We Sat Down In Dr.Taylor Office And She Stood Infront My Eyes And August Was Next To Me Still Holding My Hand Strong

Tears In Both Our Eyes As We Both Look Up At Dr.Taylor

I Just Knew It Was Gon Be Bad News

"Your Test Results Wasn't Good"Dr.Taylor

And I Started Crying My Eyes Out

"Oh God"I Said As I Held My Chest Because It Felt Like I Was Going To Have A Heart Attack

"I Want You To Go Home And Kiss Your Kids And Give Them The Biggest Hug You Can Give...And Tell Them "Mommys Isn't Going No Where"….Because Those Test Results Didn't Just Come Back Good...Those Test Results Are Great So Great I Can Now Declare You Aziah Alsina As A Cancer Survivor"Dr.Taylor Said As She Smiled

Those Tears Of Sorrow Turned Quickly Into Tears Of Joy

"Cancer Is Gone Completely….All Those Surgery And Chemo Worked…"Dr.Taylor

August Kissed My Forehead

I Smiled And Cried "I Feel Better Now…This Whole Thing Has Been So Hard On Me And My Family"

"You Were Strong..Strong Enough To Beat Cancer..I Must Warn You That Its Always Possibly For Cancer To Comeback...But We Will Check You Out Every 6 Months To Make Sure Everything Is Good For Now You Can Go Home And Kiss Those Beautiful Boys"She Said

Than She Smiled And Said "I'll Give You Two A Minute…Its Must Be All So Overwhelming"She Said As She Step Out

I Turned And Looked At August And Said "I Thought I Was Gonna Die"

He Wiped My Eyes And Said "I Don't Know What I Would Do Without You"

I Smiled And Said "Now You Stuck With Me"

"I Wouldn't Wanna Have It No Other Way"He Said As He Leaned In Kissed Me

This Cancer Has Taught Me Something….You Never Know When Its Your Time To Go…..So Make Sure You Thank The Lord Each And Every Day That You Wake Up…And Most Of All To Appreciate The Little Things In Life Like Clean Water And Good Health Because Not A Lot Of People Do Have Those Things So If You Lucky Enough To Have Them You Better Thank God

After Rejoicing And Thanking God For His Glory With My Family And Friends I Went Home To The Two The Most Important People To Me In The World Ayden And Azian

They Were Sitting On The Living Room Floor Playing With Their Toys

I Sat Down On The Floor And Grabbed Both My Babies And Hugged Them And I Kissed Them And I Told Them "I Will Always Be Here For You..Both You And Azian" I Said To Ayden

And That Was The Best Feeling In The World To Let My Kids Know That Im Gon Be Here For Them

Fuck This Big Ass House,My Bentley,All This Money And Material Shit At The End Of The Day All I Want Is To Be Here Alive And Well Being A Mother To My Kids

That Same Night I Literally Got No Sleep I Was Up All Night Getting Things Ready To Open Up Today

I Was Anxious,Excited And Nervous

I Just Wanted Everything To Go As Plan

I Was At The Shop All Night Long I Came Home To Shower And Was Getting Ready To Leave Back Out To My Shop

As I Was Getting Dressed I Gotta Call From August I Answered And Said "Hello"

"What You Doing"He Asked Me

"Boutta Be At The Shop…You Know That We Leaving At 7:30…My Mother Are Bringing The Kids...Your Mother Is Getting Picked Up From The Airport Now And My Dress Is Getting Picked Up Oh And The Limo Will Be Here At 7:35"I Said

"You Gon Be Mad At Me"He Said

"Why?"I Said As I Sat On The Bed

"I Gotta Show In Tampa Tomorrow…But They Need Me Too Fly Out Tonight To Handle Some Business"He Said

"August Come On…Its The Of My Grand Opening…I Need You There"I Said.

"Ziah Don't Start…You Know How This Shit Works...I Done Already Signed A Contact And Took Them People Money I Can't Just Not Show Up"He Said

"August I Worked My Ass For Months For This Night And You Really Telling Me That You Not Gon Be There To Support Me After The Many Times I Supported You"I Said

"See Why You Always Gotta Go There?.... Im Just Now Finding Out About This Shit…I Can't Control When Im Booked You Gon Have To Take That Up With My Management…Its Yo Shop Anyways What I Need To Be There For?"He Asked

I Shook My Head And Hung Up The Phone On His Ass

"Stupid Ass"I Said As I Mumbled To Myself

He Called Back And I Didn't Answer His Call

Even August Selfishness Couldn't Bring Me Down Tonight. .Tonight Was About Me Finally And Everything I Work Hard For

I Still Wanted The Support Of Husband To Get Me Wrong But August Is Just About August What Else Is New

Im So Use To This Shit Im Ashamed To Say

I Grabbed My Purse And Keys And Walked Down The Stairs

When I Opened The Door It Was A Delivery Guy Standing At My Door

"Mrs.Alsina?"He Asked

"Yes"I Said

"A Package From Darrell Hampton"He Said Giving Me A Box With A Card Tape On The Front

