A/N:

Bam walking out of JYP, making his way to his car. Most likely on his way home after a long day of practice and whatnot.

"BamBam.. can you explain what possessed you to confess to her publicly" the reporter asks following him.

"What about the fight at the party? Was it because of Normani as well?"

"Are you secretly dating?"

"We're you guys hiding and using RM as a cover up"

"Don't you think your fans deserve to know?"

"What about your members?"

"Why'd you kiss her?"

Bam smirks, "it's not like it's the first time we kissed"

The reporters gasp in shock, taking in the information.

"Are you confirming that you and the female member of BTS have kissed before?"

Bam ignores the question approaching his car, he pulls out the keys giving the reports the opportunity to ask him one last question.

"is it true that Normani not only had been with NamJoon of BTS but also you as well"

Bam stops in this trails and faces the camera, "As I am speaking, I'm only confirming my feelings for her. She and I have a good friendship and a relationship unlike others. Despite her and the leader of BTS news of them breaking up three months ago just coming out... I never stopped having feelings for her"

"How long would you say you've had such feelings for Ms.Kordei?" The reporters asks.

"Before I left to go on my European Tour with the other members of GoT7" he says.

"T-that's within a 8 to 9 month period, before the news of the pair dating. Are you confirming that you and Kordei had relations before you left to go on tour"

"Like I said I am only confirming my feelings for her. You guys have a good day" Bam says quickly ending and shutting down the questions before getting into his car.

-

Lee presses the pause button on the news report of my love triangle that I was currently in.

You should see the headlines.

I let out the biggest sigh before tossing my head back, this entire situation was stressful.

Part of it wasn't even my fault, I never asked him to kiss me in front of everyone and certainly didn't tell him to confirm anything.

Him and his big mouth. If anything he just made so many things worst the way people are blowing up my socials.

"This is not looking good. Not looking good at all, Normani" Lee tells me stating the obvious.

"I know" I say softly.

He paces back and forth in front of me, as he was most likely thinking of a plan or idea to fix all of this.

There wasn't a way. The only thing that could make all of this go away, all of this from happening is the truth.

And that's what I told Lee.

"The truth?" He asks me.

I nod.

"Are you out of your mind? Fans don't want to know the truth. They want a lie, so make up a story or something"

"They deserve to know though" I tell him seriously.

"So what? You're going to open up and tell them that NamJoon called a break because he was uncertain of the relationship... how you always had feelings for Bam... and how you couldn't choose between the both of them?" He asks.

"Well when you put it like that" I trail off breaking eye contact with him.

He approaches me getting my attention, "I don't think you understand how serious this is, Normani" he explains.

"You don't think I know that? Every second I go online I either see my face about a break up or someone shipping me with a male idol. I know how serious this is, I don't want people thinking I'm some type of hoe when that's not the case" I tell him.

"Look.. I'll figure this out. But for now.. just lay low, and don't do anything that will drag attention. Stay of the media and stay out of trouble" he tells me.

I nod, "what about my interview for today?" I ask him remember I had an interview for the magazine I was head cover for.

"It's rescheduled. Instead of worrying about that, you need to go talk to NamJoon and your members quickly"

"Why?" I ask.

"Because things are going to get pretty ugly fast. Not only for you, but for your members as well" he explains.

Understandably. I won't be the only person to get hate from this. RM and the members will get it as well. He was right.

I needed to talk to them. All.

-

I placed the code into keypad and unlocked the door, I opened walking inside to loud house.

"Why were you even there!"

The fuck is going on.

"We aren't together! What I do does not certain you, lisa. Just go"

Oh shit. Did I just walk into a fight or something?

"Stop treating me like this" Lisa cries out.

"Like what?" The obvious voice of Joon asks. Typical him to act dumb during a fight.

"Like you I don't mean anything to you, I love you and you know that... why do you have to treat me so coldly?" Lisa cries, and the sound of her voice shakes me.

She was in love with someone who didn't love her back, and I felt bad.

"Go, before you embarrass yourself even more" Joon tells her.

"So what? All of sudden you remember someone else wants her and now you give a damn about her. Three months ago, you couldn't care less"

"You know that wasn't the case, the only reason we went on a break was because of you!" Joon raising his voice.

"I thought you said because you weren't ready for something serious" The voice of JungKook says.

"you didn't tell them did you?" Lisa asks causing me to listen to a conversation I probably shouldn't be listening too.

"Tell us what?" The voice of Jimin asks.

"Once a coward, always a coward. You're leader here only ended things with your member because I told him to do so" Lisa explains.

