I Was So Afraid To Tell August About Rell I Knew He Was Gon Go Crazy And I Knew That He Would Probably Hate Me

But I Couldn't Continue To Lie To Him..Even Though August May Of Lied To Me A Million Times..I Am Not Like August I Can't Stand To Lie And Hurt The Person I Love

I Didn't Know What Was Gon Happen Tonight But I Knew That After Tonight Nothing Will Ever Be The Same Again

My Mother Took The Kids To My Grand Opening And It Was Just Me And August It Was Now Or Never

He Walked In Our Bedroom Holding The Card That Rell Sent To Me

"What The Fuck Is This"He Said

I Looked Up At Em And I Couldn't Say A Word

He Looked At Me And Said "Im Talking To Myself"

I Opened My Mouth And Said "About That…I….I...I"Trippin Over My Own Words

"I Just Got Off The Phone With Toya...So If You Tryna Tell About Yo Little Boyfriend…I Know About It All"He Said As He Throw The Card On The Floor

"Toya??….Why Are You Talking To Toya!'I Said Getting Angry

"I Guess We Bout Got Secrets Na Don't We?"He Said

Im Still Confused As Hell

"You Fucked Toya Didn't You"I Said Shaking My Head

"Nah...But I Did Fucked Miracle…And Made Her Got That Abortion Since We Being So Damn Honest Tonight"He Said

"You Cheated And Lied What Else Is New"I Said Calmy Staring At Him

"I Cheated? You Makin Love To Niggas Tho….Aziah Save That Victim Shit Please !….Cause One Thing I Ain't Neva Did Was Fall In Love With Any Of These Bitches! "He Said Getting Angry

"Because Of You! "I Said Making Tears Falling Out Of My Eyes

"You Done Put Me Through So Much Shit August…With The Hoes,The Stalkers,The Babymama…Oh Im Sorry I Mean Babymamas...Its You Who Turned Me Into A Spiteful Human Being Like This…"I Said

"Me.…Me.…You A Grown Ass Woman.….You Gave Up That Pussy Cause You Wanted Too…Not Cause Of Me Because Of You…Take Responsibility !"He Yelled

"I Am Taking Responsibility But You Played A Part In It Just As Well As I Did Just Accept It"I Said

"Accept That You A Slut"He Yelled

"And What Are You"I Asked

"Im Done Thats What The Fuck I Am"He Said Than He Punched A Hole In The Wall

And Than He Grabbed His Suitcase

I Got Up And Said "You Wanna Leave Okay Cool I'll Help You!"

I Went To His Big Ass Closet And Grabbed Some Of His Thing

He Pushed Me And Said "Man Watch Out"

"No You Wanna Leave Nigga Leave! "I Yelled

Than He Looked At Me With The Saddest Facial Expression Ever And Said "How You Fall In Love With The Nigga Ziah…Tell Me That" As If He Wanted To Cry

"I Didn't Mean Too"I Said With Tears Still In My Eyes

And We Just Stare Each Other

It Was The Moment When Both Knew It Was Really Over

It Was No Way We Could Go On And We Both Knew That

Tonight Was Supposed To Be A Happy Night For Me But Instead I Was Sitting In Our Closet With August And Our Backs Was Turnt On Eachother Cause We Couldn't Even Look At Each Other

Its So Much Shit Thats Been Said…So Much Shit That Be Done This Whole Marriage Was A Disgrace

Lies On Top Of Lies…It Was Really A Mess And Now We Were Just Both Hurt

"What About Ayden And Azian"I Said

"They Gon Be Good…Im Still They Father You Still They Mama...That Ain't Never Gon Change..…"He Said

"Who's Leaving Me Or You"I Asked

"I'll Leave…"He Said

"Do You Hate Me"I Asked

"Could Never Hate You Even I Wanted Too...But We Can't Live Like This…I Think This Marriage Has Run Its Course"He Said

"I Still Love You"I Said

"….I Know"He Said

It Was One Of The Worst Nights Of My Life We Both Mutually Decided Its Best We Part Ways For The Sake Of Ayden And Azian

Me And August Had Our Ups And Boy Did We Have Our Downs...I Can't Put It All On Him Because I Wasn't Perfect

We Been Through Hell And Back And At Times I Knew We Would Always Be Together But I Was Wrong

Its Only So Much A Person Can Take,August Drove To The Point Of Cheating Whether He Admits Or Not…Lovin Him Was The Most Difficult Thing To Do

