Today was a new day. March 1st actually. Starting into a new month. Me and jackson are hanging out today. Im picking him up from school today and were gonna head to my place and watch some movies.

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"yeah and then he got mad and just ignored me. I did nothing wrong" andrea says while standing outside the window from my car.

"he needs to get his shit together. Just talk to him" I say

"im trying but its hard when-"

"hey" jackson says getting in the car.

"hey" i say smiling at him.

"hey jackson" andrea says.

"oh hey" he says putting his seatbelt on.

"well ill let you go, just text me" andrea whispers to me.

"love youuu, dont let it get to you" I say as she walks away.

"Ill try not to" she says yelling back. I shake my head and laugh.

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"what do you wanna do today?" I ask walking into my room.

"Honestly im up for laying down and watching movies" he says plopping down on my bed. I giggle.

"sounds good to me" I say turning the tv on.

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"what shall we watch" I say sitting on the edge of the bed looking at the tv.

jackson wraps his arms around me.

"how about a scary movie" he suggests.

"ugh i hate scary movies" I say.

"cmonnn dont be a baby" he says lightly shaking me. I laugh.

"fine, but then were watching a happy movie" I say smiling.

"okay babe whatever you say" he says laughing.

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"awee there getting married" I say all cuddled up in jacksons arms.

We were watching trolls.

"we should get married" he suggests.

"you gotta ask me out first. cant jump right into it" i say giggling.

"well then will you go out with me" He says. I look up at him and scoot my head back to fully see his face.

"really?" I ask.

"yeah" he says.

"your being serious right?"

"yes allison im being serious" he says giggling.

"Okay" i say smiling.

"soo..."

"yeah I will" i say smiling.

"good" and then he leans in and kisses me. I smile.

Im hella happy right now.

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Ethan was my ex. Ex love. We dated in 7th grade all the way through 8th. We were so happy together. Did everything, laughed, make jokes, memories. Had fun together. Fell in love with eachother. I know what your thinking. in love? at 7th and 8th grade? its not real...

Imagination*

"im hungry how bout you?" ethan says while we float in the pool. I was on a raft and he rested himself on the side of it while his body was still in the pool.

"starvinggg, what did you have in mind" I say still tanning.

"wellll I could grill out some hamburgers, if your grandma has any" he says.

"Im sure she does" I say looking up at the sky.

"mmmmmkkk" he says getting up.

"mhmmmm" i say not even paying attention.

Next thing I know Im being flipped and im submerged in the pool.

"ETHANN!" I gasp as i come up from the water.

I see him laughing while getting out of the pool.

"cmon princess, lets eat" he says grabbing a towel and walking inside.

I shake my head and giggle while getting out. Hes such a brat but I love him....

End of imagination*

I believe it was. I still believe it is because i still get thoes butterflies everytime i see him in person. I smile everytime I hear his name being said. I smile when I hear that hes been talking about me. I smile when I hear his voice. I fall in love with the fact that hes still not over me.

8th grade was coming to an end and we weren't going to the same high school. We tried doing somewhat of a long distance but ended things in the summer because of it.

Imagination*

"ally, its not gonna work anymore. we wont be able to see eachother everyday." he says while were sitting on the couch.

"but we hang out every weekend" I say trying not to have tears fill my eyes.

"your to far away" his voice cracks. He looks down.

"ethan-"

"It dosent mean were over for good babe. We dont know what the future holds." he says grabbing my hand.

"I know" i say looking up at him. He has some tears in his eyes.

"your still mine you know that? your always gonna be mine" he says squeezing my hands.

"and you'll always be mine" I say.

I never thought it would hurt this bad to loose something. someone that you love so much.

End of imagination*

We still were in love with eachother and never lost feelings. He was my other half. My everything. I cried every night for two weeks knowing that we would never be together. That he would move on and be happy with someone else.

Through out 9th grade we got in touch with eachother. feelings were obviously still there. They never left. We saw eachother more and more and flirted and tried talking. We were gonna get back but things got in the way. Things with me. It didnt work. It broke not only his heart but mine because we couldnt be together.

We stopped talking. Didnt keep in touch. Andrea always tells me he talks about me in school. I would talk about him non stop but ever since im with jackson ive stoped.

Now that I found out about the songs it kills me inside. Knowing that he still loves me but im with another guy. Of course I still love him, I always will but Im with jackson now. I cant turn back now. It wouldnt be right. I dont wanna break up with jackson for something that may not even work in the future. I dont wanna ruin something that could be great.

So for now im just gonna have to ignore it. Try and forget about. Put all my focus on jackson. Thts all I can do really.

I give her a fake smile.

What am I doing?