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"Don't get too deep, it leads to over thinking, and over thinking leads to problems that doesn't even exist in the first place."

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Taehyung woke up with a smile on his face. He snuggled in his sheets,the memories of last night still playing vividly in his mind.

He remembers the soft gaze with which Jungkook looked at him and how much it made him happy.

The way his heart beat fastened at the subtle touches of his husband.

He slowly opened his eyes and a content sighed escaped his lips.

It all felt like a dream to him.

A happy dream.

He turned around to see the time on the wall clock.

And a small whine escaped his lips when he realised it was almost the time for him to wake up.

Taehyung was not ready to leave the warmth of his bed.

Just than he heard the door of the room open. But he didn't move a bit already knowing who the other person was.

Jungkook quietly moved to stand beside him.

"Taehyung." He called.

And the younger closed his eyes for a second relishing the comfort of bed.

"Taehyung."

He opened his eyes again and sat up slowly.

"Goodmorning." The younger wished, voice sounding a lot more huskier.

Jungkook gave him a big smile.

"Goodmorning, how was your sleep ?" He greeted back.

"Was good." Mumbled the younger sleepily as he involuntarily yawned and his hand moved to cover his mouth.

"You should get up now."

Taehyung looked up at him sleepily and nodded with a grumble of small protest.

"Alright. I'll see you in a while than,freshen up."

Younger just hummed in reply.

Jungkook turned around to walk out of the room but stopped in his way.

"And Taehyung- "he turned around.

The younger stared at him expectedly.

"Don't go to sleep again. I know you're planning it. "

With that he immediately left the room leaving the younger with a pout on his face as he was indeed thinking about it.

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Taehyung brushed his teeth as he stared at his reflection in the mirror in the bathroom.

And he couldn't help but smile as he remembered the protective gesture of his husband from last night.

That how some people were passing by his seat all the time and when someone bumped into his shoulder. Jungkook without a word pulled his stool closer to him as he glared at the passerby.

And the small action was enough to make his heart flutter.

He even kept his arm around his shoulder for the rest of the night.

When he saw himself in the mirror again a grin was plastered on his face and he chuckled shaking his head at the stupid expression on his face.

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It was than when the hot water was cascading down his tan skinned body in the shower.

He found a lump on his nape while shampooing his hair. And his eyes immediately widened.

He hurried through the rest of the shower.

But his heart beat only fastened as multiple thoughts invaded his mind.

As he got dressed his expression was one of disbelief and he was continuously saying the word "no" under his breath.

Taehyung quickly went into his room and looked at his nape in the mirror.

The bump was clearly there as a shaky breath escaped his lips and he staggered a bit.

Slowly he found himself lost in the spiral of his mind.

The memories Taehyung tried to forget surfaced yet again.

"No,no,no,no."

"Please no,no."

He started breathing faster and his mind felt foggy. Suddenly everything went silent.

Too silent that Taehyung felt like crying.

But he didn't realise it that the tears were already falling from his eyes.

His chest felt constricted. It was getting harder to breath.

He still didn't know what state he was in properly.

Mind is a scary place and if you are stuck in old memories and worries of the future. You become powerless and doubtful.

You start questioning everything.

It was what happening to Taehyung. He was pulled into spiral of scary thoughts.

The one he is really scared of.

He felt helpless and all alone. Taehyung didn't know how to get out of there.

He was really scared.

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Jungkook didn't expect to see Taehyung on the floor crying hard as he had difficulty in breathing when he entered the room again.

So the scene in front of him shocked him to no level as he froze for a second.

Fear invaded his mind as he rushed to his husband.

He took a breathe to calm himself down.

"Taehyung- "He said and squatted down in front of him.

He gently touched other's arm in a reassuring way.

"Taehyung--can you hear my voice ?"

"I'm right here. Next to you. Nothing's going to happen."

"Calm down." He said softly without sounding panicked even when he was.

"Can you hear my voice ? "He asked again and the younger felt his mind clear a bit.

"Breathe for me."

"Yeah just like that deep breaths."

"Can you hear me, Taehyung ? "Jungkook tried again when he saw other calm down a little.

This time the younger gave a shaky nod.

"Perfect. "He smiled.

"I'm holding your hand. Can you squeeze it for me ? "

But the younger didn't. He just looked at him pleadingly.

Jungkook heart broke as his husband stared at him with tearful eyes filled with fear.

But he needed to be strong.

"Please."

Taehyung just than felt that he was holding his hand.

So he took a stammered breath and tried to do what he was told to.

"Good."

"Now just focus on your breathing. I'm here okay ? "

"I am sitting right beside you. And I'm not going anywhere."

"Just breathe."

And for sometime no one said anything. Taehyung was focusing on breathing as he hiccuped a few times in between.

Jungkook was still holding his hand as an assurance that he's there as he let Taehyung get a hold of himself.

After some time, Taehyung turned to him.

Tears again ready to spill from his eyes.

"Hey,what happened ? "

"What got you like this, Taehyung ? "

"Please tell me if you're comfortable." Said Jungkook as he pulled him in a for a hug.

He rubbed his back in hope to give him some comfort.

They pulled back and Jungkook cupped younger's face to wipe the tears that fell.

"J-Jungkook--Jungkook."

"Yes, Taehyung. I'm here. Calm down."

"I'm scared. "He cried.

"What scared you ?" Asked the elder and hummed.

"Tell me."

"I-I-"

"You ?"

"There's a bump on my nape."

Jungkook frowned and nodded.

"Oh really ? "

"Maybe it's an infection or an allergy." Replied the elder confused.

"No,no,no Jungkook you don't understand."

