When I Finally Could Say Something I Said "Well Is It Yours"

"I Just Told Ya Im Not Sure...I Only Slept With Her That One"He Said

"Thats All Its Takes!"I Yelled In The Phone

"What If She Just Lyin Tho..You Know How These Bitches Is If This Is My Baby Why She Wait So Long To Tell Me !"He Said

"How Old Is The Baby"I Asked

"A Little Younger Than Ayden"He Said

"I Can't Believe This...You Really Callin Me From Miami On Christmas Telling Me You Got A Baby By The One Bitch I Can't Stand"I Yelled

Than I Looked How My Babies Was Looking Up At Me And Said "I Can't Talk To You About This Right Now Im Not Gon Mess Up My Babies Christmas Their Having A Good Time.....The Minute You Off That Stage Bring Yo Ass Straight Home!" I Said

Than I Hung Up The Phone

Please Lord Let Her Be Lying And Im Not Sure If I Can Handle A Baby Outside Of My Marriage

Especially By The Woman He Cheated On Me With Me

I Couldn't Even Enjoy The Rest Of The Day All I Kept Thinking About Was This Child August Might Be The Father Of

And How This Child Was Going To Affect Me And My Family

August Came Home Immediately Home And It Was Four In The Morning And We Were In Our Kitchen

He Haven't Even Put His Suitcase Down Yet

Standing Face To Face Looking To Him From My Eyes

I Asked "Tell Me The Truth Do You Think This Is Your Child"

Looking Back In My Eyes He Slowly Nodded His Head

And I Was So Overwhelmed I Just Had To Sit Down

And Just Shook My Head Feeling A Hurt Because I Don't Want This Little Boy To Be His Son

What Was I Supposed To Do I Wasn't Sure Just Yet I Just Wish He Hadn't Cheated On Me In The First Place Than None Of This Would Be Happening

As Im Sitting There With The Look Of Disappointment Stuck On My Face He Says "I Understand If You Wanna Leave...I'll Even Understand If You Wanna Get A Divorce I Fucked Up Bad,Again I Don't Know What Ima Do"

"Leave?" I Questioned As I Stood Up And Looked Up At Him

I Held His Hands And Looked Him In His Eyes "Im Not Goin Anywhere Baby Til Death Do Us Part I Might Be A Little Upset But Im With You Not Aganist If This Is Your Child Than Im Gon Love Just As Much As I Love My Children Because Its Apart Of You"

"Im Sorry Im Puttin For You Through All This"He Apologizes

"Im Strong I'll Be Okay..."I Said

"I Love You Ziah"He Said Those Were Words So Sweet To My Ears

I Don't Wanna Be The Wife He Hates To Come Home Too I Wanna Be The Wife He Can't Wait To Get Home Too

I Don't Wanna Be His Enemy I Wanna Be His Partner

Even Though Im Hurt Im Willin To Accept This Child If Its His

If He Going Through It Than Im Right Besides Him Going Through It With Him As Well

I Was Just Trying To Be A Good Wife That He Needed Me To Be

A Night Of Fresh Sleep Kinda Of Made Me Feel Much Better

I Woke Up Next To My Husband Besides Me The Next Morning

He Was Up On His Phone

"Have You Been To Sleep"I Said Looking At Him

I Saw That He Had Bags Under His Eyes So Clearly He Haven't Slept All Night

"Whats Wrong"I Asked

"I Just Couldn't Sleep"He Said

He Looked At Me And Said "Think Ima Go To The Studio Get So Work Done"

I Knew That Something Was Bothering Him So I Said "Aug Whats The Matter"

He Rested His Head Back On The Headboard And Said "Its This Whole Situation....I Might Have Son Who Don't Even Know Me That Shit Is Killin Me Inside I Never Wanted To Be One Of Them Niggas Havin Babies All Over Who Don't Even See Em I Ain't My Daddy I Ain't No Deadbeat That Ain't Even Me"

"Its Not Your Fault You Didn't Know... Im Sure That All The Time You Missed You Will Soon Make Up...Stop Beating Yourself Up"I Said

He Stood Up And Said "I Can't Believe This Shit....! I Let My Family Down"

"No You Didn't...You Think Ayden And Azain Will Hate You They Won't They Will Still Love You"I Said

