A/N:

"Did y'all see the way he looked at her?"

"nope, I'm calling it. There is still something going on between these too.. NamJoon didn't even hesitate to protect her even if that meant getting covered in eggs himself"

"Normani can't catch a break, can she?"

"Let me meet those bitter hoes that did that to N in real life"

"They way he lifted her and carried her off the stage because she was in shock"

"There still together, there no way they've been broken up"

"He protected her... there so goals"

"I hope I get someone to love me as much as Namjoon loves Normani"

"Look at the way he glares at the girls before running to her"

"I would have literally sucked his **** backstage just to thank him for not making me feel so embarrassed"

"Whatever is going on between these two they need to work it out. They are sending everyone mixed emotions. One day they want each other and the next they don't. One day he's starting fights, and the next he saving her"

"I got a real question, who allowed the girls to bring eggs into the arena. You think she was gonna give the boys them as a gift?"

"I can't.. my heart. They are so perfect for each other"

"You noticed how Normani couldn't look anywhere but up at him"

-

I sighed in annoyance, watching the television. There were news and articles about yesterday everywhere in Korea.

"the singer was carried off stage by her ex boyfriend"

"Fans have even made gifs, of NamJoon jumping in front of Normani"

"Despite the pair breaking up, him protecting her sends mixed signals. Fans demanding the truth between there relationship and wanting to know if they really are over"

"Why do you like to stress yourself?" Lee asks snatching the remote out of my hand and turning the television off.

"I'm not- I j— it's not like I can escape it anyway. Everywhere I turn it's reporter trying to get the latest scope into my life" I say honestly.

"And that's what happen when's your Korea's it Girl" Lee tells me.

It girl?

I roll my eyes at his comment, which was a lame way to even try to make me smile.

I have been in the media to many times this week. Well, past couple of weeks. With me coming back to Korea, to breaking up with RM. To my performance with Hyuna, where people assume I'm gay. Then only for Joon to start a fight about me, and then to getting egged.

What a week, right?

"It girl?"

"Yes, it girl. Everyone is either talking about you. Wanting to meet you. Or wanting to be you" he tells me.

I don't know why.

This was the most stressed I've ever been, so many things are happening, and yet I didn't know how to react or act.

I need to get busy. Go work.

"What's on my schedule for this afternoon?" I asked before looking at my ringing phone.

He pulls out his iPad before looking up at me, "2:40, you have a photoshoot with Lay for promotional photos for your movie. Then at 7:00, you are set to arrive at the SBS with EunWoo's manager says he can't make it because he caught a cold.. so your going to show up with Bam. That will also create a lot of buzz" he tells me.

I nod, "aren't you gonna answer that?" Lee asks me causing me to look at my phone that displayed the name Joon.

"no"

"It could be important" he tells me.

"If it's important he'll call again" I say nonchalant, I knew there was a reason he was calling, I just didn't want to know what it was.

"He did. For the past five times. Why don't you just talk to him?" He asking me.

Why? Was he leaving underneath a rock?

"Because I don't have anything to say to him, I— I trailed off watching as he picks up the phone and answers it.

My eyes quickly enlarged, "YAH!" I whisper standing up reaching for the phone.

"yes. No, this is her manager. Yes, it's tonight. No. Is she busy?" He asks answering the questions Joon probably was asking.

"I'm not here" I whisper waving my hands.

"Yes, unfortunately... she is busy, RM but I can happily leave a message" he says causing me to let out a breathe of relief.

He then looks up and the faces the door, "wait? Your downstairs?" Lee asks causing me to look at him.

He then pulls the away from his ear and turns to me, "he wants to speak to you" he tells me.

I sigh grabbing the phone, and placing it to my ear. "Hello?" I answer.

"Come down to the lobby or else I'm coming up" he states and I could hear the anger and demand in his voice.

But you know me.

"No. Who the hell do you thi— he cuts me off, "I won't tell you again" he says before ending the call causing my mouth to drop.

