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"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"

– Mary Manin Morrissey

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Jimin stared at the expensive diamond ring that now shone in his ring finger.

His eyes pricked with the tears. It finally happened.

But the tears were not of sadness. It was far from that. The tears were from the anger and the annoyance.

The emotions he tried to hide everytime were on the verge to be let out.

He felt numb. He didn't even realise when the ceremony started and ended.

He hated the feeling of helplessness. The feeling, he felt almost all his childhood.

Jimin scoffed.

He didn't even get the chance to choose the one with whom he wants to spend his rest of life with.

Jimin saw the happy expression on his parents face when he left for Jeon's mansion.

They were too lost in their happiness to see how their own child was suffering. But on the other hand maybe they just never noticed or simply didn't care.

Fuck it hurt. It hurt him so much.

All of this could have been stopped if only Jeon Yoongi had refused the proposal or if he would have actually tried to stop it.

He felt like he was getting sick.

Jimin was tired.

Tired of letting others control his life.

It's his life. Let him live it on his own terms.

His parents controlled his every action in the past and now he was sure that his so called husband would be the one to do it.

He was seething with anger as he breathed heavily.

He'd be damned if he allowed Yoongi that control over him.

Oh how much he doesn't even want to see his face.

Yet he will have to see it for the rest of their lives.

His hands formed a fist as he looked around in the room with a frown .

His new room that he'll share with his husband.

The anger and hurt was getting the best of him.

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Yoongi sighed as he finished another glass of scotch.

The plan was too drown himself in the alcohol and to forget everything for some time.

He's not blind, he could obviously see the rage and annoyance in Jimin's eyes after the ceremony.

He just pretended to not notice it.

He did his best. He gave it his all to stop the wedding. But all his efforts failed him.

He is married.

Now the only option was to make this arrangement work.

He'll try--try to get along with Jimin.

Even when it seems like other doesn't want to do anything with him.

Yoongi can see detest in younger's eyes when they were together.

It will be tough for him. But he'll try.

Atleast they can be civil with each other, if nothing else.

Yoongi just wants some peace in his life.

Just than he heard someone shuffle inside the bar.

He turned around and saw Hoseok bow to him.

"Everyone left for the night. They are staying at the countryside manor." The Buttler informed and he nodded.

"Hyung, do you plan to stay here all night ?" He asked with a concerned look.

"I want too."He muttered

Hoseok sighed and sat down on the stool beside him.

"I know it's not a quite pleasant situation between you and sir, Jimin. But you can't just hide. "

"Face him and try to solve the problems. Don't just hide. "

"It's not easy, Hoseok. You didn't see the way he looked at me."

"He dislikes my presence. And he is not in his best state right now. I'll let him be for a while."

"Don't think like that."

"He is aggravated and maybe your talk with him will calm him down."

"Hoseok-"

"Hyung, don't be like that. You said that you'll try and make both him and you happy."

"I am-"

"Please."

Yoongi frowned.

"If you weren't my close friend. I would have fired you this instant."He joked and Hoseok chuckled.

"You can't fire me,hyung. I'm the head Buttler only your parents can fire me. "

The elder smiled softly.

"Now, don't get drunk and go. "

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Jimin was glared at the door when he heard the knock.

He's here.

He got up from the bed and stood in the middle of the room, staring at the marbel floor.

Soon the door opened and Jeon Yoongi walked in. His actions were hesitant.

Their was some distance between them and an uncomfortable silence followed after the elder's arrival.

"I'm sorry. I am really sorry." Whispered Yoongi.

But Jimin heard it and clenched his fists tight.

"I know you didn't want this."

"You didn't want to get bounded with me."

"I'm sure you had plans for your future and you feel like, I came in between them."

"I'm sorry."

"But,I promise--"

"There shouldn't be a need for you to apologise. If only you would have said no."

"Nothing like this would have happened." Said Jimin in an emotionless tone as he looked in him in the eyes.

"Try to understand, I tried--"

"NO, YOU DIDN'T. "The younger cut him off.

"YOU DIDN'T TRY ENOUGH AND THAT WAS THE PROBLEM ! "

"I FEEL LIKE IM BEING SUFFOCATED AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. "

"Because of me ?" Asked Yoongi confused.

"YES, YOU AND MY PARENTS."

"DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A THING. I AM A HUMAN WITH FEELINGS."

Yoongi gazed at him with a calm expression.

"I never treated you like that."

Jimin scoffed and folded his hands on his chest.

"You haven't but I'm sure you will in the future."

Yoongi closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

He opened his orbs again in a few seconds.

"I don't know what kind of assumption you have--"

"ASSUMPTIONS ? "Jimin gasped in disbelief.

"I'M NOT MAKING ANY ASSUMPTIONS. I KNOW IT. "He shouted.

"Don't shout and let's try to talk about our wedding calmly." Said Yoongi.

Jimin's nose flared in anger.

"TO HELL WITH YOU AND THIS STUPID MARRIAGE. "

In annoyance and irritation, Jimin walked to the cabinet and threw everything on it on the ground,the frames ,small clock , the old candelabrum.

Next he pulled the soft white sheets of the bed and threw them on the ground.

In anger, he didn't care,not even one bit.

Yoongi didn't flinch and watched him silently.

He needed to get his emotions out.

He thrashed the paintings in the room.

The flowers used for the decorations were next.

Jimin didn't even realise when he started sobbing.

Yoongi stepped forward after a while.

"Jimin, please-"

The younger glared at him with tear stained cheeks.

"LEAVE ME ALONE. "

"Jimin--"

"I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU."

Yoongi contemplated and nodded, leaving him all alone.

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"Hoseok."Yoongi called right after he left the room and went to the ground floor, where the butler was.

"Yes."

