Dear Diary,

You're almost out of pages.

I don't know what I'm going to do about this.

~Aria

"Arrabella quit it," Ty laughed. I had been repeatedly poking him in the side for the past five minutes.

"Admit it," I shouted.

"Fine I went soft," he mumbled.

"Awe I know babe," I laughed.

Ty stiffened slightly making me look over at him in question. I didn't have time to ask him what's wrong because the doorbell rang. I jumped up making Ty grab me back down.

"I was going to get the door," I stated.

"It's your mom," he warned.

"Oh, well that's fine I'll still get it," I replied.

Ty released my arm and I walked over to answer the door.

"Ella," my mom smiled.

I stepped outside and shut the door behind me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Can't I come see you?" she asked.

"You should call first, especially after what happened the last time you saw me," I stated.

"Isaac just snapped Ella you have to understand the position he's in," she defended.

"Why are you defending him?" I asked.

"You didn't read the letters did you?" my mom sighed.

"No I can't say I have," I snapped.

"Well call me when you have," she sighed while walking away, I groaned in frustration and stomped back inside.

"Are you okay?" Ty asked while standing up.

"I'm fine," I replied while walking past him and up the stairs.

I turned back around to see him advancing toward me.

"Just don't follow me, okay?" I asked.

"Why?" he worried.

"I need to be alone for a while," I stated while walking upstairs.

"Ar," he started to say.

"I'm fine, promise," I called. I walked into the bedroom and shut the door. I then went over and sat in front of the chest.

I opened it to find a stack of letters.

There was one from everyday my mother was in rehab; every damn day.

Just knowing she wrote me every day made a tear escape my eye. I then picked up the letter that just had "Arrabella" written on it and not a date.

I opened it and started to read over what my mother had written.

'Arrabella,

I will be giving you this chest of my letters tomorrow. What you choose to do with them is up to you. You may decide to burn them, read them, or just set them aside. I just want you to know that I did think about you every day. I still do.

I just wanted to be a good mother for you, I really did. I still want a relationship with you; I want to see you get married and be a grandmother to your children, the mother I wasn't for you.

The reason why Isaac and I have been searching for you is because we both love you dearly. I see so much in him that I would have loved Trevor to be; in a way Isaac healed part of the hole in my heart from your brother. Isaac is like a son to me.

You may wonder why I want you to be with him or why I'm living with him for that matter. It's because I've never seen a person love another person so much. I see the way Isaac's eyes light up when he hears your name and the way he was determined to find you.

I thought this was all going to go great until Tyson.

Arrabella I have never seen a young man look at a girl with so much love and passion filling his eyes. The way you smile around him makes my heart swell. I can tell that boy is in love with you, and you are in love with him. I want you to know I approve of all your choices. Also I'm proud of you. I know you were hurting too.

This is why I am sending Isaac on his way I think he needs to find a girl that looks at him the way you look at Tyson.

It isn't going to be easy, Isaac really does care about you. I just want you to know I do love you Ella and I will always be here waiting. I just need you to tell me when you want a relationship with me.

I love you,

Mom'

I let the tears hit the paper as I read these words. My mom really is a strong woman.

I heard a faint knock on the door as I wiped my tears and put the letter back.

"Baby, are you okay?" Ty asked while entering. I slammed the chest shut and got up and ran over to him. I hugged him as tight as I could. He stumbled back in surprise but then wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head.

"I love you," I sobbed.

"I love you too, what's wrong?" he asked.

"I just love you," I replied while burying my head into him.

"I know princess," he chuckled.

I looked up in his brown eyes and melted once again. I don't think I will ever understand how I got so lucky.

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I woke up early the next morning and slipped out of Ty's hold. He grumbled a little but rolled over. I went over to the chest and sat down.

"Ar, what are you doing?" Ty sleepily asked.

"I'm fine babe go back to sleep," I replied.

"I can't without you," he pouted.

"Well try harder," I laughed.

He then sat up and I laughed at his bed head.

"It's not funny," he mocked.

"Then why am I laughing?" I teased.

His eyes shifted from me to the chest and understanding took over his face.

"I'll lay here, but I'll have you know I'm not comfortable," he sulked while laying back down.

"Night dork," I laughed.

I then opened the chest and pulled out the very first letter my mom wrote me on her very first day in rehab.

'My Ella,

I shouldn't be in here and away from you. I will be back soon though baby I promise.

I promise to be a better mom. Remember what I told you don't fight with him, don't even talk at all. Remember that diary I gave you, use that to write your thoughts in.

I want to know everything about you Arrabella. I want to know your favorite color, your favorite food, favorite book, everything.

I love you and I'm coming home soon,

Mom'

I let a few tears escape. My mom wanted to know all these things about me.

I do remember her getting me the diary.

I wonder if she knows how much that helped me, in fact I still need it.

I sniffed and then went over and sat on Ty's back.

"Are you kidding me?" he mumbled.

I laughed but it even sounded sad to me. Ty somehow used his arms to get me off his back so he could sit up and face me.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, I need you to take me to my moms," I replied.

"Okay let's go," he shrugged.

He pulled on a t-shirt and I pulled on some yoga pants and Ty's sweatshirt. The drive over was short, but I was ready to talk to my mom.

"Do you want me to wait in the car?" he asked.

"Yeah," I nodded.

I then got out and walked to the front door. I rang the doorbell and waited. My mom answered a moment later with a cup of coffee in her hands. I knew she would be awake because she always woke up early when I was little. I also knew Isaac would be asleep because he never wakes up before noon.

"Ella," my mom smiled. I walked in and sat in the chair.

"I read your letter," I sniffed.

"Oh Ella," my mom replied a few tears escaping her eyes.

"My favorite color is purple. Lately I've been eating a lot of Chinese food. I love the book Twilight," I listed off.

My mom grinned at me and I gave her a huge hug.

"I love you so much Ella," she added.

"I love you too mom," I smiled.

I was wrong, my mom is my hero.

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