My favorite song lyric from 4 Morant 'but in my eyes, I can fly, sigh. Better luck next time.

I woke up to rain drops hitting my bare skin, I sat up slowly and took a deep breath.

Taking in the nature scent as I slowly got up, my mind drifted away.

I began to leave the beach, walking back to the Martins.

My heart rate increased, everything I've been through with Veronica, everytime I promised myself, I'd never go back.

I found myself entering the house, Veronica ran downstairs and hugged me, she looked like she's been crying but it was just fake tears.

Dinner was made, I changed into a baggy shirt and shorts.

I had eaten dinner, I went upstairs and laid in bed when Veronica barged into the room.

She held up a figure skating outfit and skates, I didn't want to do it but I forced myself to.

We walked to the ice rink, I put my skates on.

I was fixing my hair when I was harshly shoved to the ground, I grunted as I looked up.

"Stop wasting time, get to work."

Veronica said as she rolled her eyes and skated away, I scoffed and got up from the ground.

I began to skate around, doing the best I can to make her happy.

"Skate faster!"

I was out of breath, my legs were starting to cramp but I continued going faster.

My eyes watered but I continued, it was like I was stuck in hell but this was only the beginning and I know it.

After a couple of hours, she was satisfied.

It's been a week since I've left home, I sent letters but never read them.

As we went home, there was a stabbing pain in my stomach.

I brushed it off and took a warm shower, I laid in bed and took a deep breath.

Everything inside of me felt like it was on fire, I closed my eyes and tried drifting off to bed.

Veronica walked into my room and began shaking me vigorously, I groaned and woke up.

She threw my ice skating outfit at me, too tired to argue, I put it on.

We walked back to the rink, I skated harder than ever.

I ignored the pain, the sleepiness and everything inside of me.

I wanted to forget about everything that I have ever experienced, I needed to forget.

My mind ran wild as I was skating faster, I didn't see where I was going.

I accidentally crashed into someone, making me fall but the person stumble forward.

I felt such a sharp pain but I could care less, I got up fast and watched as the person turned around.

"I'm so sorry!"

I apologized, I moved my hair back from my face and put it in a ponytail.

"Natalie?"

The familiar voice I heard a week ago, the one that screamed for me to turn back around.

The very same one that used its lips to collide with mine, Jaden.

I didn't even say anything, I skated out of the rink and removed my skates.

He did the same and chased after to me, I ran faster as my lungs screamed and begged for air I didn't stop.

I cut through the forest and continued running as I heard him scream for me, I wanted to turn around and jump into his arms as he told me everything will be alright but I couldn't.

I wish I did, everything he did for me was just to make me happy.

I didn't stop running until I got into the house, I was hyperventilating.

Tears streamed down my face as I shook with adrenaline.

Veronica had a smirk on her face, she didn't bother helping me up at all and instead she walked past me.

Locking the door and walking back to the living room, it felt like I was transparent to her but I didn't bother arguing with her.

Instead, I ran upstairs and took another shower.

I hadn't noticed the blood dripping down my thigh, I looked down and saw a cut.

I must've did that when I ran into the forest, I finished my shower and grabbed the rubbing alcohol.

I cleaned my wound up and wrapped it with a bandage before dressing myself with a baggy shirt and shorts.

I laid in bed, giving myself up to the sleepiness I've held onto all day.

But it didn't stay that way when I heard a notification from my phone, I took a deep breath and looked at it.

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Tears fell down my face, I cried harder than I ever had.

My family and friends were out looking for me, I'll admit.

I lied about everything, I never did send the letter nor received any.

After I wrote the note, I went outside and ripped it up.

I didn't want anyone seeing me, the rush I felt when I saw Jaden was amazing.

But I couldn't stay and go back home with him, my mind was running wild and I was beginning to get a headache.

Everything I ate started coming back up, I ran to the bathroom and soon threw up.

I was over working myself, my body couldn't keep up.

I brushed my teeth and lied in bed, I grabbed my airpods and played '4 Morant' by Doja Cat.

My favorite song lyric from 4 Morant 'but in my eyes, I can fly, sigh. Better luck next time.'

I muttered to myself as I drifted off to sleep, if I didn't die in my sleep then it must mean I'm getting out of here.

But it feels like I won't.