It Was Almost Noon And I Scheduled An Appointment With A Marriage Counselor To Come Out To House And Have A Session With Me And August

I Was Sitting At The Kitchen Table On The Phone Handling Some Business Pertaining To My Shop And I Was Just Frustrated Things Wasn't Going Right At All And I Was Supposed To Be Opening My Shop In Three Weeks But It Was Things Still Not Finished And It Was The Simplest Things Not Getting Done,Like The Fact That My Shop Was Re Painted,I Needed To Hire A Electrician,My Styling Chair Hadn't Came In,And On Top Of That I Had No Hair Stylist

Now How The Hell Ima Opened A Hair Salon With No Body To Do The Hair,This Was Very Very Stressful

On My IPhone Trying To Figure Out Things When August Walked In

"Im Hungry"He Said

While My Eyes Still Glue To My Phone I Said To Him "It Some Fruit Loops In The Cabinet"

"Fruits Loops...I Want Some Real Food Some Bacon,Some French Toast,And Maybe Some Grits"He Said

I Looked Over At Azian Who Was Sitting In High Chair Eating His Fruit Loops Perfectly Fine

"Daddy Thinks He's Better Than You Ain't That's Something"I Said To Azian

"Azian Eats His Own Toes,Besides I Been Back Home For A Week And You Haven't Cook One Time"He Said

"August Seriously I Have Too Much On Plate,Im Trying To Open Up My Salon On Time,Be A Mother To Our Lovely Children And Trying To Have Sex With You 4,5 Times A Day All While Fighting Cancer,Cut Me A Break And Just Eat The Fruit Loops"I Said Calmly

"Im Not Eating That Shit"He Said Under His Breath

"Than Fine Starve To Death Than"I Said

My Mother Walked In Smiling And Graceful

"Good Morning"She Said

"Stressful Morning"I Said

"Whats Wrong Baby …Hey Zi Zi"She Said Picking Up Azian Up

"Everything Is Just Not Going Right"I Said Feeling So Frustrated

"You Been Praying"She Asked

Sounding Like My Grand Mother

"I Haven't Had Time To Pray"I Said

"You Know Better Than…If You Don't Pray How Do You Expect Things To Get Better"She Asked Me

"…I Know Ma...Thanks For Watching Azian While Me And August Have Our Counseling Session…I Don't Where Vanessa Is At…I Been Calling Her And Calling Her"I Said

"I Wouldn't Go To Work If I Was Getting Paid To Do Nothing You Giving Her Free Money Of Course She Ain't Gon Show Up For Work"August Said

Ignoring August Smart Comment I Looked At My Mama And Said "I Know You Just Got Back From Your Honeymoon And You And David Are Newlyweds But I Appreciate This So Much"

"No Worries Baby Im Praying For You..You And August Both"She Said

Today Just Wasn't Go Day For Me Not At All I Was Really On Edge Sometimes I Feel Like Im Carrying The World On My Tiny Shoulders

I Was Drained In So Many Way

Me And August Did Get The Chance To Sit Down With Dr.Collins

She Sat In A Chair Across From Me And August Was Was Sitting On The Couch

August Didn't Really Want To Be Doing This You Can See It By His Body Language

He Was Slouched Back Without A Care In The World

She Looked At Both Us And Asked "So…Why Are We Here Today"

"Cause My Wife Thinks We Should See Somebody"August Said

"And Why Do You Think"She Asked Him

"Because We Have Problems…We Fight,Argue Just Like Every Other Married Couple"He Said

"Thats Right Mr.Alsina Married Couples Do Fight And Argue…Its Bond To Happen Especially When Your Young..But When The Arguing And Fighting Becomes Constant Where Your Home Becomes A Warzone Than Thats A Huge Problem…Therapy Works Only When Both People Are Honest About Everything…Aziah Your 26 With Too Young Children That Must Be Tough"She Said

"Its Very Tough"I Answered

"We Have A Nanny…So Its Not Like She Here Taking Care Of The Kids By Herself"August Said Feeling Offensive

"So What Our Nanny Works Part Time When She Leaves Im Taking Care Our Kids While You On The Road Having The Time Of Your Life"I Said

"Im On The Road Workin…Hard!..Tryna My Best To Support Us All Because Im The Only One Paying Bills Around Here"He Said

"Are You A Stay At Home Mother Mrs.Alsina"Dr.Collins Asked Me

"You Can Say That While I Been Home I Managed Too Earned Two Degrees In Business And Im A Few Weeks From Opening Up My Own Hair Salon. .August Just Loves Discrediting To Make Himself Feel Like A Man"I Said Being Shady And Petty

"A Man...I Am A Man...I Handle My Business As A Man Im Taking Care Of My Family Like A Man Supposed So Whatcha Talking Bout"He Said Clapping Back

"He Feels Like He's Better Than Me Because He's "August Alsina" The R&b Sensation"I Said

