"I actually know what it feels like" I spoke as he looked up in confusion

"what?"

"I know what it feels like" I repeated

"what do you mean? like how?"

"I have a brother"

never in a million years, I thought I'd say this out loud to someone but here I am telling everything to Axel Russo

"What?" His eyes widened a bit

"His name Bryce"

"Bryce...Wait Bryce! You said it once in your sleep and your fathers coworker said it"

"He's 7 now" I said after I nodded "but he's not dead. He's some where in this world and I know I won't see him ever again" I hugged my knees to my chest

"wait how? Your parents are not alive" he asked confused "I mean like where does he live?"

"I was in orphanage with him before he was moved into another"

His eyes widened and I saw the surprised look on his face

"What?? Wait how? Orphanage?"

"yeah me and Bryce used to live together, I was taking care of him there before they took him away from me and I never heard about him"

"Why were you sent to orphanage, I thought dad brought you here as soon as your mother died" he said but I shook my head

I wish she died

I wish dad was still here, then this all wouldn't have happened

All these scars she caused

"She's in jail" I blurted as I looked up not wanting to cry "she.. she-used to abuse us after my dads death saying it was our fault that he died, it stopped when our teacher in school saw the bruises and ... later police showed up at our house before she was taken...-taken away and we were put in adoption"

"The marks, it's from her?"

i nodded

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry baby" he pulled me to his chest and I let my tears fall down

wait did he just call me baby?

I felt his warmth around me and it made me feel safe, a feeling that I've never felt in a while,

and just like that I cried for Bryce

for dad

for the things I missed

for mom

for the pain she let me through

and I cried for axel

and he was there to hold me closely and comfort me

"you're okay, we'll be okay. I'm here" he whispered "I'm sorry you had to go through that all but I'm here now"

he was going through a lot and he's still here for me

I couldn't help but let a laugh escape my mouth making him look at me weirdly

"should I ask?" He asked as he wiped my tears before wrapping an arm around me while we layed our backs on the bed

"it's funny how I'm supposed to be here for you and now I'm crying and you're here for me"

"why do you mean? The axel russo just cried infront of a girl, can you imagine?" axel said sarcastically as we laughed

"thank you" he whispered as I looked up to him and smiled

"thank YOU" I said as he pinched my nose

"no thank you"

"are you trying to fight me? Don't let me tell everyone the Axel Russo was crying in front me" I said as he laughed

"how did you find me?" he asked curiosity shown his beautiful face

"You father" I said as a bitter laugh escaped his mouth like I was saying false things

I mean of course he won't believe

"I swear he heard us that we'll be looking for you and he gave me the address and said that you'll need me here"

"that's unbelievable" he said as he shook his head

"I swear. He cares about you"

"Bullshit"

"Let's just forget about him. What is this place anyway?" I asked trying to change the subject because I knew that it would make him mad

"It's where mom, my sister and I used to come. She used to come here and paint and always trying to teach us but I'm bad at painting"

"She paints?" I said amazed

"I'm sure you heard about her gallery's" axel said as i shook my head

"we need to go there sometime" he said "it's amazing"

"Are you asking me on a date already Axel Russo?" I said as I raised a brow

He laughed

"I didn't say that but I'd love to take you on one" he said making a blush appear on my face

"I was joking but I'd love to" I said

he placed a soft kiss to the top of my head

"Can I see her pictures?" I said as I pointed at the pictures under him

"you want to see her pictures?" He asked unsure

"yeah if that's okay with you?" I said "I mean you don't have too, only if you're fine with it"

"Sure but I was surprised because that is the first time someone asks this" he grabbed the pictures

"there she is" he pointed at this beautiful girl who was sitting between Axel and Antonio

They looked happy

"she's beautiful, I wish i met her" I said

"she was"

"Aw look at you!" I pointed at another picture and he groaned "wait I still remember this hat!"

he laughed and shook his head slowly "trying to remind me how big of an asshole I am?"

"Yeah! You literally cut it just because I touched it" I said "a girl touched it mom Ofcourse I'll cut it into pieces!" I mimicked

"That's not what I said"

"Yeah yeah okay" I said before we looked at each other and laughed

My phone rang, I took my phone and saw that the caller was Theo and he was trying to FaceTime

"I'll answer, they're worried" I said

"I look like a mess" he said but I shook my head and answered

"Hey" I said

"Hey, you saw him right?"

I nodded

"How is he?" Luke asked from the background

I placed the phone infront of axel

"I'm okay guys" Axel said running his hands through his hair

"You bitch! I hope you go through what you made us go through today! We were worried about you!" Savannah yelled showing in the camera as I laughed

"aw you worried about me Sav?"

"No I'm not!"

"Yeah okay I can see that. Seriously guys I'm okay" Axel said

"When are you going to be back?" Marcus asked

"I don't know, maybe later" he said as I looked at him

"later?"

"I'm just gonna enjoy being the real axel here then come back" he said as Savannah smiled

"I hate him but he's being cute" she said

"I bet she knows more things then we ever did" Lucas said

"Shut up" axel said

"Well guys go back to your houses" I said

"She's kicking us out" Marcus said as I stick my tongue out

" have a good night, we'll see you tomorrow" I said

"Goodnight" they all said before we closed the call

"should we go?" he asked "but not home"

"Where to?" I asked

"I don't know, I just don't want to be home now"

"Sure" I said as we both got up, locked everything and got out

"Where's your car? I didn't see it when I came"

"The other side of the road" he pointed before we both walked silently to the car

we both got in before he started looking for something

"wait it's at home"

"What?" I asked

"My phone, I thought I had it" he said before chucking

"next time axel, even when you decide to use the bathroom. Take your phone with you" I said "and I'm playing music"

"Sowwy" he pouted and I couldn't help but pinch his cheek, he smiled

"and It's not like there is any other way to play music" he said as I shrugged

and for the rest of the night, we drove without destination, just us singing out loud to songs

I looked at him while he was yelling the lyrics of forgive my self by Sam smith

I smiled, he looked much happier then he did minutes ago, his smiled was bright, his eyes sparkled

he was going through a lot and I wished I knew a way to make it all better

He didn't deserve this, he was hurting and he never did show it to anyone. But it wasn't his fault, nothing was.

"Til I wake up in the morning, you're all that I see, You run through my head, in and out of my dreams" he looked over to me and sang

"Breathe for a minute, try and focus on me

But I can't think of anyone else" I sang

"But I can't think of anyone else"

I've never thought that I say this, not now nor later but

damn axel

I'm falling for you hard

the butterflies you give me everytime you touch me, or the feeling I feel when I remember the magical kiss we had.

I hope this can be the start of an endless story.