The rapid sounds of the machine woke me up, make me slowly open my eyes

the first thing I realized is that I was in a hospital room, Alex said on the chair beside my bed holding my hands as he rested his head on the bed, Brandon and belle were on the side standing up as Brandon wiped tears, Katie and Nate on the sofa sat cuddled up as Katie had tears falling

Ethan on the ground with his face on his knees as he ran his fingers through his hair roughly

"baby?" I said in a raspy voice as I got everyone's attention and they all came beside the bed

"You're awake!" Katie said

"How do you feel?" Alex asked cupping my cheek and as soon as I saw his face clearly, I knew that he was crying from his puffy eyes and the redness of his nose

"Sore" I said "water"

Belle rushed and got me a water bottle before handing it to Alex as he slowly helped me drink

"Thankgod you're awake" Nate said

"Where's Aaron?" I asked as I felt Alex tense and everyone stayed quiet

"Guys, where is Aaron?" I asked again

"Um.." Katie began before she started crying

"Brandon? Where is your father?" I asked trying to sit up

"Aaron is okay right? He's just resting somewhere here right ?" I asked as Alex stood up and stormed outside

"Alex!" Ethan called out

"What's wrong? Ethan? Brandon?" I asked "Brandon what's wrong!"

" my.. my father is g-..gone" Brandon said

"What?" I said letting out a laugh "What do you mean, Brandon stop joking! I want to see Aaron! Where is he?!" I yelled

"Becca, Becca, Aaron is gone!" Ethan said

"No no.. no this is not true! You're lying! You're fucking lying! He's not dead! He is here! He was with me! Then he should be here!" I yelled

"It's true becs" Nate said sadly holding a hand

"No no this can't be happening! You're lying! I'm gonna go search for him! He is here" I said trying to stand up and pulling the machine with me

"Becca No!" Belle yelled

"Becca! What the hell are you doing!" Katie yelled

"Becca!" Nate yelled holding me still

"Aaron, I want to see him!" I yelled as I felt pain through my body

I started screaming before belle rushed outside calling the nurses before they ran injecting me to calm me down, they then placed me on the bed slowly as tears ran down my cheeks, Alex stood by the door way looking at me and as soon as our eyes met, he wiped the tears that were on his cheek, I felt like I was suffocating,

"Aaron" I whispered as I cried even more making the rest of the room cry with me

"Becca don't do this to yourself please" Nate said

"Can you all get out?" I said in a low voice

"We can't leave you alone" Katie said

"Get out,Please just get out, I need to be alone" I said as everyone slowly got out

"Don't leave her alone" Ethan said to Alex as he stood my the doorway

We looked at each other for I don't know how long before he opened his mouth, trying to find something to say

"Do you want me gone too?" He whispered wiping a tear making my heart break even more "I could go you know"

I shook my head "don't" I said as he took steps towards me, sitting on the bed then hugging me tightly before I brust into tears

"I can't believe it" I said crying

"I'm sorry, I'm sorrya Alex, it's my fault" I said repeating it in whispers

"It's not your fault" Alex said

"is my baby okay?" I whispered afraid of the answer as Alex nodded

"You know I could've lost you both too, I could've lost everything that means to me" Alex said crying as i pulled him to my chest

"I just can't believe he's Gone just like mom, he'a gone forever, how.. how would Evelyn feel? She lost her only grandpa, he was supposed to be here for the baby, for me, for Evelyn, for Brandon, for Ethan! He was supposed to be here but he's not anymore" Alex said "what I'm gonna do without him?"

"Huh Becca, tell me what I'm gonna do without my father?" Alex asked

"Shhh, Baby I'm here for you. I'm here, I'm always here" I said comforting him

"But I could've lost you! I fucking could've lost you" Alex said

I cupped his cheek "but I'm here! I'm here now, the baby is here too" I said

"It's all because of your father, he covered me" I said letting tears fall again

"It's not your fault, if you realized this, you would've done the same for him right?" Alex asked as I nodded

I motioned for Alex to lay beside me after sometime in silence, I looked at him sleeping peacefully beside me,

I sat for couple of hours just overthinking about everything before I turned to the sleepy Alex

"I'm sorry" I whispered as my I ran my fingers through his face

"It's not your fault you know" i heard someone say behind me

I turned looking at him, I saw Brandon standing up, looking all messy

"It is," I said as I took Brandons hand in mine "I'm sorry Brandon, I'm sorry, I took away someone special to you, I took away your father, I should be died not him, it's my fault, we were supposed to come home but instead I was craving donuts and it's all because of me, I should've just shut my mouth up and got home, if I just changed my mind minutes before, Aaron would've been here, he would've been at home with us" I said "I'm sorry b"

"Becca, it's not your fault" Brandon said "the driver was drunk so it really not your fault"

"I'm.. - you know we saw the car after the accident, it's a miracle that you're here" Brandon said "I'm just glad you're safe Becca, and so is the baby"

"Im the one who is supposed to comfort you" I said "not you comforting me"

A small laugh escaped his mouth "No it's harder for you since he was with you" Brandon said

"Come give me a hug" I said as he wrapped his arms around me hugging me

"I'm really glad you're safe Becca, Alex would've lost himself, if you weren't here" Brandon said Pulling away as I felt Alex shift behind me, slowly opening his eyes

"Did I sleep?" He asked rubbing his eyes

"Yeah, how are you feeling?" I asked kissing his shoulder

"better" he replied "did I miss something?" alex said looking between us

"we were just talking" I said

"no she was saying that it was her fault and we both know it isn't" Brandon said

"Becca, I know its hard for you but Becca it's not your fault! It's the other drivers, he was drunk and dad is in a better place now, may he Rest In Peace" Alex said as I took his hands in mine

the door opened and Ethan stepped in "how are you guys?" He asked

"Better" we replied

"Let me hug you" Ethan said as I hugged him tightly

"I'm glad nothing happened to you"Ethan said tightening his hold on me

"E, you're hurting her" Brandon said

"Bro I was deadly scared, I'm just glad she's okay" Ethan said