Normani's Twitter Post

"I'm feeling sexy, wanna hear you say my name... boy"

"The girl everyone is talking about... what is popping Normani?" The interviewer asks smiling widely.

"You know what it is" I say smiling back.

"Wow. I mean I am sitting in front of a legend in the making. I mean this girl is so talented, it's insane" she compliments causing me to smile.

"Thank you"

"Ever since you returned from your sold out American tour, you have been no stopped talked about. I mean everyone was a little worried that you took a break from BTS, to go on your tour but you came back popping"

"Yah. I know"

"Since your single "Motivation" charting high at number one, you've been booked and busy. With your highly anticipated film coming out at the end of this year. Your second album everyone is dying to know about coming out in the beginning of next year. With your appearance of Jimmy Fallon and Ellen in a couple of weeks... and don't even get me started on your performance last night" she says causing me to nod and smile.

"Can see show a clip of that.. please" she says to PD as I turned to the screen in front of us and it displayed my performance.

There I was doing my break dance, to the part where Hyuna came out and then the tease kiss.

"Three words, OH MY GOD" she says excitedly causing me to smile.

"Can you please explain to me what possessed you to team up with Hyuna and snatch everyone's wig like that, please?" The interviewer asks me causing me to smile.

I was now promoting myself, you know staying booked and busy as usual.

"You know I just wanted something different then what everyone's seen me do. Because of my skin color, I'm already categorized as that black girl... or the black girl. And you know... I just wanted to embrace by letting everyone one its like ok to be different. Because other artists are like... school girl, crush... you know.. and thats where Hyuna and I come in... because her performances are always sexy.. like.. people know her as queen of sexiness. Besides I always wanted to collaborate with her, she's such an amazing artist. She's so kind. She's so sweet. She's completely different from being on and off stage" I explain.

"Like you right?"

"I'm sorry?" I ask not understanding her question.

"You and Hyuna are very alike if you think about it. When you guys are off stage... your personality is different... your sweet, kind and so humble like you have this very shy type of girl personality but on stage you guys have that... "I'm that bitch" attitude and that's why I feel like fans love you guys. That's why I personally love you and your music. Especially you guys performing together last night" she says.

I nod understanding.

"but I do what to know what did that performance symbolize. You know performing with the members of BTS, they always have a meaning to their performance.. What was your performance relating to?" She asks.

"I wouldn't say it symbolizes anything, more like... represent or stand for... you know the whole meaning of female embodiment. Like us woman... the power we have... the things we are capable off.. we're total badasses. The way we handle things and cope with different situations... I wanted the audience to know despite the news that just came out... I don't need a man... bitch I am the man" I say sassily knowing that probably be a meme later on.

"Before we get onto that topic... Some would say that your performance was a changed your style. Would you agree with that?"

"Performance wise.. career wise.. however you wanna take it... I've always been me. It just took a lot of time to come out if that make sense. Like when I first joined the group... I always had to adapt to the group style, or you know.. change myself for others to like me, and I just felt like with everything happening.. that needed to change. And with my performance with Hyuna I feel like it did" I explain seriously.

Which was true.

For the longest I've always did something that wouldn't make me look like an outsider because I was one.

I was placed inside a box and I was try not to get out of it, but yesterday having my first solo performance... that changed.

"so what im hearing is after your amazing performance with Hyuna, you two have a collab coming soon?" She asks trying to get an answer out of me.

"I don't know. maybe. But what I can tell you is, for my upcoming album there's going to be more features, then there is solos"

"Features... can you give us a name or two?" She asks.

"Uh— I don't want to give anything a way but I will say one thing... all of my features are members or even former members from groups. Whether that be boy or girl bands" I smirk.

"Okay. Okay. Let's talk about your movie with lay. It set to release at the end of this year. I mean how excited are you?" She asks.