"What"August Said Looking At Me As If I Was Making This Up

"We Do You Feel That Way August…Like Your Better Than Mrs.Alsina"She Asked Him

"I Don't Feel Like Im Better No Body…I Don't Even Know Where She Getting That From"He Said

"I Get It From The Lies,Cheating,And The Betrayal He Does"I Said

And He Got Quiet

"Trust Has Been Broken"Dr.Collins Said As She Observed Us

"Too Many Times…He Has Lied To Me So Many Times I've Lost Count"I Said

"And When He Lies How To Feel"She Asked Me

"Like Im Dying Inside Almost...Because He Doesn't Have To Lie To Me Im A Big Girl I Can Handle The Truth But For Some Odd Reason He Feels The Need To Lie And Thats The Part That Hurts…Is That He Feels Like He Have To Lied To Me When He Shouldn't Feel Like That"I Said

"Mr.Alsina Why Do You Feel Like You Have To Lie To Your Wife…Why Do You Feel Like Its Okay Cheat"She Asked Him

"I Don't Feel Like Its Okay But At The Same Time Im Young Me And Ziah Be At It For Years Sometimes I Feel Stuck..Like Its No Escaping Like Im Trap…And Its Hard To Breathe"He Said

"Stuck?"I Said Making A Stank Face

"Yeah Sometimes I Wanna Go Out And Have Fun Be Single Man..But I Can't Cause Im Married"He Said

I Stood Up And Was Officially In My Feelings

"Well That Solves Everything This Session Is Ladies And Gentlemen We Just Found The Reason Why Me And My Husband Have Been Bumping Heads Its Because He Feels STUCK"I Said

"Now Mrs.Alsina Lets Give August A Chance To Explain Himself"Dr.Collins Said

"I Don't Know About You..But His Chances With Me Has Run Out"I Said Walking Away From The Session

I Mad A Mad Black Woman Who Had Enough ! I Could Feel A Hurricane Raising In Me…Its About To Be A Disaster And Im Killing Everything In My Way Right Now

When I Made In The Kitchen August Followed Me

"You Can Sit There And Throw Dirt On My Name But Can't Handle The Truth"He Said

I Looked At Him And Said "I Can't Believe How Dare You…Dare You Say You Feel Stuck….You Got Me Pregnant…You Propose To Me You Fly Me To Vegas And Married Me...There Was No Gun To Your Head August But Now You Feeling Stuck"

"This Is Why I Lied To You...Cause When Im Being Honest You Lose Ya Temper Grow The Fuck Up"He Said

"No You Lie Because You A Scumbag!.…Go Upstairs And Get All Yo Shit And Get The Fuck Out.. Since You So Stuck Im Setting Free Now…Fly On Lil Birdie"I Yelled

I Took My Ring Off And Dropped It On The Ground

One Thing About Me I Not Tryna Keep A Man Who Don't Wanna Be Kept..Niggas Crazy I Don't Need August Or Any Other Men…Without Or Without Him Ima Be Good

"Ya Doing Too Much Na"He Said

"You Free Now Aug…Gon Live It Up..Im Sure Am"I Said As I Walked Up The Stairs To My Bedroom

I Called Both Brea And Toya And Told Him Im In Need A Drink Of Two And Suggested We Go Out

I Took A Hot Shower And Slipped On Something Real Sexy And Revealing

As I Put My Diamond Earrings On I Got A Call From Rell

I Answered And Said "Hello"

"What You Doing Sexy?"He Asked Me

"Getting Ready To Go Out With My Girls"I Said

"Where Yall Going"He Asked Me

"Probably Hit Up A Bar Or Club"I Said

"Im Having A House Warming Party Tonight…Yall Should Come Through We Got Drinks,Food And A Hot Dj..."He Said

I Smiled And Said "We'll Be There"

"You Just Made My Night"He Said

"Bye"I Said

I Was All Dressed And Ready To Go

As I Walked Down The Stairs I Saw August Sitting On The Couch Looking Like That Sad Ass Lost Puppy Once Again

I Got Down The Stairs And Stood Infront Of Him And Said "Didn't I Tell You To Leave"

"Im Not Going Nowhere,Lets Talk"He Said

I Rolled My Eyes And Said "I Don't Wanna Talk No More Aug….You Said More Than Enough"

"Aziah"He Said

"The Kids Are With My Mother Im Leaving….When Im Back Please Be Gone…"I Said

"Where Im Supposed To Go"He Asked Me

"I Don't Know…And Honestly I Don't Care"

My Feelings Had Been Hurt Yet Again By August And The Only Person Im Blaming Myself Trying To Think About Why Is It That I Married His Ass In The First Place

Its Always The Same Shit With Him And Than He Has The Audacity To Tell Me That He Was One Who Felt Stuck When Its Me Who's Drowning When Its Me Who Is Forever Brokenhearted Because Of The Shit He Did To Me

I Can't Believe Him And I Don't Even Wanna Look Em At Anymore At This Point I Just Want Him Gone