I Just Could Not Believe He Was In Our Bed Fuckin His Babymama

He Jump Up Real Quick Kacy Smiled As She Wrapped The Sheet Around Here

Am Im Just Standing There Like I Saw A Ghost...Because I Just Really Saw Six Years Go Down The Drain

This Was The Moment When I Knew In My Heart That It Was Over It Was The Last Straw

There Was No Working It Out After This All Love Was Lost And Now I Can Finally Move On

"Aziah...I..."He Said

It Was Like At The Point My Heart Was So Broken That Its I Think I Was Starting To Get Immune To Pain Because I Was So Use To It

I Took My Ring Off And Said "You Ain't Gotta Explain Shit To Me August Neva Again"

I Threw My Ring On The Floor Before He Could Say Sorry

This Was My Last Attempt To Try And Fix Us But It Was No Fixing Us Now I Realize August Only Loves August And Now Its Time Aziah Loves Only Aziah And Leave August Behind

This Whole Marriage Been Nothing But Tears And Heart Break And I Just Wanna Be Done With Him

"I Been Calling You...You Ain't Been Answerin What You Expect"He Asked

"I Expected Way Too Much"I Answered

He Looked Me In His Eyes And Said "I Don't Know Why I Keep Doing Stupid Shit To You I Don't Know Whats Wrong With Me...I Keep Hurting You"

I Could Beat The Life Outta Kacy And Than Turn Around And Stabbed August To Death But You Know What...He Ain't Even Worth The Jail Time

And I Felt Like A New Woman No Longer Feeling A Sad Fool But A Brighter Person

I Was Done With This Marriage And I Was Especially Done With August It Was No Coming Back From This He Hurt Me For The Last Time Because I Will Not Let Him Get The Chance To Hurt Me Again

I Had No Words For Him So When I Turned And Tried To Walked Away He Didn't Bother Stoping Me Because He Too Knew It Was Over Between Us

Its Been A Long Road With Me And August

I Can't Tell You How Many Times He Made Smile,How Many Of My Nerves He Got On,How Many Times He Made My Day,How Many Nights I Watched Him Sleep,Or How Many Times I Prayed For Him

He Seen Me At My Worst,He Made Me Strong When I Was Weak,I Could Talk To Him About Everything At One Point I Couldn't Even Go Through The Day Without Hearing His Voice

I Used To Be Crazy About Him...I Never Thought We Would Really Be Over

I Must Of Dreamt About Growing Old With Him A Millon Times But I Guess Some Dreams Don't Come True

You Can't Change No One...You Can't Make Someone Do Right By You

I've Given Up On August I Lost All Hope In This Marriage

I Literally Could Not Cry Anymore I Can't Stress Out Over This Anymore...I Can't Do It Anymore

When I Got Back To My Mother Home I Sat Down On Her Couch I Placed My Head In My Lap I Felt Weak

The Fact That I Was Really Getting A Divorce And I Wasn't Going To Have My Family Anymore Was Doing Something To Me

Times Like This I Miss My Grandmother She Always Know What To Say...She Was Good At Things Like That I Still Miss Her

Ayden Ran To Me And Climbed Up On My Lap

"Hey Baby"I Said As I Tried To Smiled But I Ended Up Letting A Tear Fall Down My Eye

I Didn't Want Ayden Seeing Me Down Like This....

He Wiped My Eye And Than He Kissed My Forehead And Said "I Luh You Mama"

"...I Love You Too"I Said As I Smiled

My Sweet Baby Even Though I Loss Love Today Atleast I Have Two People Who Love Will Love Me Forever

Funny How Ayden Was The One Kissing Me Trying Make Me Feel Better Because He Knew Right Mommy Hurts So Bad Inside

I Wonder If He's Know That Mommy Hurts Because Of Daddy And Now Mommy And Daddy Aren't Together Anymore

I Was A Hot Ass Mess I Needed To Get Out Of Town....A Trip Sounded Good

I Ended Up Flying Me And The Boys Out To California To Visit Brea

She Let Us Stay With Her For A Few Days

She Was Showing Me Around Her Home While The Children Play Out Back In Her Backyard

"I Can't Believe Your Here In Cali"She Said As She Smiled

"I Needed To Get Out Of Atlanta So Badly"I Said

"Well Im Glad...You Here...Now Bitch Spell That Tea..Is It True You And Aug Really Getting A Divorce"She Asked

I Looked At Her And Said "Yes Its True"

"Damn.....Im Sorry To Hear That...Is It Really That Bad That Yall Gotta Get A Divorce"She Asked Me

"The Worst..He's Been Cheating,Lying,Sleeping With His Baby Mother Apparently Oh He Admitted To Wanting To Sleep With Tamera"I Admitted

"What The Fuck Is Wrong With Him"She Asked Me

"Its So Much More Than That....I Just Couldn't Take It No More Its Not Healthy For Me Or My Children I Had To Leave"I Said

"So What You Gon Do Now"She Asked Me

"Ima...Raise My Boys Up In About A Year I Will Have My Degree And I Will Be Opening Up My Own Business...I Just Gotta Keep Busy And Try My Hardest Not To Think About What Im Losing"I Said

