She Said

"Happily Married"I Said

She Half Smiled And Said "Your Absolutely Right"

Happily Married Theres No Such Thing As Happily Married After All Me And August Been Through Its Good That We Finally At Point Where Where Are Happy Things Are Never Perfect But We Taking A Day At Time And Right Now It That Seems To Be Working For Us

After Dinner I Gave The Boys A Bath Than Put Em To Sleep As I Got Ready For Bed I Heard August Singing In His Bathroom

I Walked And Grabbed Him From Behind He Smiled And Said "You Remember The First Date We Had At Ihop"

I Smiled And Said "I Remember Every Second Of It I Knew Than I Was Gon End Up Being Married To You"

"Years Later We Married With Two Kids You Finishing School And Im In The Prime Of My Career We Made It Through The Worst"He Said

"So We Can Make It Through Anything"I Said

He Turned Around And Looked Me In My Eyes "I Love You"

I Smiled And Said "And I Love You"

Than He Leaned In And Kiss Me And When He Kissed Me I Had Flashback Of Our Whole Relationship

From The Moment Seeing Him Smile At His Show Where I Met Him At To The Moment When We First Made Love When I Got Pregnant With Ayden,When I Found Out August Cheated,To The Moment When He Found Out I Was On Drugs,The Moments When He Visited Me In Rehab,And When He Had Stevie Wonder Sing As He Got Down On Knee And Propose To Me

We Through So Much And I Honestly Think It Made Us Stronger

We Promised Each Other To Never Let Nothing And Nobody Come Between Ever Again

Only Way Is Up Now He's A Better Man Now And Im A Better Person

As We Was Kissing My Phone Ring

I Answered The Phone And Said "Hello"

"Mrs.Alsina....Its Dr.Taylor Sorry To Be Calling You Late But Im Looking At Your Test Results And I Think You Should Come In Early Tomorrow Morning"She Said In A Sad Tone

"Is Everything Okay?"I Asked

"Im Afraid Not...I Rather Talk To You In Person Face To Face"She Said

"Um... Okay Well I Will Be At You Office Tomorrow Morning"I Said

"See You Soon GoodNight"She Said

"Bye"I Said As I Hung Up The Phone

August Could Tell By My Facial Expressions That Something Was Wrong

"Who Was That"He Asked

"Dr.Taylor....She Wants Me To Come In Tomorrow Morning"I Said

"For What"He Asked

"She Didn't Wanna Tell Me Over The Phone...Can You Come With Me"I Said

"Yeah...I Come With Ya"He Said

The Next Morning We Left Our Children With The Nanny And August Drove Me To My Appointment

We Sitting In Dr.Taylor Office For Her To Come And I Can't Lie I Was Terrified I Didn't Know What Was Wrong With Me And It Was Freaking Me Out

August Knew I Was Worried So He Kept Tryna Make Me Smile

"Smile"He Said

"I Can't...I Need To Know Whats Wrong"I Said

"Its Probably You Stressing Your Self Out For Nothing....You Need To Worry About What You Gon Do After Graduation...Im Throwing You A Big Graduation Party Too"He Said

"Your Throwing Me A Party"I Said As I Smiled

"Yeah We Gon Have Bottles And Strippers Cause I Know You Love Strippers"He Said

I Laughed And Said "We Slept With A Stripper One Time And All Of The Sudden I Love Strippers"

He Smiled And Said "Yup..When We Gon Do That Again" He Joked

"We're Married Now And We Have Kids Now"I Said As I Smiled

"What That Mean"He Joked

I Just Giggled

Dr.Taylor Walked In She Half Smiled And Said "How Are You Doin"

"Besides The Constant Throwing Up And Night Sweats Im Okay"I Said

She Stood In Front Of Us And August Held My Hand

She Said "Well Unfortunately I Have Some Bad News This Morning About Your Test Results...We Found A Tumor Growing Its Near The Lungs But Its Spreading To Other Parts Of Your Body And Im Positive That Its Cancer"

My Heart Damn Near Stop And I Could Barely Speak Those Words "I Have Cancer"I Said As I Put My Hands On My Head

"Cancer"August Repeated

" Im Sorry"She Said

"Nah...Yall Gon Have To Test Her Again She Can't Have Cancer...She Can't"August Said Going Crazy Shaking His Head

"I Did The Test Numerous Test Its Cancer"She Said

"What We Do Now"I Asked Still Tryna Wrapped My Head Around The Fact I Have Cancer

"We Caught It Early Thats A Good Thing We Find A Great Surgeon Remove The Tumor And Than Start You On Chemotherapy Immediately"She Said

"Chemo"August Said Breaking Down

"Im Supposed To Be Graduating In A Few Weeks Will I Still Be Attend It"I Asked

"Its Hard To Say...The Best Thing To Do Is Act Aggressively And Quickly I Can Schedule You With The Best Surgeon In Atlanta Today And We Can Start Treating You"She Said

"Lets Do That Than"I Said

I Look Over At August And He's Breaking Down Badly He Was Taking It Way Worser Than Me

"I Will Do That Now I Will Be Back With All The Information"She Said As She Walked Out

"August"I Said As I Smiled To Let Him Okay

He Looked Up At Me With Tears Falling Down His Eyes

"Im Okay...I Will Be Okay"I Said

He Shook His Head And Said "If I Lose You...Ziah.."

I Cut Em Off And Said "You Won't Lose Me Im Here...Im Not Going To No Where"

I Stood Up And Sat On His Lap And Lifted His Head Up And Said "We Made It Through The Worse...So We Can Make It Through Anything Right"

And He Bust Out Crying Even More

Its Sad To See Him Like This

I Held Him In My Arms And Said "We Gon Be Ight Aug" As A Tear Fell From My Eyes

Inside I Was Afraid So Afraid First Thing I Thought About Was My Kids And Will I Be Around To See Them Grow

Than I Thought About August What Is He Gonna Do Without Me..

I Don't Wanna Die Not Now Not When Everything Is Going Good Only 25 Years Old I Have So Much To Live For

This Can't Be The End For Me I Was Just Getting Started

God Why Me....Why Me

I Was Pretending To Be Okay So August Would Calm Down But Inside I Was Thinking Like How Ima Beat This How Am I Going To Get Through This

Its Alot Of Things I Can Take But Cancer I Don't Think I Can Take That

I Got Three Words And Three Words Only

Pray For Me

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