Normani's POV

"rolling... camera... action!" The director yelled meaning the scene was starting. I recited my lines in my head as I laid in the fake hospital bed.

I slowly opened my eyes making it look natural as if I just had woken up. I looked around as I remembered the script telling me to do so.

I sat up looking across from me to see Cha Eun Woo.

"hey? excuse me? Are you okay?" He asks me as they lines he was supposed to say.

I look at him confusedly, "y-you can see me?" I ask him.

"yes... I think anyone with eyes can see you" he says. I began to touch myself all over my body, I get quickly as the script told me to do so.

"no. No. No. Th-this can't be happening. You're not supposed to see me. I- I can't be here" I say getting up quickly looking for the black note when I accidentally slipped which wasn't in the script.

Eun Woo caught me before I hit the ground.

"You alright?" He asks pulling me up which isn't from the script, and I have yet to hear a cut from the director meaning I should keep going.

I push him away from me wiping off my blouse, "god, all of you humans are clingy, aren't yah?" I say walking to the bed to find the book.

"Humans?" Cha Eun Woo asks in confusion as the camera panels to him, as my back was facing the camera.

"And cut!" The director said trying to hold back his laughter.

"Sorry" I say bust out laughing, also causing the staff members to laugh as well.

"No.. that was good improvisation from both of you. Keep up the good work" the director tells us.

Eun Woo, approached me laughing, "oh my god... if I would fell that would've been so embarrassing" I laugh.

"That's why I have good reflexes and you don't" he smirks causing me to roll my eyes.

"Yeah.. yeah" I say.

"Here" he says holding a bottle of water for me.

"Thanks" I say taking it.

"are you going to the SBS awards next week?" He asks making conversation.

"I don't know... but I think I'm actually nominated for best rookie artist or something?"

"Yeah, for your film with Jay Park" he tells me letting me know I was right.

"Maybe"

"Well if you decide to go, my representatives want us to go together to create like buzz for our web-series, and also you benefit for it with your movie coming out soon" he explains.

"Alright. I'll let you know by next week" I say as Lee approached me.

"Okay"

After a long day of shooting I was finally able to relax by myself, which I haven't been able to do in a while.

I sat in the backseat of the car as the driver was driving me to my hotel room. Until things died down a little, I've decided to just say there instead of the dorm for a couple of days.

After news got out of RM and I breaking up, the public have not stepped off my neck. Wanting answers, needing to know what happened between us, and the worst part about it was I couldn't even tell the truth.

I was told that it was best to make it seem like we were both the good guys such as saying, "oh... you know people fall in out of love" or "distance was something neither or us could do".

I was brought out my thoughts when I got incoming call from Lay.

"hello?"

I answered the phone, "hey.. I heard the news.. are you okay?" He asks.

I sigh knowing he'd probably ask me that, "I'm fine, lay" I say as looking out the window.

"I-i just asking because— I cut him off, "because of the news.. yes. I've see it. It's pretty hard not too, everyone everywhere is talking about him and I breaking up" I say.

"If I knew letting you go talk to him was going to cause that to happened, I wouldn't have— I cut him off again, "it's better this way, you know. This way I could focus on me, and he could focus on him" I say.

Which was true. Despite all of the bad things that happened because of the relationship, there could still be good.

Joon and I could just go back to how we used to be. Like... just friends. Nothing more or less. We could focus on the group, and that's it.

"you plan on coming tonight award show?" He asks changing the conversation.

"MGA?" I asked him.

"That's the one"

"I'm performing.. but I don't know about my members. I doubt there even attending", I explain.

"I wasn't asking about them, I was asking about you. I know your apart of BTS, but just because they don't come, does not mean you don't have too. Besides your nominated, remember??" He reminds me.

"Yeah, I know"

"This way... you could show the world that your the same person you were before and after your break up" he tells me.

"If I decide to go or not has nothing to do with my break up or not"

"You know people won't think that" he tells me.

"and you know people will think what ever they want to think when it comes to someone else's business" I tell him.

"I'm not telling you to come to distract yourself from everything that's happening, I'm telling you to come because the world deserves see a different side of Normani Kordei. Not BTS member. Not ex of RM. just Normani... Kordei" he says.

I sigh listening to his wise advice.

"Plus EXO will be there" he says as if that made me want to show up or something.

-

I inhaled and exhaled deeply, as I sat in the car pool line. "Before your solo performance tonight, you're going to be announcing the song of they year with Vernon from the korean boy group seventeen" Lee told me.

Lee, my new manager, so far he wasn't messing up and as been doing better then Brandon has.

I nod softly looking the window to hear what felt like thousands of fans screaming and cheering for their fav celebrities.

