Toya Had Made The Most Amazing Fried Chicken I Have Ever Had In My Life

After Dinner August Was Upstairs Giving The Boys A Bath While Me And Toya Was Doing The Dishes Well I Was Doing The Dishes As She Watched While Drinking A Glass Of Wine

"I Am Stuffed"Toya Said

"It Was So Good.…Where Did You Learn To Cook Like That"I Asked

"My Big Mama Taught Me..She Taught Me Every Thing…But She Was Really Was On Me About Cooking She Use To Say To Me "Toya Girl You Gon Have To Cook For Your Husband Some Day When Im Dead And Gone"….Now Im Damn Near Thirty Years Old…And Can Cook My Ass Off With No Husband… Just A Baby Daddy Who Can't Even Make His Child Support Payments On Time"Toya Said

I Just Looked At Her And Listen To Her

"I Don't Know Girl...Lately I Been Feeling Like I Want More Outta Life..I Want Something Real For Once.…Like You…. Look At You You Have This Big Ass House Beautiful Children And A Husband Who Looks At You Like Your The Most Beautiful Woman On This Earth…Your Life Is So Perfect"She Said

"My Life Is Far From Perfect…. You Know All The Shit August Put Me Through"I Said

"Yeah Because You Let Him.…If You Put Your Foot Up His Ass One Time Or Maybe Cut His Ass…He Would Act Right"I Said

I Laughed And Said "Im Not Crazy...See Thats Ya Problem You Too Crazy…You Need To Stop Listening To All Them Voices In Your Head And Maybe You Can Get A Man"

"You Need To Start Listening To Them Voices In Your Head"She Teased

Than My Phone Ring….

"You Betta Get That It Might Be Rell"Toya Said As Smiled

"Its Not Him Trust Me"I Said As I Wiped My Hand With The Dish Towel And Picked My Picked My Phone Up And Answered It

"Hello"I Said

"Mrs.Alsina"I Heard Dr.Taylor Say

"Dr.Taylor Yes Its Me Is There Something Wrong"I Asked

"Your Test Results Just Came Back In….And I Need You To Come Down Immediately And Bring Everyone You Love "She Said

And Tears Began To Filled My Eyes

"Im On My Way Now"I Said As I Hung Up The Phone

"August"I Cried As I Called His Name

"Whats Wrong"Toya Asked Me

"My Test Results Just Came In I Gotta Go Down To To The Doctor's Office…She Told Me To Bring Everyone I Love..But I Can't Take Ayden And Azian I Don't Wanna To See Me Break Down Could You Watch Them For Me"I Asked In Tears

She Looked At Me And Said "Of Course I Can"

August Walked In And Said "Whats Up"

"We Have To Go Down To Dr.Taylor Doctors Office Now"I Said

And He Just Looked Me And As He Realize Something Was Wrong

At This Moment The Only I Could Think About Is How Short Life Is. …How I Should've Kiss My Kids More,How I Should Of Told My Mother I Appreciated Her More…How I Should Of Made Love To My Husband More...Or How I Should Of Told Rell How I Really Felt About Him

As Soon As We Got To The Hospital I Saw My Mother And David There

I Hugged My Mother And Whispered And Her Ear "I Am So Scared Mommy"

"Whatever They Tell You Just Know That God Always Had The Last Word"She Said As She Looked Me In My Eyes As Tears Rolled Down Her Eyes

And Than I Saw Brea Walking Down The Hall

I Met Her Half Way And We Both Just Hugged

And She Started Crying

After She Released Me She Looked Me

I Opened My Mouth And Said "Brea About The Other Night…Im Sorry

"Shh..Listen To Me I Don't Care About None Of That Shit….Me And You We Sisters We Always Gon Be Sisters…No Matter What Happens I Love You"She Said As She Wiped My Tears

And Than I Saw Gia Walking In…With A Big Round Stomach

Brea Smiled And Said "I Brought Someone I Hope You Don't Mind She's A Little On The Heavy Side"

Gia Smiled And Said "Hi Aziah"

"Gia Your Pregnant"I Said I Was Shocked

"7 Months Exactly…."She Said

I Placed My Hand On Her Stomach And Said "Get Outta Here"

"It's A Girl...I Wanted To Tell You…But I Know You Been Going Through Alot"Gia Said

"I Always Have Time For A Friend"I Said

"Best Friends…Since 5th Grade"Brea Said

"When I Use To Have Braces,Brea Use Stay In Fights And Gia Wore Those Thick Ass Glasses"I Said As I Laughed

"I Hated Those Glasses"Brea Cried

"I Hated Those Glasses Too"Gia Said As She Started Crying

"I Hated Those Glasses More Than Both You"I Said As I Began Crying As Well

Than The Three Of Us Hugged Eachother

"BestFriends Forever"I Said

"And Ever"Gia Said

After We Stop Hugging Gia Said To Me "I Think You Should Go Talk To Him" Pointing At August

I Looked Over Him And Saw He Was Sitting Down Looking Like He Was About To Break Down

I Walked Over To Him And Sat Next To Him

"I Want Ayden To Continue His Piano Lessons..He Has Talent Just Like You….Make Sure He Goes After His Dream Whatever It May Be….I Want You Too Love Them Both Azian And Ayden Twice As Much Now…Love Them For Me And You…Azian Is Young He's Only One...He Probably Won't Remember But Just Let Him Know That His Mama Love Him…"I Said

"I Can't Live Without You…"August Said As A Tear Fell Down His Eye

I Smiled At Him And Said "You Don't Have To Be...Because Im Always Be Apart Of You…You Gon See Me Everyday Of Your Life You'll See Me When Azian Giggles And When Ayden Smiles Up At You"

And Than It Hit Me I Was Talking Like I Was Already Dead And Gone

"August Just Take Care Of My Kids..."I Burst Out Crying

And Everyone Gathered Around Me

I Looked Up At Eveyone

"That Goes For Everyone….Ayden And Azian Need All The Love They Can Get…And Im Counting On Every Single Person To Make Sure That Ayden And Azian Grow Up To Be Educated,Decent,Kindhearted Men...When Im Gone"I Said

When Im Gone.…When I Spoke Those Words Thats When I Just Broke Down

Im Only 26….I Didn't Wanna Die Most Importantly I Didn't Wanna Leave Everyone I Love

My Grandma Always Taught Me To Never Question God

But At This Moment Thats All I Could I Do Was Asked God

Why Put Me Through So Much,Why Make Me Suffer So Much,Why Make Me Sick,Why Take My Life

Why Me ? Why Me Lord

I Keep Asking Like He Was Going To Give Me A Answer

Dr.Taylor Walked Out

"Im Ready For You Now….Come Step Inside My Office"She Said

"Go On…Well All Will Be Waiting For You When Come Out"My Mother Said

Me And August Stood And He Held My Hand I Look At Him And Said "You Ready"

And He Looked Me And Shook His Head No

But Still We Walked Into Dr.Taylor Office