"Check on Jimin after some time and please clean all the mess. No one should know about his outburst."

"Okay hyung."

"I'll be in the guest room of the second floor,rest of the night."

Hoseok bowed to him and watched him go.

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Just as Yoongi left the room, he fell on his knees as a loud cry escaped his lips.

All the hidden emotions were finally out.

The room was fully messed. He opened his fists and stared at the crushed petals in his hands, which only made him cry more.

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Jimin sat up with a gasp. His face covered with sweat, breathing heavily, he tried to calm himself down.

He dreamt about his past, his first night in the Jeon's mansion.

The night when his emotions got the best of him.

His head was swirling around and he felt nauseous.

Tears gathered in his eyes as he felt sick to his stomach.

He hurriedly placed a hand on his mouth and rushed to the washroom.

Yoongi frowned when he heard younger's rushed steps.

He opened his eyes and sat up on the couch,blanket falling down from his chest.

He could hear the sound of throwing up and sobbing.

His chest felt heavy, he told himself to stay put, Jimin can handle himself. He doesn't need him.

"Do care for Jimin hyung ,too. Put your ego aside. "

His brother's voice was heard in his mind.

And he found himself groaning as he stood up and walk towards the washroom.

Yoongi knocked on the door politely and found the it already open.

Jimin was leaned on the toiled, puking his guts out.

He cried when his stomach clenched in pain.

Yoongi's heart tugged as he immediately sat down beside him and rubbed his back.

Jimin jumped up at the contact and looked at him startled.

"Hyung--hyung." The younger was shocked when he saw the elder but he wasn't able to ponder on it more as he felt bile rose in his throat.

A sob escaped his lips.

"You're a strong boy. "

"It's okay, everything is going to be fine."

"Don't cry. "

"Take deep breaths for me."

"Such a good boy." Whispered Yoongi for him.

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"Hyung." Said Jimin and leaned against him now, fully exhausted.

Yoongi wrapped his arms around younger's shoulder as they sat on the tiled floor.

Jimin controlled his breathing and stood up with the help of his husband.

Yoongi without any word and guided him to bathroom sink and helped him brush his teeth.

All the time, the elder was supporting him, Jimin was leaned against his chest.

He moved his hands through the sweaty locks of other as he brushed his teeth with eyes closed.

When he was done, Yoongi took him back and helped him get in the bed.

The elder covered him with the comforter and moved to the get him a glass of water.

"Here, drink it." He said and passed the glass to Jimin who took it.

Yoongi made sure, he was alright before he walked back to the couch.

Jimin's back rested on the head rest as he stared outside the window.

The room was dark but still because of the light from outside, you could see things pretty clearly.

Multiple thoughts were present in his mind at the moment and he knew that if he started to dwell on them, it will not be good.

He needed to distract himself.

Sleep wasn't an option for the moment.

He stared the elder who laid on the couch, his one leg folded and the other stretched forward, one arm resting on his stomach while other supported his head.

Yoongi's eyes were closed but he knew that the elder was not asleep.

"Hyung-" he called out softly and saw the way the elder tensed up.

Jimin doesn't know from where did he got the confidence suddenly. But he was thankful, because they needed to talk.

Still he didn't open his eyes and hummed as a gesture for him to continue.

"Why-why--did you--you change ? "

Yoongi took a sharp breath at that.

"I mean, before no matter what I did , you were never cold to me. You said that I needed time and had a lot of patience, than why did you change suddenly ?" He explained in a soft voice.

"I know I was always rude to you and I ignored you every chance I got. And I probably don't have any right to ask you this but I'm really curious."

Yoongi opened his eyes and turned towards him.

They gazed at each other. And he finally decided to answer him, let everything out in the open and admit his wrong.

"You definitely know, how much of an ego we Jeons have. And when you went to other person for support rather than me. It hurt my ego. My patience with you ended."

"Hyung, I-I--"

"I know, Jimin. I know. You don't need to explain anything to me. I was stupid at that time."

Jimin gave him a small smile.

"And I went to lily to protect my damaged ego-" the elder continued as he stilled.

"I was never attracted to her. It was like to show you that I can also do the same as you. "

"I know it was my worst decision. I'm really sorry. Please forgive me. I should have stopped you but I did the same."

Jimin gulped.

"I'm trying to be sober. I didn't have any alcohol for two weeks."He confessed.

This time Yoongi looked at him with a relieved smile.

"Really ?" He asked and the younger nodded.

"That's great, Jimin. I'll help you."

The younger shook his head.

"No hyung,you don't need too-"

"Please, let me. I really feel bad for the way I acted in the past. It's eating me up. I can't focus on anything after I knew how wrong I was. "

"Please let me help you."

Jimin was speechless because it was the first time they talked for this long and how keen the elder was to help him.

"Hyung-"

"Please , Jimin."

The younger was not convinced but still he nodded. He himself doesn't know why.

"Thankyou."

It was quiet for a while, both in their own thoughts.

"I am not reckless." Said Jimin.

"I didn't like drinking before. But everything just got too overwhelming for me as the time went by. "

"Their are a lot of reasons on why I acted like that in the past. I'm not trying to say that it's not my mistake. But I'm saying that a lot of things that had happened lead me to do this."

"You don't need to tell me anything, you're uncomfortable with. It's okay ,I'll wait. Don't force yourself. "Said the elder.

And Jimin felt relief. He didn't really want to say anything. Atleast not right now.

"Whatever happens now, I'll be with you and support you, Jimin." He assured as they both smiled at each other

Maybe--maybe this can be their new start.

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Hi I really hope you liked it 💜 ✨

I am trying my best. Please try to understand both of their point of view. And Jimin is going through alcohol withdrawal symptoms, nothing else.

I am really excited to write soft yoonmin moments now.

Thankyou so much for reading 💜✨