I pull the phone away from my ear, "what happened?" Lee asks.

"Nothing. I'll be back" I tell him quickly before placing a mask over my face, and pulling my hoodie over my head.

I walked towards the door sliding my slippers on before walking out the room. After getting on the elevator and taking it to the lobby the doors finally opened.

I slowly walked out cautiously making sure no one recognized me. Standing in a distance was Joon who wore a baseball cap and mask as well.

I know what you're thinking, if he was covered how could I recognize him. Well to be honest, I knew his tall built ass from anywhere.

Or you weren't thinking that at all.

But still.

I swallowed hard before approaching him, he turns facing me. His eyes not leaving mine, "what was so important that you couldn't tell my manager but instead forced me to come down?" I asked seriously getting to the point.

"We need to talk"

Okay. That's why I came down here for? About what. And why when you ask me that it sounds like its something important.

"Okay. So talk" I tell him.

He looks around cautiously, "but not here" he tells me going to grab my arm when I stopped him by pulling away.

He looks at me. "Why not? There's no one even here" I tell him looking around to see probably a few people.

There was a family checking out, there was an old man reading his book in the seating area, and then there was a woman going to the pool.

That's it and I could promise him none of them were worried about us. They probably didn't even know who are.

"Because" he trails.

"Because what, Joon?" I ask him seriously wanting an answer but it just sounded like he was playing games just so I could go with him.

"Could you just trust me?"

"Trust? You? Yeah, right" I say laughing hysterically.

"Funny" he says sarcastically.

I smirked tilting my head, "if whatever you have to tell me isn't important, I'm going to go back to my room now" I tell him getting ready to turn around.

He sighs softly before stating the words which caused me to stop in my footsteps.

"Don't go to him"

I slowly turn facing him, "what?" I ask wanting him to be specific.

"Bam" he pauses looking at me.

"Whenever we get into argument or hate each other for a moment don't go to him... don't ever go to him" he says causing me to look in confusion.

Is that what he had to tell me?

"Who I run too when your not around isn't any of your business anymore" I tell him seriously.

"I know you believe that but I still haven't let you go, and I don't plan to" he tells me.

Here he goes again, I roll my eyes, "Joon, are you tired of this? Can't we just be fri— he cuts me off.

"no. We can't. No.. I will never be tired of loving you, Mani. I refuse to let you give up on me. On us. On this"

"But I have... why do you keep doing this. Just let it be, okay" I tell him

"I can't. We're aren't over. I know there is a part of you that is still in love with me"

"No there isn't"

Yes. There is. She's still here. She's fighting. Trying. Pretending as if she doesn't want too.

But we aren't good. Not for each other. I think we were meant to make someone else happy. Not each other.

"Mani— he voice trailed off when I felt vibration in my pocket. I pulled out my phone and the words displayed on the phone was Bam.

I look up at Joon who looks at me, I didn't want too but I needed to show Joon that it was over.

I answered the phone and placed it to my hear making sure Joon was watching and hearing my loud and clear.

"Hello?" Bam answers.

"Bam?" I ask making and not breaking eye contact with Joon.

"hey, mani. I was wondering what time was the awards tonight, so I know when to pick you up"

I look up at Joon who stared me down, my voice and hand shaking as there was a part of me that didn't want to do to this.

"7:00... the awards is 7"

"Oh okay. I'll pick you up at 6, since it's takes a few to get there" he tells me.

"You're picking me? Oh okay. I'll be ready" I say.

"See you" he says before hanging up. I pull the phone away from my ear and look at Joon.

"See?" I ask him.

"What was that supposed to prove?" He asks as if it wasn't clear.

"That we are done. So please stop before either one of us gets hurt even more" I tell him seriously.

I watch as he was about to say something when I stopped him.

"I should go. Lee's probably worried" I lie finding a quick way to end this conversation.

