Today andrea and ethan are coming over. Mom said yes and Im actually really excited.

She was a bit confused cuz ethans coming over a guy right after jackson but honestly i dont care. Theres history with ethan. Jackson was just a big ass.

"when are you getting them?" mom asks.

"uhhhh righttt nowww" I say looking at my watch. It was already time for them to get out of school and I was hella excited.

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"hey love" i say to andrea as she gets in the car. She smiles.

"heyy"

I turn around and look at ethan. "hey" i say smiling. He smiles

"hey"

"how was school" I say driving off.

"boringg" andrea and ethan say in sync. I laugh.

They talk about there day and drama about jackson and how hes been acting and honestly i didnt even care. I didnt want to care. I didnt want to hear about it. I already felt bad as it is. Why? i have no idea.

"oh nice" I say staring at the road. I feel andrea look at me and i know she instantly knows i dont wanna talk about this.

"sooo what are we doing today" she asks.

"idk we can do whatever really" i say pulling into the driveway.

We all get out of the car and head inside.

"mommm" i yell and she walks out.

"hi Mrs Lee" ethan says smiling. My mom has a big smile on her face.

"ethan hun hii, how are you" she says hugging him.

"im good, how are you" he asks.

"im great...its been forever" she says giggling.

"yes maam" he says laughing.

"hows the family" she asks.

"there good there good" He says smiling. I grab his arm to pull him upstairs.

"allison let me talk" she says looking at me.

"mom" i mouth.

"let the family know I said hi...and have your mom text me. We should all have dinner together" she says.

"I will" he says smiling and walking backwards to the stairs.

we finally get upstairs to my room.

"sorry" i say to ethan

"its cool, i love your mom" he says smiling and giggling. I laugh.

"omg ally we should watch gossip girls...have you finished it" andrea asks.

"nopeee" i say handing her the remote.

all three of us lay on the bed on our stomachs facing the tv and honestly im not even watching the tv. The whole time im talking and messing around with ethan.

"how do you even do that" I say giggling.

"do what this?" he says as he cracks his thumb knuckles.

"yeahh, i cant do it" i say trying to crack them.

"here" he says grabbing my hand. He tries to crack them but nothing.

"see they wont crack" i say giggling.

"its cuz your weird" he says smiling.

"am not" i say laughing.

"whatever you sayy" he says laughing. andrea falls asleep and me and ethan just talk.

"soo howve you been" he asks.

"good hby" i say as we play thumb a war.

"ally" he says stopping. I look up at him.

"yes" i say looking at him.

"how have you really been" he asks. I sigh. Its been hard for me lately not gonna lie. With the whole jackson thing and not ethan. Im so confused. I dont know what im doing anymore.

"just confused thats all" i say giving him a light smile.

"bout what?" he asks totally confused.

"just some things" I say. He holds my hand and squeezes it.

"whatever it you can always talk to me about it you know that right?" he asks.

"yeah I know" I say giving a light smile. He gives a light smile back.

"Ughhh ally i have to go to practice now" andrea says getting up and looking at her phone.

"okay" I say getting up.

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"hey mom im taking andrea to practice then ethan home" I say grabbing my keys.

"ethan why dont you stay for dinner tonight" my mom asks. I look over at him.

"ahh im sorry mrs lee but i have a football meeting tonight..next time though" he says smiling.

"sounds good" she says smiling.

"dont forget to tell your mom to text me" she says as we walk out the door.

"i wont" e says.

A part of me was sad that ethan couldnt stay for dinner but another part of me was glad. I dont know why. Maybe this is just alot. I feel like i might be rushing things ya know?

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I drop andrea off at her practice and then ethan gets up front with me. I start changing the station and then leave it on country. One second later marry me by thomas rhett comes on. We both freeze and I smile knowing its the song he said he thinks about me when he hears it.

"I-" he says and i giggle and then turn it up.

"I loveee this song" I say smiling.

ethan and I were holding hands and litteraly singing our heads off to this song.

"ill wear my black suit my black tie!!"

"Ill do a strong shot of wiskey straight out the flaskkk" we both yell.

We move our hands up and down moving to the song and just jamming out.

"ill try to make it through without crying so nobodyyy seessss" we both sing. We laugh a little and then looks over at eachother smiling.

I liked this. Actually i loved it. Being in a car singing like no ones listening. Not giving a care in the world. Just me and him having a blast being us. with no one judging us.

This is what i miss. This is what i want. I want to be with someone who understands me. Who can have fun and not care what other people think. Someone who can let loose. Someone who can be thereself around me and not get scared of what i think.

Someone who will be just as crazy as i am. someones whos in love with me as much as im in love with him.

Thats what I want. Thats what I strive to have and I will have it and hopefully ill have it with him.

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"I had fun today" he says smiling.

"me too" I say smiling.

"text me when you get home?"

"yeah" i say giving a light smile. He leans in and slowly kisses me. When he pulls apart hes still close to me.

"be safe" he says in a whisper.

"always am" I whisper back. He kisses me one more time before getting out of the car.

I watch him as he goes in and just smile. today was a good day.