"ethan why are we at your work" I say giggling.

"welll i thought we could play mini golf and just talk...plus we get in for free" he says giggling. I laugh.

We grab the clubs and two balls. He opens the door.

"thank you" I say as I walk through.

"so hows your day been so far" He asks.

"pretty good, how bout yours" i ask.

"same" He says as he puts the golfballs on the ground.

"ladys first" He says and I giggle.

"soo hows school" I ask.

"pretty boring, Im just ready for summer" He says.

"well at least you have two more days right" I ask.

"yeah but we have exams thoes two days" He says hitting the ball.

He misses.

"wow you suck" I say laughing.

"says the one who didnt make it either" He says giggling.

"how long have you worked here for?" i ask tilting my head and laughing.

"a year and my uncle owns the place so i pretty much my whole lifehahah" he says.

"you cant even make the ball in and youve worked/ been here your whole life"

"i dont bout you but that's pretty sad" I say giggling and hitting the ball.

"listenn, its hard" He says laughing. I laugh.

"oh im sure it is" I say giggling.

We continue to play. We talk about anything and everything. Lauging, making jokes, talking about andrea. Talking about family, us, just some good conversations.

"what time is it?" I ask. It was getting pretty dark.

"7:30" he says. I knod.

time really does fly when your with the person you love.

It feels like weve only been hanging out for 30 minuets when in reality weve been hanging out for 2 hours.

"you wanna go get some food?" he asks.

"yeah sure" I say smiling.

We go inside and put the golf clubs and golfballs up.

"see ya uncle mike" ethan says.

"Bye mr dolan" i say smiling.

"bye allison nice to see you again" He says smiling.

We get in his car and head somewhere to eat.

"sonic okay?" he asks.

"good to me" I say.

We jam to some music then we pull up.

"whatcha want" he asks.

"honestly im not hungry, maybe just a shake" i ask.

"two shakes please" ethan says to the waitress person.

"what are you up to tomorrow" he asks.

"probably nothing how bout you" I ask.

"nothing, you wanna come over and swim with me and gray, he's inviting his girlfriend" he says.

"since when does gray have a girlfriend" I say giggling.

"I didnt even know till yesterday" he says laughing. I laugh.

"But yeah im down" I say smiling.

"okay sweet" he says.

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We finish up at sonic and he takes me home. The whole ride there were jamming to tame impala and ocean alley. We are litteraly in love with them and there songs.

We actually saw ocean alley in concert. It was so much fun!

"Thanks for tonight, i had alot of fun" I say getting out of the car.

I walk over to his side of the car and he gets out. He grabs my hand and pulls me into a hug.

"me too. Ill see you tomorrow" He says smiling.

"Okay" I say squeezing him one more time before i let go.

He cups his hands around my cheeks like he always does. His hands are so big and soft. He gently rubs his thumb across my face and he scans all my features. He looks me back into the eyes and gives me a big smile.

"your such a goof" I say giggling.

"your goof" he says smiling.

"Yes you are" i say smiling.

He smiles and leans in and kisses me soft and slowly. God he makes me melt when he does this. Hes always so gently. Never rough. And it melts my heart. It litteraly gives me chills.

It pulls away and looks at me.

"I love you" I say smiling. He face lights up and he has the biggest smile on his face.

"I love you too allison" He says.

We hug one last time and then he gets in the car.

"please be safe and call me when you get home okay?" i say.

"yes maam" he says smiling and putting his seatbelt on.

I give him a quick peck.

"love youu" I say walking away.

"Love you more" He says. I smile while walking but he doesn't see.

God he makes me go crazy. It's ridiculous.

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"Ill be back later mom" I say grabbing my keys and walking out the door.

I was going over to Ethans to swim. Since he invited me.

I get in my car and drive over there. Listen to music and what not.

As I pull up theres a couple of cars here. I get out and head inside.

I walk towards the back and as im walking. I stop. The one thing I never thought I would see. Well I saw it.

A perfect clear image. Through the clear glass doors. The one person he told me not to worry about. The one person he said there was nothing going on.

The one person he told me he cut off.

That one person. Was there. Sitting so close to him. Resting her hand on his thigh. While they both laugh at whatever there talking about.

The girl he kissed at the football game that one year. That girl was right there. It was like they were the couple and I was the friend. Like I was invisible. Like I didnt matter to him anymore. Like I was just old news.

I feel a tear run down my cheek.

"Allison?" lisa says. I wipe my tears and turn around.

"oh um hey lisa" I say smiling.

"everything alright dear?" she says walking up.

"oh yeah i uh i forgot i had some stuff to do so im just gonna go" i say grabbing my stuff.

"Okay, Ill tell ethan you stopped by" she says.

"no its okay. ill let him know" I say giving a light smile and walking out.

"uh okay. bye hon" she says.

I get in my car and just break down. After everything ive told this kid. Everything ive done. He goes and breaks my heart.

I sit up off my stearig wheel and start the car.

I didnt even respond. I cant even look at him nor talk to him right now.

"andrea hey...quick question. I know its last minute but do you wanna go to la and stay with my grandparents for a couple weeks?" I ask.

"wow very last minute but ummm yess are you kidding" she says excited.

"great, start packing. Ill book some flights" I say smiling.

I rush home. I asked mom and she was cool

with it. I booked some flights for tonight.

I needed this. I had to get out of here. I know im probably running away but right now. Its for the best.

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Me and andrea were at the airport and we were now boarding.

"Im sooo excited" She says jumping and smiling. I give her a smile. But honestly it was fake.

She doesn't know about ethan yet and honestly i dont know how to tell her or even if i want to tell her.

We board and im at the window seat and shes right next to me.

We both have headphones in and the plane took off.

Looking out the window and just listening to music. Thinking about everything. Things I did wrong. Things I wish i didnt different. Things I wish I knew. Memories we had. Good ones. Some bad ones but most good. Its all i could think about.

Flashback*

"awhhh I want one" I say as we walk out of the puppy shop.

"Well get one when we move in together" He says pulling me close to him.

"oh so were moving in together" I say looking up at him and smile.

"Yes. Yes we are" He says leaning in.

"Sounds perfect" I whisper. Our lips inches apart. He smiles and then kisses me.

End of flashback*

Flashback*

"go go go go!" we both yell.

"YESSSSS WE WONNN" We say as we jump up. Our football team won.

"WERE GOING TO THE CHAMPIONSHIPSSS" i say jumping in his arms. I hear him laugh.

end of flashback*

Flashback*

"well you couldve told me that allison" he says getting angry.

"well i knew how you would react" I say.

"If this is something you want then you go for it" He says.

"But I dont wanna leave you. I want to be witj you" i say crying.

"im still gonna be here. Ill wait as long as I have to" He says coming up to me.

"go to that college and pursue thoes dreams. Ill still be here when you get back" He says kissing me.

end of flashback*

Were both 18 now. Were freshmen in college. Were On summer break. were dating.

But now i dont know what we are. Who we are. I did but now. I have no clue....