I turn around and walk away from him. There was a part me that wanted to stop, to turn around and tell him I was sorry for sleeping with Bam. That I won't run to him. That if he's fighting that I'll fight too.

But that part of me, was now... dead. That part of was me no longer needed love to survive. So I kept walking and I didn't stop because I'd stopped and turned around and ignored myself, I would have been in him arms.

And we both know I wasn't strong enough to tell him that I didn't love him anymore when the truth is I never stopped.

-

"wow, there sure a lot of actresses and actors here that I've only seen on my television screen" Bam says looking out the window causing me to slightly smile at his comment.

I played with my fingers as the limo slowly came to a stop. My heart pounded furiously, I wasn't even performing or anything.

"Nervous?" He asks causing me to look up at him.

"Extremely" I confess playing it off with a smile. "This is no different from being on stage" he tells me trying to calm me.

"Yeah but there's so many people here, better actresses and more professional actres— he cuts me off by grabbing my hand.

I look up to him slowly, "if you feel nervous or like you can't breathe.. all you have to do this. Hold my hand and I'll help you" he tells me causing me to swallow and nod.

"Okay?" He asks causing me to nod slowly. I inhaled and exhaled deeply as it was time for us to get out the car.

Bam exits first and fans scream as reporters and paparazzi took his picture. Mainly confused on why a rapper who wasn't an actor showed up to a acting award event.

Bam reaches his hand out, and I slowly grabbed it, he tightly held my hand helping me out the car.

Fans screamed louder, and paparazzi quickly surrounded both bam and I taking our picture together.

I smiled as I held onto bam, who helped me position myself so I wouldn't fall. We followed one of the PD's to the red carpet.

I stood next to bam as flashes flickered on and off nonstop, thousands of pictures being taken of bam and I.

Lee was right, him showing up with me would be a hot topic.

"BAMMANI"

"OVER HERE!"

"Kiss him on the check"

"ARE YOU TWO CONFIRMING THE DATING RUMORS?"

"Are you guys dating?"

"NORMANI"

"GIVE US LEG"

"HOW ARE YOU"

"Can you explain the incident that happened yesterday?"

Bam and I ignore the reporters near the paparazzi as we took the pictures. Bam turns down looking at me smiling, I look up at him smiling back.

"are you guys confirming your relationship together? Please fans want to know? Bam.. how do you feel about Normani? Are you two dating?" One reporter asks loudly causing everyone to want to know the answer.

"If I have to be honest bam and I are j— i was cut off by a familiar voice in a distance.

"No! They aren't dating"

God. Please. Don't. I swallowed hard watching as the flickering flashes turned to a direction behind me.

Fans screamed loudly and I hear a gasp come out from Bam's mouth with just caused me to turn around.

Walking towards me was NamJoon wearing a white suit and tie which happened to be the color of my dress.

We looked like newlyweds.

What the hell is he doing here? I forced a smile to hide my anger right now, god my blood was boiling.

Paparazzi snapped dozens of photos as Joon approached Bam and I. I breathed heavily, standing in between the both of them.

Not sure how to react to this.

"Sorry, I'm late" Joon says to me. Before looking up and eying bam, bam glares at him.

"What are you doing here?" Bam asks.

"Taking back what's mine"

"She isn't property" Bam tells him.

"She mine if I say she is"

"guys.. people are watching" I say through my teeth smiling hardly, looking around at the paparazzi and reporters.

"Thank you for making sure she got here safely, you can go now" Joon tells him.

"Guys" I say as the cameras were on us.

"I'm sorry, mani" bam says.

Causing me to turn and look at him in confusion. Why is he apologizing?

"I've stayed quiet for the longest, before and after you guys got to together. I never fought back, I've always let you have her. I don't think I can do that anymore... so again, mani. I'm sorry" Bam says.

Before I could ask for what, my question was answered when he pulled me away from Joon and towards him, and smashes his lips into mine.