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Caring was a thing with claws. It sank them in, and didn’t let go. Caring hurt more than a knife to the leg, more than a few broken ribs, more than anything that bled or broke and healed again. Caring didn’t break you clean. It was a bone that didn’t set, a cut that wouldn’t close.

-V.E. Schwab

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"Jinnie appa, don't cry. " Said the boy and wiped the other's tears as he laid on the hospital bed with an IV attached to his arm.

The elder took the boy's hand in his hold and kissed it.

"I won't."

Just than a nurse entered the room. She quietly checked his temperature.

The elder's eyes were on her and the said boy's attention went back to the big tv screen that played his favourite show.

She smiled and turned to Jin.

"His temperature is normal now. I think he'll be discharged after he finishes his IV. "

"That's a great, thankyou." He said and gave a small smile.

When the nurse was out of door, Jin sighed in relief.

"He's okay. No need to be scared. " He whispered to himself.

He twirled his fingers around the boy's hair mindlessly.

"Jinnie appa ? "

The elder hummed.

"When can I go back ? I miss my friends." Asked the boy with a pout.

"Hoon-ah ? "

"Yes ? "

"Are you feeling good ? "

"Yes, I am good, now. When can we go back ? " He asked again.

Jin chuckled.

"Soon."

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"I have filled the discharge papers, Chang hoon is good to go. But I need your sign." Said the doctor with a smile.

Jin nodded.

"Give me a minute. I'll sign them."

"Than I am leaving the papers out at the reception. You can also pay and sign there. "

"Sure."

The doctor left the room. And a helper from the orphanage entered.

"Please help Hoon change his clothes. And pack his toys,too. I'll be back after I complete the formalities and pay the bill."

The helper smiled.

"Thankyou for taking care of Hoonie and for bringing him here. We could have never afford it."

"Don't thank me for it. Hoon is close to me and I wanted to do it." Assured the elder and turned to look at the boy who now sat on the bed with a twinkle in his eyes, excited to get out of there.

Jin leaned down in front of Changhoon and cupped his round cheeks.

"Be a good boy for me. "

"I am always a good boy." Said the boy with a grin and Jin smiled.

Only he could make the elder smile like that.

"Yes,you are but I want you to be extra good and do what she says , okay ? "

The boy nodded with a smile.

Jin let go and stood up, the smile gone.

He excused himself and went to pay the bills.

His phone buzzed in his pocket. But the elder ignored it.

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"Hoonie, say thankyou."Said the helper. Now all of them stood outside the hospital.

"Thankyou,Jinnie appa." He smiled showing his teeth.

Jin chuckled.

The elder ruffled his hair with the look of adoration in his eyes.

"You should go. It's getting late." He said to the helper and assisted both of them in the taxi.

"Take your medicine on time. I'll visit you soon. " Said Jin and kissed the boy on the forehead and closed the door.

The elder waved back at the boy who was waving at him enthusiastically and the taxi drove away.

Jin got in a taxi himself. The phone in his pocket buzzing again. But he didn't pay any attention to it.

"To the beach, please. "

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Namjoon looked at the silver rolex in his wrist and sighed.

He paced around his room and called his husband again.

Namjoon took a deep breath when their was no response.

What Jin did today was out of ordinary. He really doesn't know how to react to it.

Another unanswered call.

And it took a lot of Namjoon's will to to not throw his phone at the wall in anger.

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Jin watched the waves crash as he sat on the sand.

The all to familiar scene seemed to be mocking him.

10 Years Ago.

"Come on Joonie. It will be fun." Said the elder as he dragged him to the beach.

Namjoon reluctantly let Jin pull him.

"Hyung, we skipped school. Just to go to the beach. "

Jin turned around and smiled.

"Yes, we did and we do deserve a good break after exams. So shut up and enjoy the moment now."

Namjoon sighed but agreed.

"Alright."

I hope father doesn't find out that I skipped school, today.Thought the younger as the worry clouded his mind.

But it all went away , when Jin tugged him forward.

