3 months later

May 12, 2041

8: 36 p.m

Kaizer POV

I sat in the corner of my room dark cold room just thinking deep. The whole house was quiet and it was dark.

It's been 3 months later and I've been lonely for the past two. The day after I had hurt Dream again I decided to take her to the hospital.

A few days after she was released and shit was fine in my eyes. Then I went to sleep woke up and she was gone, her, Alaidria and King. She took my son and left.

I don't know where the fuck she is or where she went. Nobody will tell me and it irritated me.

I can't even call my son to make sure he straight. Or to just hear his voice, I just wanna see him smile. We were just starting to get our little bond back and now it's gone again.

Because he's always getting taken away from me. But I guess this one is on me. I think I over did my part.

I sighed getting up going in the kitchen. I turned on the light reaching above the cabinet getting that box.

Opening it I pulled out the small bag pouring out what was left. I was able to make five lines and I took a deep breath.

"Oh yeah you done lost yo rabbit ass mind." I was smacked continuously very hard in the back of my head.

"Ahhh! Ok that shit hurts!" I yelled seeing my daddy and he let me go.

"What da hell is wrong witchu?! This what you do?! Everyday?!" He yelled with tears running down his face.

"I made you cry?" I asked shocked, I don't think I've ever seen my daddy cry probably have but I don't remember.

"Yes you made me cry Josiah. Because what the fuck are you doing?" He asked and my nose started to bleed.

"I was just tryna feel better." I mumbled and he shook his head putting it down the drain.

"No! Fuck is you doing?!" I asked and he grabbed the other bags opening them and putting them down the drain to.

"You not finna keep doing dis shit. Not while I'm alive." He said.

"Why is you waisting my shit?! I spent my money on dat!" I yelled and he pushed me away.

"Kaizer yo mama in da hospital!" He yelled and I froze.

"Is she ok?" I asked.

"She had a miscarriage." He said and a tear rolled down my face.

"She been stressing so fuckin much. Crying non stop. Worried about the kids she has left. Biologically is 4! 4 fucking kids!" He yelled.

"I been trying for a long while to get her pregnant again cuz I want at least one more kid. Finally did it and here it go, gone." He said.

"And then god just told me, he told me to come check on you. And you in here finna sniff dis shit up?! Fuck is wrong with you?!" He asked.

"I'm sorry." I said and he walked away from me.

"Why y'all won't say nothing?! Talk! Y'all think people can read y'all minds, who do I look like?" He asked and I looked at him.

"Y'all have to tell me stuff for me to be able to help. Kaizer dat shit ain't gon help you. It's gon kill." He said.

"Good!" I yelled and he looked me in the eyes.

"I mean I'm all alone. Ain't nobody rocking wimme but you and mama. Don't nobody check on me. I can't see my son. I just wanna hear him laugh. If all I can do is hear his voice then ok. But I can't even do dat. I'm ALONE!" I yelled.

"Good." He said and I scrunched up my face.

"You need some time to yourself Kai. I mean look what you was finna do. You really think you need to be around King with that? You need to get yo mind together." He said.

"So you gon leave too?" I asked and he shook his head.

"You know what I don't even care if you do. I'm good. Imma buy me some more-"

"No you not Kai. I'm not going nowhere." He said and I went in the drawer pulling out a gun.

"Remember last time? When everybody shut me out so did you." I said as tears ran down my face.

"I did and I regret it, but Kai put that gun down." He said and I took it off safety.

"I know I did some fucked up shit, but when people do fucked up shit to me and I ain't did shit that fucks my head up." I said.

"I'm so different and only I understand me. Don't nobody know Kaizer like they think they do." I said putting the gun against my head.

"I'm just tired and I've tried not to do the suicide shit. I did good I think. But I just can't." I said and he started slowly walking over to me.

"Kaizer, you are correct. Nobody will understand you because they are not you. But are you really gon give up? Let whoever you fighting win? You gon give up Kai?" He asked.

"Kai think about King. That lil boy lemme tell you." He said with a chuckle.

"You might not see him or talk to him but that don't mean he don't wanna see or talk to you. He asks about you erery second of the day. Talm bout " I wanna go see my daddy" or " Take me to my daddy". He be wanting you Kai." He said making me smile.

"Think about how heartbroken he would be to know his daddy took his own life. Think about how that would break him, he smart ok. Can't fool the lil nigga. So just think about King for a second. Your first child, first son. Think about him." He said.

I thought about him just smiling remember when he was just a tiny baby. I remembered his little laugh and his cute lil smile. How smart he was. How much I loved him and didn't wanna hurt him.

I lowered the gun and my daddy took it from me. He pulled me into a tight hug and I sighed.

"I wish you would scare me like this again." He said and I chuckled.

"Please help me out, please I wanna get better. Please." I said.

"I gotchu Ight, but first..." He said letting me go and I looked at him.

"Where da rest of it?" He asked.

"That you put done the drain was it." I said and he hopped up on the counter.

"I won't leave until they all in that box." He said and I smacked my lips. I pulled out two bags from my pocket tossing them in the box.

"I said ALL." He said and I rolled my eyes getting some out the drawers putting them in there.

"Kaizer don't play wimme." He said and I huffed going and reaching in between the couch pulling out three.

"You is a fucking crack head dude. I ain't even tryna be funny." He said watching me.

"Dats it?" He asked and I nodded.

"Don't make me beat the fuck outta you." He said and going in my room I went in the bathroom getting the last ones.

"Now is that it?" He asked and I nodded putting them in the box.

"Who you get this shit from?" He asked and I shook my head.

"One of my brothers." I said and his eyes widened

"Which one?" He asked.

"Tay. I caught him one day and I remember he let me try it out. Then I started getting attached. I been doing this for a year maybe two." I said and he shook his head.

"Imma beat Tay ass." He said.

"Gimme dat box I'm finna go, I love you Imma come back." He said and i nodded handing him the box.

"I love you too." I said and he walked towards the door but stopped. He turned around to look at me.

"By the way Kai, they in Orlando Florida. I don't know the exact address." He said and I nodded then he left.

I sighed pulling out a small baggy with white powder. I had at least 2 more. I couldn't give him all of them. I just couldn't I'd go crazy without this shit.

I poured some on the counter making 3 lines. I took a deep breath sniffing them all. I shook my head before smiling.

"Better." I said.

"Now this was the last time." I mumbled before laughing. Pouring the rest of it out the bag I made 6 lines.

I sniffed them all before sighing. I brushed off the counter turning around seeing my dad standing there. The look on his face was a look of hurt and disappointment.

"How you gon ask me to help you when you obviously ain't tryna help yourself?" He asked and I sighed.

"I can't just stop d-"

"King." And that was the only and last thing he said before leaving out the house.

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