I Dealt With His Lies,His infidelities,And His Selfish Way To Long

Even Though I Still Loved Him I Was Ready To Love Myself Even More…

Needless To Say 6 Months Later August And I Were Finally Legally Divorced

August Ended Up Getting His Own Place Not Too Far From Us

And With The Help Of Counseling We Both Were Learning To Forgive And To Co Parent Together

We Finally Have A Healthy Relationship After All We Been Through We Could Finally Have A Cordial Conversation With Each Other It Took Some Time But We Manage To Respect Eachother

After All August Did For Me I Will Always Love Him But This Is What Was Best For Our Kids

What Me And August Had Was A Lesson…Never Ever Let A Man Treat You Like Shit…It Taught Me To Know My Worth

Me And Rell Were Still Together And Im Just So Thankful For Him Being So Patient With Me Cause I Damage But He Has Taught Me How To Love Again

He Always Put Me First,I Got His Passwords To Everything,He Never Disrespect Me Or My Love.. Things Have Been So Good He Just Make Me Feel So Damn Good About Myself

Its The Way He Holds Me The Way He Loves Me Never Had A Man Care For Me They Way That He Cares For Me

He's Good With My Kids,My Mama Love Him And He's Always There For Me Always

Not Saying That We Getting Married Or Anything Like That But Just Sayin That Im Happy With Him

Waking Up Mornings Just Smiling And Feeling More Confident As A Woman

It Was Early Saturday And I Was Taking The Kids Over To August House

We Got There And August And All His People Was There

He Opened The Door And Smiled

"Daddy"Ayden Yelled

He Hugged August As Agust Said "You Miss Me"

"Yeah"Ayden Said

He Picked Up Azian And Kissed His Forehead "Hey Little Man"

Than He Looked At Me And Said "How You Doing Ziah'

"Im Fine…Thanks For Asking…Okay Azian Potty Training So Make Sure He Potty's He Has On A Pull Up On…Ayden Has Homework Make Sure He Does It No Tv,No Games,Oh And Please Don't Give Them Ice Cream Before Again"I Said

He Laughed And Said "Gotcha…I Wont…Hey My Mama Here Wanna Come In Here And Say Hello"

"Sure"I Said

Me And Cathrine Had Still Kept A Strong Relationship…Even Though Me And August Are Now Divorced She Still Been There For Me And I Appreciated Her For That

When We Walked In His Kitchen Cathrine Smiled And Said "Oh My Grandbabies Are Here"

"Hey Grandma"Ayden Said As He And Gave His Grandmother A Hug

"Hey Baby"She Said Than She Smiled At Me And Said "How You Been"

And I Smiled And Said "I Been Just Fine Staying Out Of Trouble"

"You Look Real Good"She Said

"Thank You I Feel Good"I Said

"You Know You Always Gon Be My Daughter In Law No Matter What"She Said

"Don't Start Ma"August Said

I Laughed And Said "Yall Cookin Up Something Good...I Can Smell It"

"I Got Cornbread,Ox Tails Soup,And Fried Chicken…You Hungry I Can Fix You Something To Eat"She Said

"I Would Love Too But I Just Ate"I Said

"I Wanna Eat"Azian Said

August Smiled And Said "Alright Than Grandma Gon Get You Something To Eat"As He Gave Azian To Cathrine

"He Is Literally Growing Up So Fast"I Said

"Its Crazy Ain't It"He Said

And Than This Woman Walked In…She Was Lightskin..Thick With Long Hair Down Her Back

"Hey Everyone...I Brought Babyback Ribs"She Said As She Smiled

August Turned And Smiled "Hey Babe...Thought You Was Coming Later"

"I Was But I Got Off Work Early"She Said Smiling At August

August Leaned In And Gave Her A Quick Smooch On The Lips

And Ayden Walked Up To Her And Said "Hi Bella"

"Hello Ayden...Your Looking Very Extra Handsome Today"She Said Smiling

"Thank You"As Ayden Smiled Back

"Hello Cathrine"The Woman Said

Cathrine Looked At Her With This Unpleasant Expressions On Her Face

"Hello Bella"She Said Dryly

Than August Said "This Is Bella...Bella This Is The Mother Of My Kids Aziah"

She Smiled And Said "Finally….Ayden Talks About You All The Time.....You Have Amazing Kids"

"Thank You Nice To Meet You"I Said Shaking Her Hands

"Your Beautiful Too.."She Said

"Thank You.…You Wearing That Chanel Bag Girl I Have That Same One"I Said Complimenting Her

"Thanks"She Said Smiling

"Well I Better Get Going"I Said

I Kissed Azian And Said "Ayden Gimmie Hug"