"Excited isn't even the word. This movie is really something I really cherish, Ive worked so hard on it.. and it's funny because I remember just starting off from a small Netflix and now I'm the main character in a movie... and you at this point to me... I really wouldn't care if the box office did good or not... because it's something that isn't about business... it's about me enjoying the people I'm surrounded by. So I just want people to appreciate the meaning, and the art of the film" I explain.

"God. I love this girl so much, and despite everything you've been through you still remain humble and like— god.. you're amazing" she tells me causing me to smile.

"Thank you"

"so... Now the question everyone is asking and wondering is why? What happened. I mean did you guys really already been broken up for 3 months?"

The question I wish I wasn't asked everyday any chance given. But my fans deserve to know, and it was best if I just be open about everything.

I let out a deep sigh knowing the question was coming.

"Yes. I won't get too into detail but... Joon and I came to an agreement that we wouldn't announce us being broken up until we both were ready" I explain.

"What was the reason for you guys... to have the break up?"

"Uh— you know... I think was a matter of us being a away from each other a lot. Which was the hardest part because I love him a lot and the boys too... There were times were the boys were allowed to have a break maybe for a day or two and I couldn't because I was busy with filming or another solo activity... and then when I did get the chance too you.. know have a break... they couldn't.. so it was a back and forth time of thing were it was lack of communication and different schedules" I explain the best way I would when I should have just said RM is a coward and I'm a bitch that can't make up his own mind.

"So it wasn't like anyone getting between you too that caused your break up? Like an ex or maybe another person?"

Yes.

Me.

I knew there was something wrong in our relationship and instead of asking or trying to fix it, I ran.

I basically let this happen.

I let out a soft laugh, "no. Nothing at all like that. Despite us breaking up, I still have love for him, I always will... and fortunately for us.. it's like nothing's changed because we are in group together, we live together and we're friends before any of the relationship happened sooo" I lie out of my ass.

Painting the good narrative for him. Why would I always do that. First the whole break up with Camila leaving 5h, I should have told the media how evil that girl was but instead I turned the other check.

Now with this.

What I should have said was, "Joon wasn't mine to being with. He was fake dating his ex. yes Lisa from BlackPink, for whatever reason because she lied... and I was confused on whether I wanted him or not because I thought I have feelings for Bam from GoT7 and when we did go out... he called the break... while I was on tour.. Literally about to go on stage in front of my fans. I cried my eyes for a good ten minutes before the show started... I have to toughen the fuck up because my fans were counting on me. So three months later I show up back in korea and I find out that I was leaving BTS, and he's playing tag with his ex in our dorm. He accused me of something I didn't even know, and when the situation was confronted I ended it between us because I was angry and I was hurt. So We broke up and to conclude he's a peice of shit. But it's okay, Because I am too. I had sex with Bam the same night I broke up with Joon. So that answers your question for you"

But I didn't.

A few questions later, the interview was over meaning it finally was time for me to go back to the hotel and get ready for the party I was invited to by Lay.

It was a get together party where artists from the big 3 companies come to together. SM. JYP. YG.

Despite being managed by BigHit, I still wanted to go, besides I was friends with members of them.

Like EXO. GOT7. I would say BlackPink but I only like three of them.

"so you're just going to go? Without even informing me" Joon says as I have him on speaker phone as I was getting dress.

I let out a laugh, "inform on what exactly? It's not like I need your permission to go where I want to go. Besides I was invited" I tell him fixing my lip gloss that I applied in the mirror.

"By who? Bam?" He asks causing me to sigh.

"Who invited me is none of your concern"

"We are a group, Normani" he say.

"I think you misunderstood. I was Normani before joining BTS and I am Normani afterwards" I tell him.

"You don't think I know that. You've been making decisions without us— without me. If you go out without us, what would people start to think" he asks.

"Where I go.. what I do... who I'm with isn't anyone else's business but mine. People are going to think whatever they want to think" I tell him before putting baby oil on my legs.

"They think you're leaving the group and if you show up at this party without us.. it will cause more people to think that"

"Why do you care if I leave the group or not? You didn't believe me when I told you I wasn't anyway" I spat.

