"ally" Ethan says while tapping me.

"hmm" i say rolling over into his chest. I hear him giggle.

"you need to get up and pack or were gonna be late for our flight" he says.

"just a couple more minutes" i say not wanting to get up.

"allison marie" he says.

"fine" I say getting up. I put my hair in a bun and change into leggins and a shirt with my tennis shoes.

We quickly pack and then we head to the airport.

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We get our bags to baggage and then we get set on the plane.

I have earphones in listening to some music and ethans closing his eyes.

The plane finally takes off and were on the way to la.

"hey" ethan says touching my thigh.

I take the headphones and look over to him

"yeah" i ask.

"you okay?" he asks.

I give him a light smile and then put my hand over top of his hand.

"yeah im okay"

He gives me a light smile and hold my hand while closing his eyes.

I put my headphones back in and wait till we land.

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were sitting infront of the house. Im dreading to go inside. Dreading to look my grandma in the face. Knowing that I might loose it. Knowing that im not gonna be able to handle looking at everything. looking at all his things and him not being there.

Knowing that once i walk through that door im not gonna be able to give him a big hug. Knowing that ill never here him yell my name or tell me things are gonna be okay.

Ill never get thoes little pep talks. Ill never be able to ask him for advice. I cant believe hes gone. It hurts. My heart is physically in pain.

"allison" ethan says knocking me out of my thoughts.

"hm yeah" i say looking at him with water in my eyes.

"you okay" he says touching my thigh.

I rub my eyes and then look back up at him and knod.

"you ready" he asks. I look at the house then back at him.

"i cant go in there ethan. Ill loose it. I already know" I say.

"you cant avoid it. Your grandma needs you. She needs you to be there with her. To be the brave one" he says squeezeing my hand.

I take a big breath in and knod. We get out of the car and go inside.

I walk in with the smell of food. Shes cooking. When she's nervous or stressed or scared she always cooks.

She bakes so much untill shes out of food. untill she cant make anymore.

"grandma" i say lightly. She turns around and I immediately see tears come down her face.

"oh grandma" i say going up to hug her.

She hugs me tightly taking a big breath in that skips a few times.

"im so sorry" i say with tears falling down my face.

"im so glad your here ally" she says squeezing me more.

"oh my. ethan. you brought ethan" she says smiling and pulling away from me.

"i hope thats okay" i ask.

"of course it is. Hi dear" she says hugging him.

"hi mrs lee" He says hugging her.

"is uh mom here yet?" i ask.

"shes on the plane. she should be here tomorrow" she says. I knod.

"why dont you two get settled in the guest bedroom...ill fix you two a plate" she says giving a fake smile.

"okay" i say lightly. ethan and I grab our bags and unpack.

"grandma if you dont mind me asking. What happened. to um grandpa" i ask.

She takes a big deep breath in. "car accident" she says.

"he didnt um" i choke up.

"oh no...no, he went peacefully" she says with tears going down her face. I sigh in relief trying to catch my breath from crying. ethan comforts me by rubbing my back.

"Here eat. I bet yall are starving" she says handing our plates.

We all eat and then its time to head to bed.

The funeral is tomorrow. Im not looking forward to it at all. I just cant. I dont wanna do it. I dont wanna face it. I dont want it to be real.

"you okay" ethan ask while opening the covers.

"yeah, im just worried bout her" I say getting in the bed.

"shes gonna be fine, she has you" he says getting in the bed.

"I hope so" i say turning my light off.

"i love you" he says cuddling me.

"i love you too" i say closing my eyes.

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The funeral was over and everyone was over at the house eating. Mom and grandma are pulling through. There keeping it together. Me.

I dont know how im keeping it together. All i wanna do is scream. I wanna cry. I want him back.

"ally" my mom says pulling me aside.

"yeah?" i ask.

"i hate to do this but i have to leave tomorrow. Your dad. He needs me" she says.

"mom, its okay. You go. Ill stay here with grandma" i say giving her a small smile.

She pulls me into a hug. "i love you so much" she says crying.

"I love you to momma" i say crying.

We pull apart and wipe our tears.

"have u seen ethan?" i ask.

"yeah, he was talking to some people" she says. I knod.

I go in the kitchen and poor me some more sweet tea.

"allison" my grandma says. I turn around.

"yeah" i say looking at her.

"I think im gonna go ahead and take a nap. will you make sure people leave" she asks.

"of course" I say setting my drink down.

I walk around trying to look for ethan but cant find him.

Some people start to leave and then eventually they all leave.

Ethan is still no where to be found. I go outside to get the mail and ethan pulls in.

"were did you go" i ask.

"store" he says getting out.

"for what, we have plenty of food" i say giggling.

"welll i got some movies, candy and some red velvet cuz i know its your favorite" he says grabbing the bags out of the car.

"Your too sweet" I say kissing him on the cheek.

"where's grandma" he asks.

"she's taking a nap. I think its really hitting her" I say looking down.

"shes gonna be okay. i promise you" he says.

"I know. i just hate this for her" i say tearing up.

"come on lets go lay down" he says grabbing my hand.

We go inside and get comfy and snuggle up.

"hold on before we start our movie marathon i wanna check on her" i say getting up.

"okay" he says eating some candy.

"grandma you okay?" i say walking in.

"yeah, Im just watching some tv" she says scrolling through.

"if you need anything just let me know" I say giving a light smile.

"i will, thank you" she says still looking at the tv. Her tone in her voice is just so dead. Like theres no happiness. No life. Just nothing.

I go into the kitchen to get myself a drink. Theres a picture of grandpa on the stove and I just loose it.

Tears fall down my face as I quietly sob while looking down.

I sniff and look up shaking my head lightly.

"i cant believe hes gone" i whisper while shaking my head.

"allison?" ethan says walking down the stairs. I quickly wipe my tears and clear my throat.

"hm yeah. whats up" I say turning around.

"you okay" he says walking up to me.

"yeah im fine" I say giving a fake smile. He stays quiet and just scans me.

"no your not. you were crying" he says. God does he know me so well.

"yeah but im fine. It was nothing" i say while my voice cracks.

"ally." he whispers holding my arms.

"dont. youll make me cry again" i say tearing up. He pulls me into a hug. Both just silently standing there while he pulls me closer and closer.

Im so damn glad i have him in my life because if i didnt. I dont know what I would. I dont know where i would be.

"Come on, lets go watch our movies" he says pulling me up the stairs. I turn all the lights off and we go upstairs.