Its Passed 8 And Guess Who's All Dressed Where No Where To Go

I Put On My Best Dresss...Red Bottoms That I Could Barely Walk In And Was Ready To Go

All I Was Missing Was A Loving Husband To Escort Me To Dinner But He Was No Where To Be Found I Drunk A Whole Bottle Of Wine Call His Phone Damn Near A Million Times He Wasn't Picking Up

Called Everyone He Knew His Sister,His Brother,His Mother And Even His Damn Assistant Nobody Knows Where's August At?

Staring At The Clock As I Finally Just Took My Shoes Off I Wasn't Going Out Tonight

It Was Completely Obvious Why I Love Being With Rell..Its Because I Was So Damn Lonely In This Marriage My Husband Was Always On The Road And Even When He Wasn't On The Road He Was Still Somewhere Else

I Can't Remember The Last Time August Took Me Out,The Last Time Me And August Actually Had Real Conversation With Eachother…We Use To Could Talk All Damn Night Now Its Like I Can't Get A Word In With Him

This Was The First Time Ever That I Felt So Distant From August And It Hurts Because I Miss Him

Thinking Back Before Ayden Was Born…Even Though August Was Always Busy He Always Made Time For Me..He Use To Cook For Me...Rub My Feet..Now The Only Time He Cares About Me Is When Im Sick.

Tonight I Felt Good,I Wanted To Enjoy My Husband Company Over Five Star Dinner,And Maybe Just Maybe Dance A Little Bit With Him But Thats Just Wishful Thinking

Something Got August Attention…And Im Trying My Hardest To Figure Out What Or Who Thats Got Him So "Busy"

If Its Another Woman.…Ima Lose It..Im Gon Go Insane It Bet Not Be Another Woman

He Walked In And I Was Standing By The Kitchen Counter Finishing A Glass Of Wine

"The Meeting Ran Late..I Tried To Call But My Phone Was Dead…Don't Be Mad At Me"He Said Making Excuses Typical Ass August

I Lied And Looked At Em With Straight Face But Deep Down Inside I Was So Disappointed In August Tonight

"Im Not Mad"I Said

"Babe..The Meeting Ran Late What Was I Supposed To Do"He Asked Me

"August Its Fine..Really Im Fine…Im Going To Have A Few Drinks With Brea..The Kids Are Upstairs Sleeping "I Said As I Grabbed My Key

I Wanted To Break Out In Tears So Bad But My Pride Just Wouldn't Let Em Show

"Go Ahead…Ima Make It Up To You Ziah"He Said

"Well Why You At It...Don't Forget To Make It Up To Ayden..Its One Thing To Lie To Me But Its Another Thing To Lie To You Child..And I Wont Let You Be That Kind Of Father That Make Promises He Can't Keep...Like My Father"I Said

"I Didn't Lie…I Told You My Meeting Ran Late"He Said

"I Heard You"I Said As I Grabbed My Chanel Bag And I Left

When I Got In My Car I Called Rell He Answer On The First Ring

"Hey Baby What You Doin"He Said

"Im Sitting In My Car Can I Come See You"I Asked

"Yeah Im At The Studio Come Through"He Said

"Im On My Way"I Said

"Ight"He Said

I Hung Up

I Feeling So Broken And So Down I Just Wanted Some One To Comfort Me Someone Who Cared And Rell Was That Person

I Pull Up The Studio And Rell Was Standing Outside He Hopped In And Leaned Over And Kissed Me

"I Miss Ya"Was The First Thing He Said To Me

I Tried Smiling But A Tear Ended Up Falling From My Eyes

Looking At Rell And He Could Already Tell It Was Something Wrong With Me I Didn't Even Have To Say A Word

He Wiped My Tears And Said "You Gon Be Ight…Don't Even Waste Ya Tears You Better Than That"

He Kissed Me On My Forehead And I Felt Better He Didn't The Simplest Things Just To Make Me Happy

He Was The Most Sweetest Gentle Soul I've Ever Met Looking In His Eyes I Know He Got My Back And Most Of All I Know He Wanna See Me Happy

It Started To Rain

Staring At The Rain Out My Windows

"I Wish He Would See What He's Losing…I Wish I Could Make Him Love Me They The Way That I Love Him"I Said