My heart dropped.

Wait. What?

"Tell them why, Joon" lisa says basically forcing an answer out of him.

My heart pounded listening to this.

"TELL THEM!" she yells at him.

"Because she was going to kill you self" he states confusing me.

"Normani?" Yoongi asks.

"No. Me idiot!" Lisa yells impulsively at them.

This didn't make sense. He said we need a break because she was going to kill herself if he didn't.

This entire time I hated him because i thought he— god, I'm so stupid. Maybe this was what he was trying to tell me...

He cared about her, so of course he was going to listen to her.

That little bitch. I take everything I thought earlier back. She doesn't deserve him. She deserved an ass whopping.

I put up with this girl for the longest it made no sense of how I never snapped.

"What?" Yoongi asks.

"You know she thinks you cheated on her right? That's the only reason she— Joon cuts Jin off.

"I know... but if she found out.. this was reason... she'd hate me even more for listening to her" he tells them all.

I don't hate you, Joon.

"It's only been about her... Why do you care so much about her. Tell me! Why can't you love me!" I hear lisa scream at him, it sounded as if she was hitting him.

Causing me to quickly walk into the living room, turning to see standing there was a red eye, crying Lisa who stood in front of RM, standing and also sitting around watching all of this happen was my members.

"W-why do you always to do this me! Why can't you see that I've been here this entire time. You keep hurting me. All I ever wanted was for you to love me... Love me like you love HER!" She shouts angrily.

Her as in me.

"Lisa, I think you need to cal— "SHUT UP, Jin!" She shouts.

"Lisa, you need to go. I won't say it again" Joon tells her. I watch from a distance as she approaches him slowly.

"No. Tell me what she has that I don't. Why don't you love me, like you love her. What's so special about her" lisa says sounding honestly so pathetic.

"TELL ME!" She shouts at him and he just snaps.

"There aren't enough words, Lisa. Words to describe the way I feel about her. You want to know why I don't love you, like I love Mani? It's because aren't her. You will never be her no matter how hard to try, or how long you want to wait for me. I choose her. I will always choose her. Especially over you" he tells me harshly.

My heart pounds furiously listening to how he was so passionately in love with me. Passionate about loving me.

"Y-you don't mean that— Joon cuts her off, "I do" he pauses.

He then approaches her slowly, his voice deeper, "you were very mistaken if you thought I ended things with her to be with you. I care about, lisa. But that does not mean I am in love with you" he finishes.

"Joonie, please" she says softly.

I watch as she reaches out to grab him and Joon stops her by holding her wrist.

"Enough" RM tells her.

She was about to say something when Yoongi cut her off, "Maya?" He asks bringing the attention towards me.

I cleared my throat, avoiding to make eye contact with Joon who let her go and turned to me.

"What are you doing here?" He asked me.

"I-I just came over to talk to you guys" I say.

I was about to say something but was cut off when Lisa speaks. "You, again?" She asks.

I sighed, trying to turn the other cheek and be as professional as I can about this.

"Lisa.. I understand you're hurting right now, but I think it's best if you just leave, okay" I tell her calmly.

"Don't tell me what do to! This is all your fault!" She raises her voice at me angrily.

Getting all of my members on ready, set, go.

The boys were no longer sitting, there were now standing as if they were waiting for something to happen.

"Lisa, don—Joon goes to grab her but lisa pulls away and faces me.

I motion Joon not to, just leave her be. Because deep down inside I knew this needed to happen.

I watch as she approaches me slowly, I stand my ground.

"you think because he loves you, your important? Your still that untalented girl who got lucky because of BTS" she says harshly sounding just like those bullies online.

"And you? You're pathetic" I state ignoring her words that weren't as harmful she wanted them to be.

"What did you just say to m— I cut her off, "you know... your as sad as they come. Honestly, I used to be jealous of you... but now... I just pity you" I start causing her to gasp.

FINISH HER!

"I mean seriously... Begging for him to love you, wondering what makes us different. I can tell right now. The shit you just did, I'd never... and this worst part about it... is after everything you did to take him away from me... it still didn't work, I bet you feel like clown now, don't you?" I finish.

I watch as she raises her hand to hit, noticing it Joon approaches her but it was too late. To stop. And as in stop, I mean me.

I held onto her wrist, breathing heavily trying to control myself.

"Let go" she tells me trying to yank her wrist out of my grip as I tightly held on to her.

I said classy before right?

"That is the second time you've tired to hit me... I don't think I can play nice anymore" I say.

Well, fuck that shit.

Without hesitation or fear, I slapped the fuck out of her, causing her to turn and the entire room get silent.

