happy thoughts bounce around in my head

they go left and right and left again

they bounce and bounce and start breaking stuff

It's getting kind of dangerous for me here

But they're happy thoughts

And i should be fine with that

Happy thoughts singing in harmony in my brain

Loud and clear about the good things in life

My blessings one by one

Like chanting it echoes in my hollow body

Loud and now less clear, just noise

By millions of happy thoughts

But they're happy thoughts

and happy thoughts are good

So i should be fine with that

the thoughts would've drowned me, she said

And just in time she came

took me out of control and filled me up

With happy thoughts, all over

my thoughts, she said, were all wrong

And happy thoughts need to bounce in them

Deteriorate them, wipe them out

and change my bad habit

and now the happy thoughts are here

They're round and white, they're happy thoughts

And that's good

I swallow them whole and free them

happy thoughts immigrating in my brain

sucking all the water that was once a problem

So I won't drown

only happy thoughts live here

And I can't fucking stand it—

But they told me it really should be fine like that

my own thoughts, they're all wrong

happy thoughts living in my body

dancing and smiling and laughing and killing all my bad habits

and I should be fine with that

I should really be fine with that

But I can't fucking stand it

the happy thoughts are late today

and it's all my fault

yesterday's happy faded away

the new dose is waiting

But so am I

I see the box and the box stares back

Today my head is getting peace

the thoughts, they're all wrong

but they're mine

Today there's no party I'm forced to be invited

Today I'm crying cause it's my turn to have a party

And in parties I feel lonely

bad habits

Bad habits all dancing in my head

And I'm dancing along

In my parties I know no one will come to bounce around and smile

No one will come at all

and so

today Im sad

At last

And I'm fucking fine with that