every smile my mouth formed

because of your presence

has been ripped off

by every step you took leaving

and every smile that was ripped off of me

has never found its way back

and it never will

the happiness that's born within your company

will never call me back

it chose you

and left me

They always do

I thought happiness was you

Years forward I find myself smiling for others now

Now every smile my mouth forms

belongs to someone else

And when they leave

I'll be in search of another

This constant journey

At least I know

You were never happiness

Happiness is everywhere

Happiness is objects

Happiness is people

Happiness is everything

Everything but me

And when all objects melt

And when all people leave

I'll be alone

No one to smile to

Nothing to smile about

what I would give to be self running

instead I'm always craving for a source

When it's been sitting in front of the mirror

my whole fucking life

I blamed you for stealing my smile away

I blame the people that leave me and take my happiness with them

I'll forever blame myself for blaming others

that's what unhappy people do