"Thank You"I Said As I Smiled And Closed The Door

I Went To The Kitchen And Opened The Box And Pulled Out A Diamond Encrusted Rolex Watch

It Was Beautiful I Picked Up The Card That Read "You Wanted Something Nice.…Whats Nicer Than Ice? Because It's Your Time Babygirl If They Sleepin On Ya Wake Em Up-I Wanna See You Win Babygirl Love Rell"

I Appreciated The Card More Than The Rolex…I Wanna See You Win Those Work Stuck To Me Throughout The Whole Day

The Fact That Rell Took The Time To Remember That Today Was My Grand Opening Reminded Me Why I Love His Ass So Much

I Was Feeling Like A Teenage Girl All Over Again I Was Crushing Hard Smiling Even Harder

Hours And Hours Went By And Finally Time Has Come

I Was Upstairs In My Room With My Mother Getting Dress

My Mother Zipped My Dress Up From The Back And Smiled At Me And Said "I Know Your Grandma Is So Proud Of You"

I Smiled And Said "In My Mind She's Here With Me In A Strange Way…In The Morning When I Wake Up I Can Feel Her Presences Sometimes I Can Smell Her Sweet Potato Pies I Can Smell Them So Good Mama I Could Swear It Like She Never Left"

She Smiled "Life Is Funny Ain't It….I Remember It Was A Time When You Hated Me…Now Your My Bestest Friend In The World"

"Ma...You Mean The World To Me And If I Never Told You Before I Appreciate Everything You've Done For Me,Ayden And Azian Adore Your An Amazing Grandmother…With All You Overcome In This Life You An Amazing Woman"I Said

I Turned And Looked At Her And She Said "I Love You"

"I Love You Too"I Said

"You Look Beautiful…..Ima Go Downstairs And Check On David And The Boys"She Said

"Okay Im Almost Ready"I Said

August Walked In And Said "I Cancelled The Show…."

I Straight Faced Him As My Mother Walked Out

"Why You Looking Like That"He Said

"Like What...Like Im Disappointed Aggravated And Fed Up!"I Yelled

"What Ya Yelliing For You Im Here Ain't I?"He Said

"You Want A Damn Award For That!You Want Me To Congratulate You? You Supposed To Be Here Thats What Good Husbands Do You Don't Get A Fuckin Trophy For That!"I Yelled

"I Neva Ask For One…But I Did Cancelled A Whole Show Just To Be Here With You"He Said

"…August How You Sound?…..You Really Need To Grow Up And Be A Man Cause Im So Sick Of Trying Make A Boy Be A Man Toya Was So Right"I Said

"Toya? I Don't Give A Fuck About What Toya Said…And Toya Is The Last Bitch You Needa To Listen To Trust Me"He Said

"It Don't Even Matter August….Thats Besides The Point...The Point Is You Need To Treat Me Like Your Wife.…I Am Your Wife"I Yelled

"How Don't I?…Im The One Who Got You Through School,Brought You The Shop,And Made An Investment In You…"He Said

"You Know What Nigga Im So Glad I Will Be Making My Own Money…So Sick Of You Throwing Ya Money In My Face…You Think You Better Than Me August Thats The Problem"I Said

"The Same Money...That Got You The Best Medical Care In Georgia…Medical Bills Im Still Paying For You But I Don't Treat You Like You My Wife"He Said

"Fuck You August!"I Said Getting Angry

"Alright Ziah Do You Want Me To Be Next To You Tonight Or Not"He Asked

"Show Up Don't Show Up I Don't Give A Fuck Anymore "I Said

And He Got Mad And Walked Out

My Mother Walked Back In And Said "Hey Hey Hey...Whats Wrong"

I Didn't Wanna Tell My Mother The Real Reason Why I Snapped On August

Because I Wanted To Be With Rell Tonight And I Couldn't Because Of August So I Was Aggravated

"Aziah..."My Mother Said To Me

She Closed The Door And Said "What Is The Matter With You"

Sat Down On The Bed And Admitted "I Sleep With Another Man" Because I Just Couldn't Hold It In Anymore

"You Did What?"My Mother Said As Her Face Dropped

"It Was Only One Night.."I Said As A Tear Fell From My Face

"Aziah"My Mother Said Shocked

"The Worst Part Is That Im In Love With This Other Guy…"I Said

"You Been Keeping This From August"She Asked Me

"I Hate Myself For It Every Day..."I Said

"You Have To Tell Him….Its Unfair To Him…Secrets Make You Sick"She Said

"How Do I Tell Him"I Cried

"Thats Gon Be Up Too You…But You Can't Keep Living A Lie"She Said Looking At Me As If She Was Ashamed Of Me

Truth Be Told I Was Ashamed Of My Self And I Can't Keep This Lie Going I Have To Tell August I Have To Tell Him Tonight