"Whatever you're thinking,stop. Enjoy the moment, Joonie. Worry later. "

Namjoon chuckled.

They walked barefoot on the sand, hand in hand , talking , laughing and running.

Namjoon stared at his boyfriend in disbelief when Jin threw the water on him.

The elder was busy laughing at the bewildered expression of other that he didn't notice the younger sneaking behind him.

Jin shrieked when he was lifted in the air.

"Don't you dare. " He warned but Namjoon didn't listen and dropped him in the sea.

"Namjoon."Shouted the elder as he balanced himself and stood up all wet.

"Yes." Replied the younger, moving away from him.

"You just wait."

Jin chased after him and Namjoon laughed running away.

After a few minutes, Jin caught him, all breathless. But he smiled when he saw the sheer happiness on the younger's face. His eyes softened.

"Please don't stress about the results, Joonie. "

"Hyungie cares about you. And hyung doesn't like it when you are all tensed, yeah ? "

Namjoon smiled and leaned forward to kiss him on the lips.

"Yeah."

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Jin stared at the sunset without any emotion on his face.

"What did I do wrong to deserve all this ?" He said defeated.

He came here to get some peace and not to be mocked by the past memories.

He just cared, too much.

He cared about his relationship.

He cared about his husband.

He cared about the opinions of his in law's.

Even when he should have stopped caring. He didn't and look where it brought him.

Jin didn't want to dwindle in the past. So he got up and brushed his clothes, slowly walking away.

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Namjoon stood up from the chair when the staff informed him that Jin has arrived.

He waited for his husband to enter the room.

"Where were you ?"

The first words Jin heard when he entered the room.

He didn't expect Namjoon to be there.

But the elder ignored and walked past him to the dresser.

Namjoon turned around with him.

"Where were you ?" He asked. His eyes boring onto his back.

Still no reply.

Namjoon tried to control his temper.

When Jin was about to move past him again. He held the elder's arm and stopped him.

Jin hissed at the pain in his arm.

"What do you want ?" Asked the elder with the same tone as his.

"I asked you a question, tell me where were you ?"

"I don't want you to know." Said the elder sternly.

Namjoon was about to open his mouth and say something but stopped and took a deep breath to calm himself down.

"You walked away when we were supposed to have lunch with Mark and Jackson."

"I think I should atleast know the reason for it. "

"And I think you should not know." Retorted the elder and freed his arm from other's tight hold.

"I should." He argued.

"Why should you ?" Countered Jin.

"Because I am your husband and I care about you." Shouted Namjoon.

"Are you ? Are you my husband, Namjoon ? And Oh please stop lying that you care about me. Because I think we both know you don't. "

"Don't try to change the topic, Jin. "

"Tell me-- where were you." Shouted the younger again. The elder flinched slightly at it. But didn't back down.

"I am not going to tell you." Said Jin equally loud.

"And leave me alone. I just want some peace. "

With that Jin stormed out of the room.

Namjoon breathing was heavy as he walked to the showpiece on the table and smashed it on the wall in anger.

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Yoongi took of his coat and walked in the hallway. He was about to turn around and move to his room.

However , he stopped when he saw Jungkook outside Namjoon and Jin's room.

With a frown he walked to the younger.

"Why are you standing there ? "He asked and noticed a file in the younger's hand.

Loud yelling was heard from the room and he also froze like Jungkook for a moment.

They are arguing.

Yoongi sighed because it's not their first time but he also knows that they will go back to normal, tomorrow.

They would go back to their ways again.

"Give him the file, later. "Said the elder and pulled his brother away.

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Tears streamed down his face. As he laid on the bed in the guest bedroom.

Jin wanted to be alone. And he groaned when he heard a knock on his door.

"What ? "His voice was shaky.

The door opened and he sat up startled.

The person just entered the room without permission.

Jin was ready to shout in anger but instead his mouth opened in shock.

"Jungkook ?" He said in disbelief.

The younger rarely approaches him and he only does it when it's important. So he didn't know how to react.

"Hey." Said the younger and shuffled inside the room awkwardly.

"Are you okay ?" He asked hesitantly.