"One Day He Gon Wish He Had Did You Right..He Gon Be Sick Without You"He Said

I Looked At Him And Said "Im Not A Quitter…I Feel Like Giving Up On Him Its Like Im Giving Up On My Family My Kids"

"Than Don't Be A Quitter Stop Crying About It Stop Complaining And Fight For It If It Means That Much To You"He Said

"He Ain't Worth A Fight"I Said

"Baby..You Got Kids By This Nigga He Worth Twice The Fight..You Gotta Think About Them Boys"Rell Said

One Thing I Admire About Rell Was That He Never Pressure Me To Leave My Family..He Always Encourage Me To Stay And Stick It Out For My Children

"I Can't Stand You"I Said Smiling

"Girl You Know You Love Me"He Said

I Smiled And Said "You Think So"

"I Know So..."He Said

"So Do You Feel The Same About Me"I Asked

"I Got Love For You"He Said

"But You Don't Love Me"I Asked

"Nah"He Said

"I Know You Just Ain't Curve Me In My Car"I Said

He Smiled And Said" Nah It Ain't Even Like That I Wanna Love You...But I Can't Let My Self Love You Cause When I Started Loving You That's When Ima Start Getting Real Selfish"

"And Plus Love Is The Last Thing You Need On Your Plate You Bouta Open Ya Salon In A Few More Weeks You Bouta Be Out Here Doing Big Things Big Fella"He Said

Making Me Smile "What You Getting Me For My Grand Opening" I Said Joking

"A High Five"He Said Attemptin To High Five Me

I Giggled And Said "No I Want Something Nice"

"Ight Ima Send You Some Flowers"He Said

I Rolled My Eyes

"That Ain't Nice"He Asked Me

"You Funny..."I Said Smiling At Him

Rell Was The Only Person Who Could Improve My Mood

He Makes Me See The Brighter Side Even If I Don't Want Too He Always Made Me Feel Like Things Could Always Get Better

Holding On To That Positivity I Took It Back Home With Me That

I Walked In He Was Sitting On The Couch Playing The Game When He Realized I Was Home He Looked At Me And Said "Did You Have Fun With Brea"

"Yeaa"I Lied Shamefully

"Come Here"He Said Placing His Hand Next To Him

I Sat Down Next To Him And Leaned In And Kissed Me

He Looked Me In My Eyes And Said "I Love Ya"

Instead Of Saying It Back I Said "Im Not Happy Aug"

"What?"He Said Looking At Me As If I Just Spoken A A Whole Another Language

"Lately I Been Feeling Like Me And You Ain't The Same"I Said

"Thats Cause I Been Gone For 3 Months Im Home Na Things Gon Be Good Now"He Said Believing His Own Lies

"Im Feeling Like We Heading Back Down That Dark Road Again...Sex Not Even The Same No More We Hardly Talk,I Feel Like The Connection Is Dying Between Us"I Said

"How Long You Been Like This"He Asked Me

"Too Long"I Replied

"I Want Us To See Someone…Try Marriage Therapy Or Something"I Said

"Therapy…?…That Shit Don't Work"He Said

"So Will Divorcing Work Or Separating Will Work Cause Thats What's Gonna Happen If We Don't Fix This Problem"I Said

"Why You Always Gotta Be So Fuckin Dramatic"He Said Getting Angry

"What The Fuck You Mean…Im Trying To Come Up With A Solution For Us"I Said Raising My Voice

Than Ayden Walked In Rubbing His Eyes Wearing His Pajamas

He Starting Crying August Picked Him "What's Wrong"

"Did You Have A Bad Dream"I Said

August Sat Down Holding Ayden And Said "Ssh...Go Back To Sleep Daddy Here"

Ayden Began Falling To Sleep As I Kissed His Head

"Next Time You Wanna Bring Up Divorce And Separating Remember Two Innocent People Gon Be Affected It By It...Divorce Ain't A Option And Separating Damn Sho Ain't A Option"He Said

Looking At Him And My Son He's Right Divorce Ain't An Option

"I Never Ask You For Anything…For Ayden And Azian Lets Just Try Marriage Therapy"I Pleaded

He Looked At Me And Said "If Its What You Want..Than Gon Head Get Us A Appointment"

I Smiled As He Leaned Over And Kissed My Forehead