Last night after everyone left, I was broken, Scott was sweet, he was smiling like he was the happiest man alive. Because he got to be a part of his daughter's birthday for the first time, since finding out he was a dad.

I was just distant from him because I know what I have to do today. And it breaks my heart to even have to, last night I spent all night just thinking about it. Going over my options and I don't have any.

Because Valerie just didn't threaten to take Remi away from me, but she also to take her away from him too. Along with having evidence to end his football career, in a split moment, she can take everything away from us.

And Valerie she doesn't make empty threats, she will do everything in her power to take Remi from us in a click of her fingers, and she will win she's got a lot of friends in high places, if anyone could pay off a judge it would be her.

I can't let that happen, and I want to tell Scott, but Valerie even threaten me with that.

In her email this morning, it said that if I were to tell Scott the truth she would still go to the judge and we lose our daughter.

I don't know what Scott did in the past to put his career in jeopardy, but whatever it is it's bigger enough that she's threatening to go public with it which could cost him his team and his contract.

She's backing me into a condor, and I don't have a choice, believe me I wish I did but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Because I only see this ending two ways, and neither one them is what I want.

One: I call Valerie's bluffs and I tell Scott everything about his mom and her threats, and she still falls through on her word and we lose Remi, she is ripped from her home, from her parents to live with someone she doesn't know and who doesn't even want her.

Because she used my past against me, and she's used the last five years against Scott, the drugs, the women, the fights, the affairs. She will throw everything she has at us, and we will lose, and Valerie knows that. And Scott would lose his career along with everything else.

Or Two: I just give Valerie what she wants, I end things we Scott and we keep our daughter safe and loved in a home she knows, Scott gets to keep his football career too.

It's going to hurt and we're probably never going to be the same again after, but at least we will still have Remi and Valerie won't be in our lives.

I wish I could say there was an option three, that by some miracle we win Valerie's bluff and Scott and I stay together and live happily ever after.

But that's just wishful thinking and even if that were possible, I can't take that risk with Remi what mother would, knowing that the odds were against her.

Pulling out of my thoughts as I walk up and down the living room, my mom has taken Remi out for the day because I didn't want her here when Scott comes over and I have to do what I have to do.

Letting out a deep breath as I hear a car pull up, and there's a pain in my heart already because I don't want to let him go, but I know that I have too.

"Hey babe" I hear Scott's voice say, followed by the door closing behind him, looking up just as I let my eyes linger on him for long moment, taking in everything about him, he smiles at me with so much love.

Scott walks up to me and leans in for a kiss, jumping back from him which takes him by surprise, as he looks at me with a raised eyebrow, a confused look in his beautiful blue eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asks me sounding concern, taking a step back from him and shook my head.

"I need to talk to you," I whispered sadly to him; Scott doesn't make any movement.

But I can feel his eyes burning at me. How I am supposed to tell him that I don't love him, how I suppose to walk away from him.

"Ella what is going on?" He asks me again but this time in a whimper, it's like he can read my thoughts, it's like he knows that I'm about to break everything apart.

"I can't do this.... I thought I could, but I can't-;" I cried out, trying to hide the pain in my own voice, he doesn't deserve this, but I don't know what else to do.

"Elly please-;" I hear him cry out, and I force myself to look at him. I see tears in his eyes, and pain crosses his handsome features. I'm causing that, and I hate myself for it.

"I'm sorry but this-;" I say waving my finger between us,

"it was a mistake, we don't work, and I don't think we should keep forcing it because it's not real...." I trailed off, Scott takes a step towards me and pulls me closer to him, so we're face to face, he places a hand on the side of my face and looks deep into my eyes.

"I love you, that's real. We belong together" He cries, shoving his hand from my face and moved away from him, I need this to be over with.

"No, we don't...we got caught up in acting like a family and that's all those feelings were. This between us Scott, it's done, it's over" I say with a hard tone, hoping that he doesn't see through my lies.

"Your lying to me, tell me the truth" He yelled at me, shaking my head, and looked at him.

"I'm not, I don't love you. And I don't want to be with you" I shouted back at him, Scott stumbles back a little and I see a single tear fall from his eye onto the floor. And I feel my own eyes getting watery, but I can't let him see me cry.

"Ella...." He cuts of and wipes his tears, but I can't look at him. Taking a deep breath before letting my gaze move back to him.

"I've made my choice, we'll sort something out with Remi but we're done Scott" I announce and I let my eyes flicker to door, hoping he was get the message to leave, so then I can break down and cry because I just hurt the man that I love.

Scott nods his head, the tears still visible in his eyes. And he begins making his way towards the door letting out a sad sigh and covered my face with my hands. Just as I hear his footsteps stop midway, and I hear his voice say in husky painful tone.

"I don't know what's going on, but I know everything your saying is a load of bullshit. But like you said you've made your choice, right?"

"Just leave" I cried loudly at him and moved my hands from my face and threw my eyes to his. Scott stares at me, giving me one more chance to speak up and tell the truth, I wish I could, but I can't, it has to be this way.

He shakes his head and just looks at me, before letting out a defeated sigh and walked out the door without looking back at me.

Once he was safely out of my home, I let my tears fall down my face, falling down to my knees as I sob.

My heart is broken, but I couldn't lose my daughter, I couldn't let Scott lose everything his work hard for in his life.

Now the love of my life has literally just walked out of my life, and it's all my fault, it was all my choice.

Scott and I we never stood a chance not back then, so a second chance for us was impossible and Valerie made sure of that.