It's been a week since I told Scott about Remi, and I haven't heard anything from him since. No calls, no emails, no messages, nothing at all. I'm not sure how to process that.

I understand that it came as a massive shock that he's a father and that he needs time to see how he feels about that. But I have a four and half-year-old, who has spent the last week asking me when she can go and meet daddy.

A week later, I think she thinks I've made the whole thing up. I told Remi about Scott because I honestly believed at the time, that he might step up wanting to know her, but this last week I'm starting to think maybe I was wrong, which I now might have to explain to my daughter.

Pulling out of my thoughts looking around the coffee-house, the same coffee-house I sat in weeks ago when I met up with Scott again for the first time in years.

"Hey, so sorry... I'm late. Work has been chaotic, and Valerie has been hounding me about setting a wedding day-;" Amanda cut off and sighed, before taking a seat at the table.

I have to say that I've definitely found a friend in Amanda since she hired me to do her party, which she loved by the way. Plus, she's really nice, honest, and once we became friends, I told her everything about my past with Scott, how Valerie was with me, how I never told Scott about his child.

Amanda didn't judge me for it, she never questioned my intentions. she listened to my story and she understood it.

"If you want my advice, just send the wicked witch to voicemail" I joked, she looks at me and lets out a small laugh.

I get the feeling that Valerie isn't Amanda's favorite person either, but she's keeping the peace because she's marrying into that messed-up family, one thing I am grateful for is that I've now escaped important family events with the Vaughan's.

"I wish I could, I'm sorry I doubt Valerie is the last person you want to talk about"

"It's fine, I accept that once I told Scott about Remi, I would have to get used to the idea of Valerie once again" Amanda looks at me sadly as I mention Scott.

"Have you heard from him?" She asks me, taking a sip of my coffee and shook my head.

"No not since the day I told him, and I'm not sure if I will either" I answered.

"I'm sorry, I wish I could be helpful and give you some sort of advice. But the truth is Oliver and me, we haven't even seen him this week, I think Oliver blames himself for that though-;" I sighed.

Now it's my turn to feel guilty because I was the one who made Oliver promise not to tell Scott anything, and now it might have coasted him his brother, that was wrong of me.

"That's my fault, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked Ollie to keep my secret, I was simply scared you know.....still am" I replied, she looks at me and stays silent for a second.

"Oliver doesn't blame you;" ......But he should... I thought.

"I mean they're still speaking. I just think Scott needs time, to think about things"

"I understand that... I do. but this is bigger than Scott's hurt feelings, and I'm at the point now where he has to be honest with me, about how much of a role he actually wants to have in my daughter's life" I exclaimed sadly,

She keeps her gaze at me for a moment but doesn't say anything.

I think because at the end of the day she knows that this isn't an easy situation for anyone to be in, and the man that she loves was brought into it by me, the man who is about to be her brother-in-law is in it, and me who is her friend, are all in the middle of it, and she's just sitting from the side-lines, watching a bunch of people she knows to figure out everything, without actually talking to one another.

"Maybe just give him a little more time," She says to me with hope in her voice. Nodding my head and sighed, letting it go. fine I guess giving Scott more time to come around to the idea of his child is the best thing for everyone, for at least now anyway.

"Needing time I understand, but my almost five-year-old doesn't-;" I sighed off for a second and took a breath,

"she's really excited, she's even drawn him a picture of her and him-;" I stopped in tracks, met Amanda's stare.

"if this goes side-ways it's her hopes getting crushed and I'm going to have to live with that because I set all of this in motion by telling them about each other" I added the last part with guilt.

maybe I should have just kept my mouth shut about everything, because someone in this whole mess is going to end up hurt, that I can just feel and I can't have that person being my daughter.

"You did the right thing Ella; you couldn't keep it a secret anymore... I think you know that which is why you told Scott." She said trying to reassure me,

"It doesn't feel like that; it feels like I screwed up Scott's life. And set my daughter up for disappointment" I sighed with defeat.

"There's one thing you're not considering in all of this-;" She broke off and I looked at her,

"Which is how are you doing? With having Scott back in your life now, for good"

Locking my eyes on her for a moment and stopped to think. The truth is I haven't even thought about that or myself. Because all I've been focused on is Scott and Remi or how this is going to affect them. I never thought about what this meant for me and Scott.

"It's hard I guess, for half a decade he was my whole life, and the other half he was just gone...now I'm not sure where he fits into my life anymore" I answered.

"I guess time will only tell you" Amanda announces and then just smiles at me.

Shaking my head and sighed, I guess she's right I suppose.

Throwing myself down on the couch, sighing...today has been long. It was nice catching up with Amanda this afternoon, I mean the talking about Scott kind of sucked but after that, I managed to change the subject to her wedding, it was more relaxing.

