I Hadn't Realized It Yet But Me And August Was Really In A Dark Place And We Both Had No Clue How Really Bad This Ship Was Sinkin

My Face Was Swollen…Lip Was Busted And All I Wanna Do Is Go Somewhere Alone And Cry

I Had To Leave Tonight I Know If I Stay I Wouldn't Of Probably Burned This Whole Damn House Down

So I Got My Kids And Left

Toya Was Literally At My Door With A Bat.…I Had To Actually Begg Her To Leave His House In One Piece

As She Drove Me To The Hotel She Had So Much To Say As Always

"This Nigga Really Fuckin Hit You…He Musta Gon Crazy…Nah He Think He Crazy Wait Till I See Him Im Gon Break His Fuckin Neck Look At You!"She Said

"I Pushed Him Toya...I Basically Said I Fucked Another Nigga While His Mama Was Standing There I Deserve This I Hate To Say It But I Started It"I Said

"You Sound Like Whats That Girl Name ….Vanessa Yeah You Sound Like Her "She Said

"Oh My God I Am Making Excuses For Him...I Don't Care What I Said…What I Did..Or What He Thought I Did There's No Excuse Why He Should Hit Me With A Closed Hand"I Said

"You Needa Have His Ass Locked Up Since He Wanna Be Ike Turner So Bad Im Really Starting To Hate Lightskin Niggas"She Said

"The Worst Part Is That His Mama Just Stood There Watching Him She Didn't Call The Police Or She Didn't Try To Get Him Off Me She Just Stood There And Watch"I Said

"She Can Get It Too...You Need To Just Stop Fucking With August Divorce Him Get Ya Child Support Poppin And Alimony And Just Give Rell A Chance You Know I Heard He Really Likes You"She Said

I Blushed And Said "Where You Hear That At?"

"Are You Blushing Don't Tell Me You Gotta Thang For Rell"She Teased

"No...We Just Cool..."I Said Smiling

"I Knew Yall Was Gon Hit It Off.…I Know How Much You Love Savages And Rell Need A Good Girl….Yall Cute Together"She Said

"Yeah We Looking Real Good Together Especially With My Wedding Ring On"I Said

"You Might As Well Take That Shit Off It Don't Mean Nothing To August Ass"She Said

I Looked Down At My Ring Couldn't Help But To Think How Stupid And Foolish I Was For Taking August Ass Back

I Really Thought Shit Would Be Different This Time Between Us But He Prove Me Once Again That He Just Don't Give A Damn About Me

Its A Damn Shame Too Because My Mother's Wedding Was In A Few Weeks And Im Not Sure If August Will Be Attending Together Especially While My Face Looks Like This

I Checked In The Hotel And Finally Got Ayden And Azian To Sleep I Was Laying In The Bed Looking At My Phone And Noticed That August Ain't Even Call Me Yet I Figured He Wasn't Feeling Sorry He Must Feel Like Man Now After Hitting Me Like That

I Rolled My Eyes And As I Rolled Over On My Stomach

Than I Felt My Phone Vibrate I Looked At The Number And It Was Rell Calling Me

I Answered The Phone

"Hello"I Said Smiling

"Wake Up...You Ain't Going To Sleep"He Said

"Im Not Sleep Im Up"I Said As I Sat Up On The Bed

"Well Since You Up Im Up...Lets Find Something To Do Together"He Said

"Im At A Hotel With My Kids"I Said

"Hotel...Why?…Yall Got Into It?"He Asked

"Really Bad"I Said

"…I Gotta See You...What Hotel You At"He Asked

"Im With Kids"I Said

"They Sleep...I'll Be Quiet I Promise I Just Wanna Give You A Hug Thats All "He Said

"….Ima Text You The Address"I Said

"Ight Baby"He Said

I Hung Up The Phone And I Could Already Feel Butterflies Began To Rumble In My Tummy

I Texted Him What Hotel I Was And Than I Went And Freshin Up

Staring At The Mirror Looking At My Face Looking At Myself Thinking About Me And August And How We Starting To Bring Out The Worst Out Of Each Other

But Look What He Did…He Made Run In The Arms Of Another Man But I Just Can't Take No More

He Was Pushing Me So Far Away…He Didn't Even Know I Was Seeing Someone Else He Was To Busy Being An Ass To Me

And As Much Of An Ashole He Is..I Looked At Them Two Beautiful Boys I Think To Myself How Miserable They Was When Me And August Was Separated And How Happy Ayden Is Now That Me And August Are Back Together

I Somehow Convince Myself That We Was A Family

And I Can't Let This Family Fall Apart Not Again For The Sake Of Ayden And Little Azian Ima Do Everything That I Can Possible To Give Them A Family

Ayden And Azian Deserve That Much Because They Ain't Ask To Be Here I Felt Like Me And August Could At least Try To Give Our Children A Family But I Felt I Was The Only Trying And I Was The Only One Who Cared If Our Children Have A Family Or Not

Rell Was At My Hotel Room In About 15 Minutes I Opened The Door

And I Smiled At Him

And Took One Look At Me And Grabbed My Face And Said "I Know He Ain't Hit You"

