Bad Gut Feelings

I thought this would last longer but it went by fast, keep in touch with me. I felt like I was appreciated here, just how I was at home.

~ Natalie James's POV ~

It was our last week together on the Euphoria set, I wanted to cry.

I had so much fun with these people that I forgot it was just for a limited time only, I got the guy of my dreams and I have amazing friends.

I sat down on my bed after packing everything up and took out some loose leaf papers.

I grabbed my glitter pen pack and began to write thank you letters to everyone on set, cast and crew because they helped me a lot.

My eyes began to water, I really didn't want to leave.

It was already night when I had finished writing the letters, I put them neatly in a folder that would be given the day we all leave.

I was ready to come back home and see my siblings again, it's been a while and I miss them like crazy.

After I put the folder away, I felt shiver down my spine.

I don't know why, but I just felt like something bad was going to happen but I don't know to who or when.

It was a terrible gut feeling, I brushed it off and changed into my pajamas.

I turned off my light and went to bed but I couldn't stop thinking about it, it was engraved in my brain for no reason.

I sat up in my bed and stared at my wall, I was worried about what was going to happen.

Maybe it was all made up, I hope that it's all in my head and wasn't true.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, I got up from bed and went outside of my trailer.

What do I do to satisfy this gut feeling?

I walked around for a bit, trying to get the last bit of energy out of my body but it was useless.

Everything I tried only made it worse, it made me feel sick.

I walked back to my trailer and turned on the TV, I watched Golden Girls reruns because it's usually what calms my nerves.

Maybe I was nervous about leaving them and that we wouldn't ever see each other again.

With all the worrying in my head, I fell asleep.

But it didn't stop my body from screwing with my mind and giving my nightmares, I woke up to the worst nightmare of all time.

I was drenched in sweat and hyperventilating, the nightmare felt so real that I was scared in real life too.

I wasn't sure what was real or fake but I didn't want to find out either, I sat up and tried to catch my breath.

Tears streamed down my face, I felt like I was being suffocated but I wasn't anymore.

It felt like Veronica trying to suffocate me with a pillow all over again, I began to cry harder.

Everything inside me began to cramp up.

I felt sick, I got up from the bed and ran straight to the bathroom.

I bent over the toilet and threw up, I laid on the floor.

My body hurt everywhere, I don't think I would be able to get up and call for help.

I lied there as my tears fall down my cheeks and down the side of my face, I closed my eyes and steadied my breath.

After a few hours, I felt the pain ease up.

I got up from the floor and went to my bed, after I brushed my teeth of course.

I closed my eyes and tried getting sleep, I relaxed my tense muscles and just tried sleeping normally.

I got the guy, I got the job, what else did I want or need?

Was there a step that I was missing, causing my gut feeling?

I'll figure this out tomorrow, I just need to focus on my breathing, heart rate and body.

This will probably blow over, I was most likely overdramatic.

Something bad is about to happen to me, I don't know but I feel it coming.