She and Oliver have yet to set a date but are hoping to soon, she even asked me if I was willing to help out with the wedding planning, at first I wanted to say no because it just might cause more trouble with Oliver's side of the family.

But Amanda was very convincing with her case, she also had lots of nice comments so after that I couldn't say no to my friend. Also, after the trouble I've caused Ollie with his brother, I owe him one.

Once coffee ended, I couldn't stop thinking about what Amanda asked me. About how I felt having Scott back into my life, and my whole mind has been in overdrive since.

Because if he does decide to be a part of Remi's life, he's always going to be in mine, as a co-parent, as the father of my child.

These last few months I didn't really stop to think about it either, because I never planned on Scott finding out that I was planning Oliver's party, at the time my only concern was keeping Remi away from everything.

But now that he knows about everything it's different, I can't hide in the shadows anymore. Scott is going to be in my life forever now, and a part of me still has this aching feeling inside, telling me that it's not a good thing.

I've known Scott Vaughan for ten years, for five of them, he was the boy in high school who made me feel special, he was the boy who I had my first kiss with, he was the boy who watched friends on repeat with me, he was the guy who was always there for me, he was the boy I loved with everything my heart and soul had.

And for the other five years, he was the selfish jackass who left me because some jerk in a suit told him to, he was the guy who was in every gossip magazine for sleeping with different women, he was the man that destroyed my heart.

Now he's neither one of those guys, he's just Remi's father.

Pulling out of my thoughts just as my phone rings, holding it up to see Scott's name appearing, my heart flutters for a second, maybe he's finally ready to talk about things.

"Hello" I answered before I could change my mind, I hear Scott take a breath on the other end of the line.

"Hey...it's me. Is now a good time to talk?" Scott asks me, sitting up straight and sighed because I'm not sure where this conversation is heading.

"Yeah it is, how are you?" I ask, avoiding the hard conversation that I know is coming.

Also, I am generally concerned about how he is, Amanda mentioned this week is the week he hears if he can play football again if his leg and ankle are healed enough to keep the one thing in his life he worked so hard for.

"I'm fine... It's just been one of those weeks I guess" Scott mumbled, there's defeat in his tone I can hear it.

"I know what this week is Scott, I also know finding out about Remi left you more confused" Shaking my head as the line just stays silent.

I know how important football is to Scott, ever since the accident he's been in limbo cause he doesn't know if his leg is strong enough to be able to play the game anymore. And I guess finding out about your secret daughter too, kind of messes up your head even more.

"My leg is fine, I can play. I go back to practice next week-;" He shot out,

"I don't want to talk about football Ella" He added firmly, sitting up a little and just sighed. Here we go...

"look Scott I'm really sorry for everything you know-;" I began saying but he cut me off before I could carry on.

"No Ella, no more apologies. It seems like that's all we're ever doing is apologizing to one another-;" this time he broke off, but I could tell in his voice, he wasn't finish talking yet, he just needed a moment.

"We have a daughter" He announced after a few seconds of silence between us.

"We do" I echoed back as a response.

"I want to meet her; I want to know her. And I don't want to wait any longer for that to happen, she's my daughter too..... I've missed near enough five years. I can't miss anymore-;" He pleaded with me, with sadness in his voice.

"I'm not going to keep her away from you anymore, Remi is as much a part of you as she is me, I want the two of you to build a father-daughter relationship together, but are you sure you're ready to be a dad?" I say to him,

"I don't think any guy is ready to be a father, but I'm willing to do the work and be there for her....and you too" He replied to me, letting the line go silent for a moment as I take a breath myself, this is the Scott I once knew.

The kind Scott who never judge me for anything, the Scott who always made me feel something different, but he's different now too, we both are that's what scares me about the future, that we're going to have to figure out together.

"Okay then, how about this weekend? Do you know where Tongva Park is?"

"The one in Santa Monica, right?" Nodding my head, even though he can't see me.

"Yeah that one, every other weekend I take Remi there, she loves the playground and gardens, we have a picnic. How about this weekend you join us, twelve-thirty?" I ask him.

I'm not sure how this day in the park will go but it feels like the right place for them to meet, a public place, a nice day, no expectations just a day at the park.

"I would love too" He announces over the silence, exhaling a deep breath in relief.

"We'll see you there then" I replied,

"Goodnight Ella" I hear him say before the line goes dead, as I hang up the phone.

I'm glad that he's not showing his hurt and anger towards me, that he's only really thinking about Remi in all of this, but he shouldn't be so nice to me.

I did keep his daughter away from him for years, he should be mad at me. But that's a different conversation for a different day, all that matters now is making sure things go smoothly when Remi and Scott meet for the first time, since finding out about them being father and daughter.