"He Was Angry He Ain't Mean It"I Said

"If You Want Me To Go Over There And Handle That Just Say The Word And Its Handle"He Said

"He's The Father Of My Kids…I Don't Wanna Nothing To Happened To Him Im Good Its Gon Take More Than A Busted Nose And Lip To Take Me Out The Game"I Said As I Giggled

"How Is You Smiling When This Nigga Just Put His Hands On You"He Asked Getting Upset

"Rell Look At Me…Im Fine"I Said Smiling

He Looked Over At My Children And Said "They Asses Is Out"

I Smiled "Its Been A Long Night'

We Made A Pallet On The Floor And I Was Layed In His Arms

He Played With My Hair With His Rough Hands

"Word In The Street Is That You Crushing On Me"I Teased

He Smiled And Said "Who Told You That"

"I Can't Tell You My Sources If You Gotta Crush On Me Its Cool I Have That Affect On Guys"I Said Joking

"Girl If You Don't Stop It...Beside If I Did Have A Crush On You It Wouldn't Make A Difference You Married Its Not Like You Would Eva Leave That Nigga For Me…"He Said

"Hes The Father Of My Children…I Couldn't Just Leave Him"I Said

"I Would Neva Ask You Too...I Knew What It Was When We Met Just Didn't Think I Would Like You So Much"He Said

"You Like Me How Much "I Asked

"Let Me Put It Like This You The First Female I Liked In A Long Time"He Said

I Blushed As I Looked Into In His Eyes And Said "Didn't Know Thugs Had Hearts"

"You And Me Both But You Showing Me That Im Not So Cold-hearted As I Thought I Was"He Said To Me

He Grabbed My Hand And Said "Even If We Neva Be Together Its Nice To Know That Its Good Females Out Like You Exist"

Looking In His Eyes Thinking How This Nigga Can Say The Sweetest Shit How This Nigga Heart Is As Big As His Ego How Could Any Female Do Em Wrong

"Why You Looking At Me Like That"He Said

"How Come In Ya Songs…You Not This..Nice"I Asked

"Cause I Ain't A Nice Nigga….Im Only Nice To You"He Said

I Smiled And Said "What About Them Other Girls You Be With"

"What About Em?"He Asked Me

"Are You Nice To Them?"I Asked

"Never"He Replied

Than He Looked At Me And Say "Ima Young Rich Nigga Laying On The Floor With You...You Should That A Nigga Care For You"

He Was Definitely Falling For Me But The Worst Part Was I Was Falling For Him Too

August

Should've Of Never Put My Hands Of Her,Its Just That She Gets Me So Fuckin Mad...Aziah Got A Smart Ass Mouth On Here She Be Talking To Me Like Im Her Son Instead Of Her Man And Thats A Problem For Me

Than Had The Audacity To Tell Me She Playing Me If Im Ya Husband And Im The Man You Wanna Be With Why Would You Disrespect Me Like That

I Get So Angry Sometimes And Sometimes I Can't Control My Anger I Blackout…I Was Tripping I Admit That I Ain't Mean To Hit Her She Just Wouldn't Shut The Fuck Up

I Grabbed A Bottle Of Hennessy And I Down That Shit She Probably At Home Crying Her Eyes Out…She Wasn't Crying More Than I Was Crying On The Inside

I Couldn't Even Call Her,Not After I Did What I Did

I Was Driving Around Drinking And Somehow I Ended Up At Mircale Door

She Opened The Door She Had Some On Lingerie "Expecting Company"

"Why You Didn't Call Me?"She Asked Me

"Call….You Must Tryna Be A Thot For A Another Nigga"I Said As I Walked In

She Followed Me And Said "Im Not But If Wanted To Thot Around Whats Wrong With That Don't You Have A Wife And Kids"

"Man...Stop Making Excuses For Being A Hoe"I Said As I Open Her Refrigerator She Had Some Hot Wings They Was Still Warm I Opened The Container

"Im Single If I Wanna Be A Hoe I Can Do That...What You Won't Me To Do Sit Here And Wait On You Forever…."She Asked Me

"Im Trying To Figure Out What Exactly Is You Waiting On For Me To Leave My Wife My Kids!….Ain't Gon Happen…Im Not Leaving My Family Not For You Not For Nobody"I Yelled At Her

"So What Am I To Do You…Your Handy Dandy Side Kick...What You Come Over When You And Her Get Into It...I Feed You,Wash Your Draws,Hold You Down And I Get Nothing Not Even Half Of You"She Asked With Tears In Her Eyes

"What You Want Me To Say"I Asked Her

"The Truth!…Say You Love Me Like I Love You"She Cried Out

I Shamefully Put My Head Down And Said "Its Always Gon Be Her"

"If That Was True Than Why Are You Here At My House At The Middle Of The Night"She Asked Me

And I Couldn't Give Her An Answer

She Walked Over To Me And Placed Her Hands On Me "Im Tired Of Being Alone"

She Kissed My Lip And I Swear Taste Sweet Sweet Poison