"And What Is It That You Losing"She Asked Me

"My Family"I Said

"Aziah Baby There Are Different Types Of Family Look At Me And London Its Just Us Two But Were Both Happy...And You Will Be Happy Too With Your Babies As Well August Is Wrong....He's Dead Wrong And This Time He Can't Fix It"She Said

I Shook My Head And Said "I Feel Like So Stupid...For Even Thinking That August Could Be The Man I Want Em To Be..I Feel So Stupid For Believing Him All Them Times He Lied To Me"

"Don't Blame Yourself For Loving Someone....Its Not Your Fault You See Good In People...Listen To Me August Gon Regret The Day He Hurt You"She Said

"What About Me When Will I Stop Feeling Pain..When Will I Get Over This When Can I Be Happy Again"I Asked

"I Guess Your Only Answer To That Is Time..Time Will Heal You"She Said

Well Time Needs To Hurry Up Cause Right Im Very Broken Inside And I Don't Have Much To Give Right Now

I Just Wanna Be A Point Where I Can Be Without August And Still Smile And Be Happy

I Want To Be Able To Look Him In Eyes And Say Im Over You

Brea Insists I Take Some Time To Clear My Head She Said I Needed So Fresh California Air So She Watched The Boys For Me

And I Took A Uber To The Beach

I Walked Around With My Feet In The Sand Thinking About Everything

August Was My World...Now My World Is Crushed...Everything We Had Everything We Been Through It Was All A Waste Of Time Cause Now I Don't Have Him Anymore

All I Wanted Was Him To Fight Fight For Us Fight For Me Just Like I Been Fighting For Him

What's Life Going To Be Without August I'll Tell You What...Peaceful

I Just Wanna Be At Peace And Become A Better Woman

All I Have Is My Children And Thats All I Need Everything Else Will Fall In Place

As I Was Walking Around The Beach I Stood And Look Up At The Beautiful Sun Going Down

Where I Heard A Familiar Voice Say "I Knew Someday I Would See You Again"

I Turned And Looked Next To Me And It Was Benny That One Nigga I Went On That Date With

I Smiled And Said "Benny Right"

"Damn You Forgot My Name After You Curved Me Thats Fucked Up"He Said As He Smiled

"I Didn't Curve You...I Was Just In A Situation It Was Complicated It Had Nothing To Do With You I Was Just A Different Time In Life Back Than"I Said

"August Alsina Huh.......I Met Him Once Or Twice I Never Like The Nigga Because He Had You...And I Always Wanted You"He Said

I Smiled And Said "Your Very Charming"

"And You Beautiful And Im Not Just Talkin Shit Your Gorgeous Baby"He Said

Still Smiling I Said "Well Thank You You Live In California"

"Nah Im Out Here Working Writtin Songs For An Artist Album...I'll Been Back In Atlanta In Like A Few Weeks What You Doing Beside Making A Nigga Wanna Steal You"He Said

"Im Visiting A Friend"I Replied

He Looked Down At My Hand And Said "...You Ain't Wear A Ring"

"I Know..."I Said

He Smiled "It Ain't My Business....But Just Tell Me Straight Up Do I Have A Chance With You At All Or Am I Just Wasting My Time"

"Im Legally Still Married....And Im Very Damaged Hurt,And Broken The Last Thing I Want Is A Another Fuckin Relationship"I Said

"I Hear You...It Do Seems Like He Put You Through Some Shit...Seem Like You Got Some Shit On Your Chest..Sit Down With Me Lets Talk About It"He Sat In The Sand

I Sat Next To Him And Said "Its Nothing To Talk About...He Ain't Gon Change And Im Not Settling End Of Story...I Can't Keep Trying To Make This Work When All Hes Does Is Lie To Me,Cheat,And Try To Control Me"

"I Feel Like Im Losing My Mind.....I Hate That It Hurts This Much.....When I Did Nothing To Deserve This"I Said Not Realizing That Tears Were Falling Down My Eyes Again

Benny Grabbed Me And Hugged Me

"...Stop Crying...Baby Girl You A Star Shining So Bright And If That Nigga Couldn't Appreciate It Don't Worry A Thousand Other Niggas Will Cause You That Precious"He Said

He Made Me Smile As He Continued Hugging Me

Than He Looked At Me And Said "I Can See You In Pain Right Now And You Hurting...I Ain't Asking To Be Yo Man..I Just Wanna Be A Nigga You Can Trust Cause I Won't Ever Hurt You If Anything Ima Take Care Of You In Every Way"

"How Do I Know You Won't Hurt Me"I Asked

"How Do You Know That I Will Hurt You"He Asked Me

"Answering A Question With A Question Childish"ISaid

He Smiled And Said "Don't You Mean Corny"

I Giggled And Said "Yeah You Still Are Corny"

He Laughed And Said "I'll Be The Corniest Nigga Breathing Just To Make You Smile"

"You Got Me Blushing Its Been So Long Since I Blushed"I Said

"As Long As Im Around Ima Keep You Blushing"He Said

Benny Was Cool But I Wasnt Looking For Nothing Serious Im Still Married

But Its Nothing Wrong With Having A Friend At A Time Like This A Friend Was Well Needed

I Didn't Think That Benny And I Would Go Further Than Friends For The Simple Fact I Didnt Think That I Would Ever Get Over August Atleasti Thats What It Felt Like