"Only Because They Don't Understand It Yet"August Said

"You Not Giving Us Enough Credit Aug,...We Will Get Through This"He Said

"I Scheduled To Have The Test Done This Week"He Said

I Stood Up And Looked Him In His Eyes And Said "Its Not Gon Be The Worst Thing That Ever Happens To Us... We Will Get Through This"I Assured Him With A Smile To Seal The Deal

Deep Down I Wasn't Even Sure How We Was Gon Through This I Didn't Want Him To Be The Father Of This Child I Didn't Wanna Accept An Child Conceived Out Of Unfaithfulness And Lies

I Don't Wanna Be Reminded Of August Infidelity Everytime I Look At This Child

But Still I Swallow All My Fears And Insecurities And Lifted My Husband's Spirit

I Played It Off Like I Was Okay About This But Inside I Wasn't

The Thought Of Him And Kacy Making A Child When His Ass Should Of Been Home With Me Was Hurting Me

On Top Of All That Later On I Got A Phone Call From Gia Sister

She Said That Gia Was In The Hospital She Tried To Commit Suicide

I Dropped Everything And Went To Go See Her

Even Though Me And Gia Haven't Been The Best Of Friends And I Might Be The Reason Why We Ain't That Cool I Still Do Not Wish Death On No One Not Even On My Worst Enemy

Didn't Know If She Would Be Happy To See Me Or Not But Right Now All That Matters Is Her Health All That Beef Is Out The Window

I Arrived To The Hospital With Flowers And A Teddy Bear When I Walked In Her Hospital Room She Was Laying In A Hospital Bed Look Like Life Has Drained Her Of All Her Joy Love And Happiness

She Looked At Me And Said "Im Okay"

"I Didn't Say That You Wasn't"I Said As I Smiled And Sat Next To Her

"Sorry...Im Just Sick Of People Walking In Staring At Me Like Its Something Wrong With Like Im Crazy...Im Okay"She Said With Tears In Her Eyes

"What Happen?"I Asked Her

"Like You Care...Aren't You Too Busy Living Your Good Life Being A Wife And Taking Of August Kids"She Said

"Im Here Ain't I?. .Now Tell Me What Happen Gia"I Asked

I Sat Next To Her In A Hospital Chair As She Said "Lately I've Sad,Real Sad,I Lost My Job,My Boyfriend Is A Dog,I Have More Bills Than I Have Money,I Cant Find A Job And Oh Yeah I Recently Found Out That I Can't Have Children"

"Im So Sorry"I Said

"It Took Two Miscarriages Two For The Doctors To Figure Out Im Not Capable Of Carrying A Baby..Lately I Just Couldn't Handle Everything Lifes Been Throwing I Been Feeling Hopeless So I Slit My Wrists

...It Was Stupid I Know I Just Had A Stupid Moment Im Not Crazy "She Said As Tears Poured From Her Eyes

"I Believe You...I Do"I Said As Held Her Hand

"Its Like No Matter What I Do I Just Can't Catch A Break For A Slight Second I Was Sick Of Livingl"She Said As She Put Her Head Down And Cried

"Im Sure Everyone Feel Like That Before I've Feel Like Before I Felt Weak And Defeated But Gia The Fight Is Not Over And Killin Yourself Only Lets Life Win..Suicide Is Not Option Ever! Stayin Strong "I Said

She Looked At Me And Said "You Right"

She Held My Hand Tight As I Said "If You Ever Feel This Low Again I Won't You To Call Me Even If You Just Need Someone To Talk Too You Can Talk Too Me"

"God I've Missed You"She Admitted

"I've Miss You Too"I Said

"I Let August Really Come Between Us"She Said

"No...I Did...I Was Wrong For Seeing August Behind You Back...I Have No Right I Should've Been Loyal To My Bestfriend And For That I Apologize To You"I Said

She Smiled And Said "You Don't Know How Long I Waited To Hear That Even Though Im Over It It Nice To Hear You Apologize"

"I Mean It"I Said

"I Know...Enough With All This Sad Stuff Tell Me About Those Cute Babies Of Yours"She Said As She Smiled

I Smiled And Said "Well My First Born Wrote All Over The Wall The Other Day He's So Active He Gets Into Everything I Have To Show You These Pictures"

I Was Going Through Alot But This Fight Wasnt Over Just Yet I Had To Strong For August Because He Was Losing It

It Was Bothering Him I Can See In His Eyes When He Looks At Me