She gasps in shock, holding her cheek. I let out the deepest sigh, because you don't know how long I was holding that shit in for.

"Oh my god" I hear Taehyung say softly, as the members all look at me.

"You have no idea how long I was holding that in" I state preparing myself.

"You just hit me"

"Yeah, bitch. But don't worry I'm bout to do much worst" I began as I quickly tossing my bag to the ground.

I finish before launching towards her getting different reactions from my members.

I watch as Hoseok and Yoongi quickly grab a hold of Lisa and Joon grabs me.

"Come here, bitch!" I say reaching towards her as Joon held me back. I breathed heavily, struggling to get out of his Joon's grip.

"Mani.. calm down..." The words of my multiple members say trying to calm me, I ignore each and every single one of them.

The only thing i saw was RED.

The only thing in my mind was to BEAT THIS BITCHES ASS.

"No. LET ME GET AT HER!"

Lisa looked with not only fear but shock in her eyes but that didn't stop her from trying to get out of my members grip.

"you better be lucky they're holding me back" she says so bravely behind Hoseok back which made me snap.

"bitch, YOU BETTER BE LUCKY THEY HOLDING YOU BACK!" I raise my voice anger filled inside of me, my blood was boiling.

I couldn't even think straight. This bitch from day one had it out for me. For my relationship.

I hated her so much. I was angry to point where I could cry.

"I will beat the fuck out of you, bitch! DONT FUCKING PLAY WITH ME!" I shout losing my temper, I don't think I've ever been this mad before.

At least the boys never seen it. They seen me at my worst, no doubt. But this was something they've never seen before.

"Get her out of here!" Jin tells joon, who without hesitation tossed me over his shoulder.

"LET ME GO!" I shout banging on his back.

Put me down so I can put this bitch up.

Moments later, I was tossed down onto a bed, and door closed. I quickly got up, climbing out of the bed and walking towards the door breathing heavily.

"move" I tell him so seriously.

"Mani, calm down"

"You do not get to tell me to calm down! MOVE" I tell him once more.

"Mani... just breathe"

"NamJoon, I swear to god if you don't move out of my way" I say breathing heavily.

"I know your upset"

"Upset? No, Joon. I am furious... I can't believe .. you let that bitch... get inside of your head.... she was the reason you called a break? She was the reason? That fucking delusional bitch?" I ask breathing heavily.

The thought of all of this happening just because he believed his ex was going to kill herself was overwhelming.

This all could have been prevented. Meaning we didn't have to break up and I didn't have to go drinking and sleep with Bam.

None of this would have happened if he told me or told her no.

"I know... okay. You have every right to be mad... to hate me. Okay. If there's anyone here you should be trying to hit it's me. It's not your fault" he tells me.

"YES IT IS"

I was no longer trying to beat lisa ass anymore. Instead the reality of everything came crashing in.

"Mani— I cut him off, "it's my fault, Joon. Because I didn't listen to you. I didn't give you the chance to explain... I was hurt... because I- I thought... and then I slept with him, Joon. I— did that to us" I say holding back tears.

"I know"

"It's my fault!" I raise my voice at him pushing him, mad because this could all have been avoided.

"It's okay" he tells me trying to calm me down but get me worked up even more.

"Okay? It's not okay!" I shout pushing him once more.

"You call this okay? We can't have a normal conversation the way we used too... I can't go a day without people on the internet reminding we were together. Reminding me that I still love you. I go out and act as if us breaking up didn't effect me... that I'm not pain" I say.

"It's not okay.. we're not okay... I'm not okay" I yell pushing him harder, those fast and hard pushes became into a soft and slow pushes, as tears formed in my eyes.

"We're not okay" i hit his chest slowly.

What the hell have I done? Honestly. I go to hit him again, and he grabs me wrist looking at me, "I'm sorry" he tells me.

Me too.

I break down, as he held on to me. He pulled me into his embrace, holding me tightly as I held him back.

Feeling him hold me, as I cry my heart out was everything. A part me was crying because of everything that happened, everything that was going to happen.

but the other part was crying because I blamed him for the end of our relationship when the truth was it was my fault.

I'm so stubborn and hardhead.

He breaks the hug by lifting my head causing me to look at him.

"It's okay, mani. I don't blame you. I forgive you, okay. Everything can go back to how they used to be" he tells me caressing my cheek.

I slowly pull away from him, "that's the thing, Joon. Because of my stubbornness, I... I hurt you... trying to not get hurt. Y-you may forgive me, but I can't forgive myself" I tell him honestly.