Ayden Wrapped His Arms Around Me And He Said "I Love You Mommy"

"Aww"Bella Said

I Smiled And Said "I Love You More..…Ima Call You Later"

"Okay"He Said Looking Up At Me

"I Can Walk You Out"August Said

"Okay…Goodbye Everyone…Nice To Meet You Again Bella"I Said

She Waved By As Me And August Walked To The Front Door

When We Got To The Door We Both Face Eachother And It Was A Bit Awkward

"About Bella...Look If I Knew She Was Gon Pop Up I Would Of Told You Before You Drop The Kids Off That She Was Gon Be Here"He Said

"Um...Its Cool August You Don't Owe Me Explanation..I Like Bella...She Sweet"I Said

Than He Looked At Me And Smiled "Shes Great…She Loves Ayden And Azian Like Her Own"

"I Can Tell"I Said

He Seem Happy Very Happy

"Um I Will Picked Them Up Sunday Night"I Said

"Okay And I Will See Tuesday At Ayden's Play"He Said

"You Certainly Will"I Said

Than He Hugged Me And Said "Its Good To See You"

I Smiled And Said "It's Good To See You Too"

After We Finished Hugging We Just Looked At Each Other

"Well I Better Get Back In There"He Said

"You Do That...I Will Call The Kids Tonight"I Said

"See You Around"He Said

"See You Around"I Said

Than I Walked Out The Door And Honestly Im Happy To See August Happy

If Bella Makes Him A Better Man Than I Am Here For It Whats The Point Of Being Bitter?

When I Got Home…Rell Was In The Kitchen Cooking Dinner

"Im Starving"I Said

"Hey Why You Sneakin Up On Me"He Said Smiling

"Makin Sure You Ain't Cheating"I Joked

"That Aint Never Gon Happen…"He Said

He Wrapped His Arms Around My Waist And Kissed Me

"I Miss You"He Said

"How Much"I Said

"Too Much…"He Said

I Smiled And Said "Whats On Our Agenda Tonight"I Asked

"Whatever You Wanna Do…"He Said

"How About We Start Thinking Of Names"I Said

"Names..Girl What You Talking About"He Said

I Smiled And Said "Im Pregnant"

"What"He Said As His Eyes Got Big And He Smiled

"I Took Three Pregnancy Tests This Morning While You Sleep...I Am Definitely Pregnant..You Gon Be A Daddy"I Said

"Thats The Best Shit I Heard All Year"He Said As He Picked Me Up

He Was Excited

It Was So Cute

"I Love You Girl"He Said As He Looked Me In My Eyes

And Know Every Word He Says To Me Is True And I Couldn't Be More Happier To Give Him His First Child

Like I Loved This Man So Much...He Has Made Me A Better Person…He Has Been Honest And True And I Am So Happy We Met

His Love Doesn't Hurt! It Feels So Damn Good To Me

We Prayed Together…Its That Deep With Us ..No Games,No Lies And No Tears I Couldn't Ask For A Better Boyfriend Never Knew Love Like This Before

I Didn't Plan On Any Of These Things To Happen Never Did I Think Me And August Would Be Apart…I Didn't Think That It Was Possible For Me To Live With Out Him

But You See Im Learning So Much These Days…For The First Time In Life I Am Truly Happy..And You Don't Know How It Took For Me To Get To This Space

It Took Alot Of Betrayal,Hurt,Strenght,And Forgiveness To Get Here

I Use To Be So Angry All The Time I Used To Hate My Mother I Use To Hate Myself I Went Through A Drug Addiction And Almost Lost My Son….I Went Through Cancer And Almost Died But God Has A Plan

God Has Plan Thats Bigger Than Me!!…I Was Divorced With Two Kids And I Still Wake Up In The Morning And I Smile Because God Has A Plan

Some People Are Meant To Be In Your Life And Some People Aren't Meant To Be Lesson

And I Take August As A Lesson….And A Blessings If August Hadn't Did Me So Wrong I Would Have Never Met Rell

August Was Living His Life And I Was Finally Starting Mines

I Had My Beautiful Boys And I Will Be Expecting My Baby Girl In A Few Months And Life Could Not Be Any Better

I Was Laughing More,Smiling Harder And More Humble I Look At The Bad Shit I Been Through And I Literally Laughed My Ass Off At Some Of Things To Keep August Around

I Was Young,I Didn't Know No Better

Thank You God I've Grown Into A Woman

A Woman With Her Own Money,A Woman Who Learns From Life A Woman Who Is Secure With Herself

I Finally Know What Love Is I Finally Know Who I Am And I Finally Have My Happily Ever After