"That isn't fair"

"No what's not fair is me coming home expecting you to hold me... hug me.. at least pretend to miss me.. to want to talk about our break but instead you were hooking up with your ex" I hear my voice raising.

"I didn't hook up with her, okay"

"I don't care if you did or didn't. She was there! In our dorm! When I wasn't! Meaning she was there when I went on tour. She was there when I was calling you, and she was the reason you never PICKED UP!" I yell at the phone.

"We were on a break!" He raises his voice back.

"YOU WERE ON A BREAK RM. I never agreed to that shit, I said okay like a dumbass because I didn't want to fight. I didn't want to fight while being in another country. But it wouldn't have mattered anyway because we broke up, right. So now you can see whoever you want and I can see who I want" I tell him.

"Which is what? Bam?" He asks bringing him up and causing me to snap.

"Yes" I say boldly.

There was a silent pause meaning he was shocked. He probably didn't believe I say it.

"Yes. There I said it. So you can go be with Lisa and I can finally be with Bam"

He sighs heavily meaning he was tired of arguing and I wasn't here for caring.

"Can we have a decent conversation without yelling at each other?" He asks calmly as I breath heavily.

I was about to say something when there was a sudden knock on my door meaning it was time to go.

"look, I gotta go. I'll come by later so we can just talk, okay?" I say.

"yeah"

The call ended causing me to sigh, I grab my phone and my purse off the dresser before giving myself a quick look in the mirror.

I forced a smile to ignore the fact that I was just screaming on the phone.

-

I approached the front doors of the loud party, the two security guards opened the door allowing me to walk inside.

I nodded thanking him, slowly walking into the club like party. I enter and it was like everyone slowly had turned to me.

Werid how fast I got used to it. Being the only black girl in a room wasn't the most scariest thing anymore.

I walk into the room smiling looking around for a familiar face, and there I saw standing next to Sehun was Lay who was already looking at me.

Surprisedly next to them was Jackson and Bam.

I smiled passing familiar looking artists making my way to there area. Before I could even make over there, a few tall familiar faces stood in front of me.

"Anno— i was about to introduce myself when I was stopped— "we know who you are, Normani. No need for formality" one says causing me to smile and nod.

"We've heard so much about you from Jimin" Onew says placing out his hand for me to shake.

"I hope all good" I say shaking his hand.

"Oh sorry.. you probably don't know who we are... I'm Minho. That's Taemin. Key and Onew" the members of Shinee introduced themselves causing me to bow and greet them.

"Don't know— If I didn't know who you guys are I would be living underneath a rock... you guys are like Kings in Kpop" I compliment them.

"Does that make you the queen?" Minho asks causing me to let out a sigh laugh. I shake my head, "trust me.. I'm no where near— I was cut off.

"trust us, you are. Your performance yesterday was on of the best performances I've seen in a long time" Key says causing me to smile and nod.

"And your song... Motivation" Onew adds.

"Oh please.. it's nothing like... replay.. replay.. replay" I say singing and doing the dance movements causing them to smile and chuckle.

I immediately stopped when I realized people were looking at me. "Oh god. That was embarrassing, wasn't it!? I'm sorry" I say apologizing quickly trying to silent my laugh that wanted to come out.

"No. No. You were cute. I mean it was cute. The mo— I'm gonna stop talking now" Taemin rambles.

I laugh.

"So I heard you are collaborating with a legend for your next single" Onew says.

"you know?" I ask my eyes widen.

"Yeah. Him and I go way back" Onew explains causing his members to look at him in confusion.

"Who?" Key asks.

"That's a secret between Normani and I" he says smiling at me.

Wasn't that much of a secret if he knew, how did he know I was doing a song with ...

It was supposed to be surprise because he hasn't been active since his group disbanded which was like 2015... 2016... I don't even remember.

All I know he went into the military, and came back, and chose me to do a song with for his comeback this year.

"So where's your boys? Minho asks changing the conversation.