Today with Remi has been hard, but also incredible I mean when Ella called this morning. And asked me if I could watch Remi while she went to work, I was shitting myself, because every time Ella has been there with us, she's been the proper parent to Remi, I've just been the fun new dad there.

But today it's just been me and me alone, it's a lot harder than expected being an actual parent full time. after today it just makes me praise Ella even more, for doing it alone for near enough five years.

Snapping out my thoughts as I hear a knock at my front door, and I smiled to myself because I know just which woman it is.

"That will be mommy," I say to Remi while putting down my pink teacup and pulled the toy-tiara off my head. Shaking my head with a smirk to myself, I really hope my teammates don't ever find out about this.

Leaving Remi to play with her toys walking over to the door and opened it. Expecting my eyes to land on Ella, but instead, they landed on Kara my ex-girlfriend of some sort.... who I haven't seen in months and don't want to see again if I'm being honest.

"Kara, what are you doing here?" I asked her with a firm voice, Kara looks at me with a flirty look in her eyes and a smile, but I ignore all of those signals.

"I was thinking about you lately.... wanted to see you," Kara says still with the same flirty tone. Shaking my head and looked at her with a strained look.

Kara is the daughter of one of my mom's friends, we went on a few dates. Dated a few weeks, but it was nothing more than sex, which Kara knew, we broke it off mutually, so I have no idea why she's on my front step right now.

"Now's not a good time, you have to leave," I said, just as Remi comes running up to me, and stands shyly beside me.

"Ugh...whose child is that?" She barks out with a hint of dislike.

"Remi my daughter...seriously you have to go now!" I hiss with force this time. Ella is going to be here at any time to pick Remi up, and it's not going to look good if Kara is here too.

"You have a rug-rat?" She says with shock, shaking my head and opened my mouth ready to respond, just as I hear Remi's sweet voice shout loudly.

"MOMMY" Looking up to see Remi running towards Ella who smiles at our daughter before throwing her eyes at me and then at Kara, with a look of anger in them, I can't blame her because I know how this must look.

"Sorry to interrupt- "Ella broke off and then looked down to Remi,

"Hey lady-bug...why don't you go and get your stuff so we can go home," she said to her, Remi nods her head before running back into my house.

"Ella this isn't what it looks like" I began saying to her, Ella puts her hands up in defense and shakes her head, I know that she's mad, but I need to explain.

"No need to explain, what you do with whoever.....is your own business. But I would appreciate it, if you didn't have your latest conquest around my daughter" She says firmly to me, with an angry voice.

"Ella please..." She cuts me off again and shakes her head just as Remi runs back out to us, Kara just stays silent while looking at the exchange between us.

"I'm ready," Remi said, Ella wipes the anger from her face replaces it with a happy smile.

"Okay say goodbye to your dad then," She says, Remi turns to me gives me a hug, looking at my daughter, returning her hug, and smiled.

"Bye daddy," She says then waves before going back to Ella's side and takes her hand.

"Bye sweetheart," I say to my daughter and then I watch as she walks away with Ella, hand in hand. Throwing my eyes at Kara and now I'm angry.

"Start talking Kara... why are you here? "I broke off for a moment as she looks at me before I added,

"And the truth because you might have just cost me my relationship with my daughter. So... Talk...Now" I grit out, Kara looks at me and nods before starting to talk.

"Your mom called me this morning; said you have been missing me, wanted to give things another shot-;" She broke off for a second and smirked,

"well I've missed you too, I know you're always up for a fun time, and you're really good in bed-;" She snorted, throwing my gaze to her getting more pissed off. I can't believe my mother would call her.

"Doesn't explain why you're on my front step" I shot out, Kara smiles and flatters her eyelashes.

"I thought why not...what's one more time for old times sakes as I'm in town"

"Not going to happen.... ever again. You can report that back to my mother"

Kara shakes her head and sighs, before taking a step back from me and my house.

"Look I don't know what's going on with your mom. or with that other woman then, clearly sex isn't happening between us....right?" She says, crunching my teeth.

Because I don't want to sleep with her, I don't want to sleep with anyone if I'm being truthful, because for the last few weeks Ella is the only woman who has been in my dreams.

"Goodbye Kara" I announced and shut the door in her face.

Call me an asshole I don't care, but her showing up here has just caused drama with Ella. And now I have to go and explain to her, that my mother is causing trouble for us once again.

Throwing myself down on the couch with a beer, after changing into my sweats now I'm pressing play on my Netflix account. Remi is in bed sleeping soundly and I just need a moment to relax mostly from my own thoughts about Scott.