Jin stared at him wide eyed.

"Did something happen ? "He questioned instead of answering.

"No, everything's fine. I just wanted to check on you." He replied and looked down.

"Are you okay, though ? "

Jin wiped the streaks of tears from his face.

"Yeah, I am fine." He answered.

No he was not. The elder wanted to shout at him to leave him alone but something stopped him from doing so.

Was that concern he saw Jungkook's eyes ?

He didnt know for sure.

"Mind if I accompany you for a while ?" Asked the younger.

Jin nodded and Jungkook moved to sit on the couch.

"Are you hungry ? "

"Huh ? "

"Are you hungry ? You didn't eat dinner. "

"No , I am fine. "Jin shrugged and leaned his back on the headboard, pulling the soft sheets to his chest.

It was silent for a while.

Jungkook stared at the wall in front of him and Jin at the blanket.

"Are you hungry, now ? "Asked Jungkook.

Jin shook his head.

Another ten minutes passed.

"Hungry ? "

"No."

"Okay."

Twenty minutes later.

"Hun--"

"How long are you going to ask me that ?"

"Untill you say yes, because I know you didn't have lunch,too. "

"Why do you care ? You never did. "

Jungkook sighed.

"I know I am an asshole, jerk, rude and cold. "

Jin scoffed at the words but didn't say anything.

"But I'm trying to change, hyung. I want to give Taehyung a happy married life. So I'm trying to change for him."

"Slowly I want to correct all my mistake."

"I know Taehyung felt alone in this mansion. "

"And not only him , you and Jimin hyung ,too. "

"So I want you to know that you are not alone. "

"You cared about everyone and got hurt."

"This time I want to care about you and Jimin hyung as a younger brother."

"And care about Taehyung as a life partner, be with him."

"I don't expect anything back from you. I'm just trying to mend my mistakes and I will. "

"And if needed I'll stand against my brothers, parents and everyone else just for you , Jimin hyung and Taehyung. "

"I don't give a shit anymore."

"What you all have been through was not fair and I apologise for that. "

"I'll work hard for you to forgive me someday. "

Jin thought about everything Jungkook said and looked him in the eye.

Now he could clearly see the concern, worry and respect in younger's eyes for him.

It left Jin speechless.

Jungkook didn't say anything more and neither did he.

"So hungry ? "

Jin scowled but nodded.

"Great . "Jungkook jumped up from his seat and walked out.

The elder was tempted to get up and lock the door.

You are not alone.

But he decided against it.

Jin knew Jungkook wasn't lying. Because after all these years he can easily tell it whether someone's fake or not.

The elder chuckled bitterly.

"Your brother learnt , Namjoon. When will you ? "

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"Here." said Jungkook and placed the small table with food in Jin's lap.

"Thankyou." Said the elder in a whisper.

The younger gave him a comforting smile and walked to sit on the couch again.

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Namjoon stormed out of his room to talk to Jin.

He wanted to talk to the other.

As he was passing by the hallway. A hand on his shoulder stopped him.

"Don't go to him right now." Said Yoongi.

And Namjoon scoffed.

"It's none of your business. Stay away."

Yoongi sighed.

"Jin hyung is angry and you are too. "

"Besides he wants to be alone. So let him be for a while. "

"You will just argue again. Go to your room and calm down first. "

"Whatever." Scowled Namjoon but turned to walk back to his room.

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Jin yawned after finishing the dinner and Jungkook got up from his seat.

Jungkook placed the small table on the bedside.

"I'll ask someone to get it in the morning. You look tired, go to sleep, goodnight."

"Goodnight." Mumbled the elder as he laid down and snuggled in the sheets. He was sleepy. All the events made him tired.

Jungkook paused and turned around to look at Jin again.

"Hyung ? "

"Yes." Said the elder softly.

"When Namjoon hyung apologises to you in the morning,in the same monotonous tone for the argument. Don't forgive him. " Said Jungkook and walked out of the room.

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Looks like Jungkook and Yoongi does care about Jin a little. But they don't show it.

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