Himal came back to apologize. He said that some emergency came up and he must leave. He apologized to me like 100 times and I told him, it was ok. I felt quite bad about it and as I turned, the devil was standing with a big smile on his face.

What's with him now?

"I will take you out for lunch," he offered.

I rolled my eyes and was about to go towards my room when he came in front of me and blocked my way. I glared at him.

"You were about to go out with him but why can't you go with me?" He asked.

"I don't want to," I shrugged.

"Why?" He asked looking into my eyes. I was staring back but the funny thing was I wasn't afraid of him. It didn't bother me that he was a vampire. From the day I came back here, it felt like I was around humans and now it felt like I was standing in front of a human. Why wasn't I afraid? It's because I know he won't hurt me? How stupid I am to even think that he won't hurt me? What am I thinking? He had hurt me time and again. The difference was he didn't hurt me physically but the pain in my heart was much more worst. He came closer and slowly kissed me. I let him kiss me, why? I came back to reality and broke the kiss. He gave me sad look but I ignored him.

"I wanna take you out," he said in a low voice. I didn't look at him.

"I don't want to go with the person who played games with me," I said after some silence.

"I didn't,"

How dare he deny it?

"Oh really? Then, what about that divorce papers?" I asked in an almost laughing tone.

"I..I did it cause..." He stopped.

"Cause?"

"I.... i..."

"What?" I asked in annoyance.

"Love you," He said looking down between us. It came more like a whisper but I heard him clearly.

I burst out into laughter and he looked at me.

"Say it again ?....love me? Loved me enough to let me go..... Right?" I asked.

His face fell "I did it for... you,"

"For fuck's sake, stop lying, ok?. You don't need to do this,"

"It's true,"

"Stop playing with me. I know you have been meeting Ratna every single day. Do you think I don't know about that?"

"She is my business partner.... Due to that reason I can't...."

"You know what? even though you did all this to me. I can't bring myself to hate you..... And ..and I hate myself for that," I cut him off. I was not interested in any of his stories related to that woman. I left and this time he didn't block my way. I changed and sat in the room feeling miserable as always. I was so hurt that I couldn't even cry.

"Come and have dinner, please," he said slowly coming inside the room.

"What on Earth don't you understand," I almost shouted.

"I..."

"Leave me alone. Just leave me the fuck alone," I said turning my back on him. It hurt to even look at him.

He was about to leave when I turned to tell him.

"And don't you dare come back here at night? I know, you sleep here in this bed. I don't want you anywhere near me,"

He looked hurt. He nodded and heard him say "Sorry," and he left. I wanted to stop him but to protect my heart, I had to let him go.

I know, I was being bitch. He played with my heart, my mind. I sat on the bed, crying. I was crying not because I was hurt. He had hurt me time and again and it was not a new thing for me. Everyone had always hurt me. I was crying cause I shouted at him. It hurt to push him away when all I wanted was to run into his arms.

It was almost midnight and I couldn't sleep. I was rolling from one side of the bed to another. His voice was lingering in my head.

"I love you,"

"Come and have dinner, please"

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I hurt him. He looked so hurt when he left. Does he really love me? If he does then, why didn't he once try to stop me? Why Did he let just me go? Suddenly, I heard a crash and I got up. It was coming from his office. I slowly went towards the door. The door was left open and he was throwing a bottle toward the wall. Had he been drinking? I never saw him drink. My heart started to pound. He turned to look at me and my heart stopped. I took a step back but he was too fast to catch my hand. I got afraid. His eyes were bloodshot. His hair was messy. He looked drunk.

"Don't.... hurt me," I blurt out.

He let out a laugh.

"Hurt you? Do you think I will? In these past months, you never understood me. Not even.... tried," he shook his head. He slowly let my hand go. He went inside and closed the door. I was left staring at the door.

He was right. I was so into thinking of hating him that not once I try to think why he did this all but I had asked him time and again. He never said anything and now he has the gut to blame me? I stood there for a while staring at the door and then left. The whole night, I couldn't sleep and I knew he didn't too.

I slowly got up and went towards his office. It was dark. My heart was beating so fast and I was quite afraid to open the door. I wanted to leave but couldn't. I wanted to just see him once. See if he was alright. Before he seemed angry and hurt maybe? I was about to knock but the door was unlocked so I slowly opened it. I turned on the light and saw him standing at the window, looking outside. He said he loves me and I do too but the lies and secrets have built a big wall between us that I don't think can ever be broken but I can try, right? I took a deep breath.

"Won't you come back to your room?" I asked him in a low voice. He slowly turned to look at me. He seemed..... different like he was hurt? Of course, I had hurt him.

"I...I am sorry," I apologized and he took slow steps toward me.

"You should go and sleep. I will sign the papers tomorrow," he said. His voice was soft. He went towards his desk and stood there.

Do I want a divorce from him? I came here to talk but seems like he doesn't want to talk.

"I...I didn't mean to shout at you. It's just....."

"I know," he said without turning to look at me.

I wanted to run to him and cry in his arms. I wanted to ask him why did he have to do all this? Why did he play with my heart and still why couldn't I hate him? Tears welled in my eyes. I was about to speak.

"You should go," He said.

"No, I don't want to leave. Just tell me why you are doing all this? Why are you playing with my heart," I wanted to scream but I knew it doesn't matter.

I nodded and left his office.

The next day, Rima and prarthi came back. When we all were in the same room, he didn't even bother to look at me. He looked sick. I would glance at him time and again. He was silent. Prarthi asked him what happened he was silent and his reply was that he was sick. At noon, prarthi left. Many things came to my mind. I know he forced me into this all but I married him and not once I try to know him or...........no, He forced me into all this. I then started to pack my bags. There was a light knock on the door. I opened it to find Rima standing at the door. Her eyes went to the bed where my bags were. She slowly came inside and stood in front of the bed and I followed her.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

"Uhhh, I guess, I should leave now,"

"No, no, please, you can't leave." She said in a slight panic tone.

"Why not?" I asked confused with her behavior.

"You are not safe out there,"

"Really? Is this the excuse you are going to make to not let me go? Or is there something else like we need more of your blood?" I said in a wave of anger and a mock-filled tone. Her face fell a little.

"I am telling you the truth," she said lowly.

"If I was not safe out there..." I said pointing my finger towards the door "Why did you let me go? why did he let me go? He didn't even bother to see me once," I said feeling pain in my chest.

"Cause.... At that time, that was best for you and we knew you would be safe there. He loved you so much that he had to let you go,"

"Loved me? What kind of new game are you people playing with me? Tell me what you want?" I almost shouted.

"I know, it's hard for you to believe but he loved you since day one,"

"Bullshit," I said, starting to pack my remaining things.

But the next thing that she told me was shocking and unbelievable.

"Before you met him. Before you even knew him,"

I turned to face her.

"Yeah, he loved you since day one and so much that he forced you in this marriage for your safety. He loved you enough to force you in this marriage and loved you enough to let you go and yes, that was just to keep you safe," she said and I almost laughed.

I looked at her face, waiting for her to laugh and tell me, This is all joke but she didn't. She was dead serious.

I shook my head "No, this must be some kind of new game,"

She stood there silently.

"I should leave now,"

"No, please, Once, just... just once, hear me out what I have to say. Just hear the truth and after that...if you don't want to stay then, you can go," she said in a pleading tone.

I looked at her face and searched for a lie in her eyes but I felt that she was not lying so I nodded but I was damn sure that whatever she was going to say, to make me stay, I was not going to believe her.