When I went to pick up Remi today from Scott's house, I walked up to find a beautiful, tall, elegant-looking blonde, who also happens to be a socialite on magazine covers, standing there with the father of my child.

Yes, I did feel a ping of jealously and I don't know why. Because I don't want to be with Scott, he's the father of my child that is it, I accept that fact years ago.

But then at that moment, I was hit with a reality that I never thought of before, he came back into my life.

That eventually he's going to meet someone and maybe fall in love, get married have more kids. And because I'm Remi's mom, and he's her dad we're going to be in each other's lives from now on.

I'm going to have to watch all that unfolded, I'm going to have to watch Scott fall in love with another woman one day, and it's hard to accept that you know.

I also know he can argue the same case with me, the truth is I haven't even thought about falling in love again, not since I was with Scott.

Sure, over the last few years I've dated, and I have had the odd relationship that lasted a few months. But never anything long-term, because it doesn't matter that I'm still young, or that I run a successful business I'm still someone's mom.

And I can't just spend the night away from my home, I can't just plan a wild weekend away because I have some who depends on me. Which pretty much kills any romantic relationship I try to have.

For Scott it's easy you know, he's drop-dead handsome, he's a professional football player, he's modeled for Calvin Klein for god sake, he can have any woman he wants regardless of being someone's dad.

I don't even know where the jealous feelings came from, I don't know if it came because it is Scott in general or if it's just the fact that I'm lonely, I really don't have a clue, I just know that I hate that feeling.

Snapping out of my thoughts as I hear a knock on my front door, who could be knocking at my door at nine-thirty at night? Shaking my head and placed the bottle of beer on the coffee table, before getting up and opening the door.

"Hey..." Scott says as soon as my front door opens, looking at him for a moment.

"If you're here to see Remi, you know it's her bedtime and she's already asleep"

"I know, I'm here to talk to you. Can I come in?" He asks me with hope, rolling my eyes and sighed, before nodding my head, letting him in my house.

Closing the door and walked back to the couch and my beer, Scott follows me and sits down next to me on the sofa.

"About what happened when you picked up Remi-;" He began, shaking my head glaring at him a little, I don't want to talk about this. I'm not getting involved in his personal business, I have no right to anymore.

"And before you say anything, please just let me explain" He adds, shrugging my shoulders and nodded before leaning back on the sofa, waiting for him to speak.

"Okay Scott" I replied, Scott also leans back, looking at me tiredly.

"Kara and me we dated that is it, we broke it off months ago. So, I was surprised when she turned up this afternoon.... the reason for that is because of my mother-;" Scott broke off, throwing my eyes to his and shook my head.

Of course, Valerie why aren't I surprised by that, passing Scott the beer in my hand, and looked at him sadly, he takes the beer from me with a small smile.

"Why though?" I ask him, Scott just looks at me and hands me the beer back after taking a sip.

"It's simple really my mother wants me as far away as possible from you, and she thought Kara could be the answer. That's why she called her and said that I was still hung up on her and wanted to talk. Which is why she ended up at my door today"

Letting out a tired laugh because it's unbelievable the lengths Valerie will go to.

"I'm just sorry that Remi was there Ella, I really am"

locking my gaze on him and smiled sadly, it's not his fault his mom is crazy and evil.

"It's okay... I just wish I knew what your mom's deal was! I mean we're not even together, we're literally co-parenting our child, how is that threat to her?"

"I don't know either, but this is just making me think I should not spend Christmas with her-;" He sighed,

while leaning more back on the sofa, and gently wraps his arm around me, like it's the most natural thing in the world too, and without even thinking about I fall into his arm.

Shaking my head sighing, getting tired myself laying my head down on Scott's shoulder.

"I was actually thinking about Christmas this morning, and I was going to ask you this when I picked you Remi-;" I broke off.

"But then that happened... anyways I was wondering if you would like to spend it with Remi and me?" I asked him without looking him in the eyes.

I have been thinking about it all week. I mean this is their first Christmas together, knowing about each other and I think Scott should be a part of it with his daughter.

I have had four Christmas's with Remi, getting to do everything a parent does at Christmas for their child, Scott hasn't had one yet and I just really want to make this one special for them both, one they both can remember.

"That is the best Christmas gift ever, thank you, Ella I would love to" I hear him say and I feel a smile on my face, just as he wraps his arms me even more, it's a moment between us, a small one but its' a moment and I feel something in my heart, a feeling that hasn't been there for a really long time.