"What did I not understand, Taehyung ? Can you please tell me ? "

"It's a bump." He said again.

Jungkook really didn't understand.

And Taehyung got it from his expression.

"Mom--mom had a bump in the start too,Jungkook." He explained.

And just like that elder's eyes widened.

He understood it.

Taehyung's mom had breast cancer. And it all began when she found a bump.

She fought against it but in the end she still left them.

And Jungkook's eyes softened.

"Oh Taehyung. "He said and pulled him in a hug.

"I'm sure it's nothing like that."

"I know it's scary. But don't think about it. "

"But-but-- "Taehyung started and Jungkook shushed him.

"I know past memories are scary."

And it indeed was, Taehyung witnessed a lot of things when his mom was sick and it genuinely terrified him and the thought alone of his bump on the nape scared him to no end.

He's a sensitive boy.

"It's probably nothing, Taehyung." Said Jungkook as he helped him stand up.

The elder could see Taehyung was ready to reply when he walked to the bedside table and poured him a glass of water.

"Here." He said and gave it to him.

"But if you want. We can get it checked, today. Okay ? "

Taehyung took the glass but didn't drink the water yet.

"You'll be with me. Right ?"

And Jungkook smiled.

"Ofcourse,if you want."

"I want to."

"Than I'll be with you."

"Now please drink some water. I'm sure you need it."

Jungkook guided the glass to his lips and as the water passed through younger's throat he got to know how much he needed the water.

"Are you feeling okay now ? "Asked Jungkook and rubbed his arm in order to give him some affection.

"Yeah."

"Do you want to lay down for a while ?"

"No it's okay. It's time for the breakfast anyway. "

"I'll just go and fix myself."

"Are you sure you want to go downstairs ? "

"It's okay if you don't want to."

"No. I'm fine now. Besides I don't want to be in the room right now. "

"Okay. "

Taehyung knew that Jungkook was worried about of him. So he sighed and pulled the other in a hug.

"I'm fine, Jungkook. Really. "

"A little scared,yeah ? But I'm okay."

"Just don't think about it." Muttered the elder as he let Taehyung go in the bathroom.

"I'll try not to."

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"We have an appointment in the afternoon."Said Jungkook when he came out of the bathroom, looking a little better.

"Alright."

"You'll go with me right ?" Taehyung asked again and Jungkook nodded.

"Yes, Taehyung. I'll go with you to the doctor. Don't worry. "

"I'll go to office now and meet you there when it's the time for the appointment.

"Okay that's fine with me."

As they walked side by side with each other. Taehyung tried his best to ignore all his thoughts and distract himself and Jungkook turned to look at him multiple times just to make sure he was okay.

The state in which he found his husband frightened him a lot.

He has to make sure that he's with Taehyung as much as he can.

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When one hour was left for the appointment. Jungkook stood up from his chair and closed the file he was reading.

He texted Taehyung to ask him where he was to which the latter replied that he was on his way to the hospital.

So he also got ready to leave and walked out of his office.

He was standing in front of the lift when a hand touched his shoulder.

"Where are you going ? "

He turned around to look at Namjoon who was looking at him questioningly.

"I have some previous appointment, hyung. I'll take the rest of the day off." He replied.

"No you can't go."The elder denied.

"Why ?"

"Father is in the meeting room on the top floor. He has called every head of each department to discuss about the profits and the improvements."

"And you have to be there."

"But hyung-"

"Jungkook." Said Namjoon in a stern tone.

And as soon as the younger was quiet. He pulled him to the meeting room and Jungkook let him reluctantly.

Maybe the meeting won't be long and he'll make it up on time.

He thought.

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Jungkook's heart was filled with guilt as he texted Taehyung that he might be late.

And he felt more worse when Taehyung said it was okay.

He should have gotten mad at me. He thought and clutched his fist tight in anger.

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Taehyung was sitting on one of the benches in the hall in the hospital as he waited for Jungkook.

He was all alone and many thoughts were trying to invade his mind as he took a deep breathe.

"No. Don't overthink, Taehyung." He told himself.

Only five minutes were left and than the doctor would see him.

But just as he was called in.

Taehyung got a message.

Jungkook.

Sorry Taehyung it looks like I won't be able to make it.

I'm stuck in a meeting.

Namjoon hyung is not letting me go.

I'm really sorry.

Please forgive me.

He smiled as he read the text.

"Atleast he tried to be there for me."

Taehyung

It's okay,Jungkook.

No worries. I'll be fine and I'll tell you

If something happens.

Jungkook

I'm sorry Taehyung.

(Read 12:10 pm)

Jungkook stared at the last message that he sent.

Taehyung left him on read.

He really wanted to be there for his husband. But this stupid meeting.

He cursed under his breath and tried to control the temper and guilt he felt.

His knuckles were turning white with the power he clutched his fist.

The feeling of helplessness returned.

Jungkook felt useless and he hated.

He glared at his phone screen when he felt Namjoon nudge him.

"Turn your phone off, Jungkook."

He sighed and did as he was told.

When Namjoon turned his attention to their father again.

He turned to his other side to see Yoongi look at him in concern.

"What's wrong ?"He asked softly.

Jungkook opened his mouth to say something but stopped.

"Nothing hyung. Don't fret."

Yoongi nodded and turned away,too.

And Jungkook felt horrible.

He felt so much worse.

He could only hope that Taehyung would be okay on his own.

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Hi I hope you guys liked it 💜

Please don't think Taehyung is overreacting or something. He is clearly overthinking this situation which is really affecting him.

Tell me with which endearment you want Jungkook to call Taehyung ?

And the next few chapters are probably going to be serious and all. So prepare yourself.

Thankyou so much for reading 💜💜✨