I had to be at least the last celebrity to even show up, there was no cars expect for this one in the car line.

I already knew my members were going to be here, but I was told a late arrival would be the way to get the buzz, and also to let people know that RM and I break up wasn't effecting anything.

The car came to a stop meaning it was time. I adjusted my heel, before the door opened. I slowly stepped out with all eyes one me.

Fans screaming my name, flashes, lights... videos, and pictures begin taken of me and I hadn't even stepped onto the red carpet yet.

I stood there smiling softly at the cameras, before walking towards the red carpet. I stepped onto the red carpet and immediately was spotted.

"NORMANI"

"SWEETIE TO THE LEFT"

"SHOW ME LEG"

"YES"

"GIVE IT"

"FABULOUS"

"POST BREAK UP"

"YOUR SO BEAUTIFUL"

I strutted down the red carpet like a model, looking back at the camera. I exited the red carpet walking into the large arena, I scanned the room looking at the celebrities sitting down and the screaming audience behind them.

"N-nORMANI!" A fan screamed loudly causing everyone to turn and look at me as the fans got louder.

I put on my bitch strutting face, and I began to walk, remembering Lee telling me I was assigned to sit with my members.

I walked past seated artists, as I made my way to my seat. I looked out to see my members sitting there looking at me.

They looked shocked, more over confused because they probably thought I wasn't coming.

Yoongi was emotionless as usual, Jimin and Jin were smirking looking over to Joon. JungKook and Taehyung were no longer fighting over the last water bottle. Hoseok smiled.

Joon himself mouth was widen, and eyes enlarged looking at i strutted to my seat.

Before I could reach my seat, someone caught my eye causing me to turn and see Lay standing up next his EXO members.

I smiled softly knowing I was being watched, I walked towards him, as his members stood up as I approached them.

"Your entrance has to be one of the most amazing entrances I've seen and you aren't even on stage yet" Sehun says.

"Stop flirting with her" D.O tells his younger member causing me to slightly smile.

"What? She's single now" he argued causing all of them to look at me.

"Single? You're single now?" Chanyeol asks the question I bet they all wanted to ex. All expect for Lay because he already knew.

I'm guessing they don't read the news anymore, I mean everyone knows about my breakup.

I nod softly, "w-what happened to... you know" Kai says before looking back and up at the table BTS were sitting at.

Joon himself was looking pretty hard this way.

"Let's just say he couldn't handle me" I smirk softly.

"I'm sure no one can" Lay says.

"I can" Sehun blurts our causing his members to look at him.

I turn facing Lay as he leans down and speaks to me.

"you came"

"You told me too, remember?" I ask.

"I can't wait to see your performance"

"I hope you enjoy it" I tell him.

"You coming to the after party?"

"Only if you're taking me" I smile causing him to laugh and nod.

The conversation ended allowing me to walk towards my seat. I walked up the stairs, passing girl group GFriend and Twice, who all stood up and bowed to greet me.

I smiled approaching my members.

screams intensified when RM got up pulling out my chair for me to sit. I smiled, sitting down.

He also caused a lot of reaction by taking off his jacket and placing it over my bare legs. He sits down, and leans into my ear whispering.

"I know you've seen the news, we should talk"

He pulls away smiling knowing we were being watched. I look at our members who were looking at us, "about?" I say gritting my teeth.

He reaches his arm out and places it behind me causing the fans to scream and artists to look at us.

I sigh turning to him, "what do you think your doing?" I ask him seriously.

"you won't talk to me, so I'll make you talk to me" he says.

"This isn't the way to make me talk to you, if anything your making me want to not talk to you"

"Mani— I cut him off, "don't call me that", I tell him.

"You're upset?" He asks.

"In order for me to upset there would have to a be problem or issue that made me upset and there isn't" I tell him.

"You think I slept with Lisa, don't you?" He asked upsetting me more. He better be lucky we're in this arena.

"I don't care if you slept with lisa or not. We were on a break. The same break you wanted and now, we are broken up so you can see whoever you want and I'll do the same" I tell him.

"Like BamBam" he spats causing me to turn and look at him seriously.

Does he know?

I was about to say something when I was cut off, "can you two knock it off please" Jin says causing me to turn away from Joon.

About 52 minutes into the show, it was finally time for me to announce the award and get ready for my performance.

"Vernon?" I ask approaching him, he smiles looking at me.

"annyeong" I say softly causing him to let out a slight chuckle.

"I'm normani" I introduced myself. He bows, "Vernon" he says calmly.

"Im pretty everyone know who you are, I mean I do.. but that's only because I'm a big fan" he says.

"Oh thank you. It's pretty much the boys who do all the work though" I say giving them credit.

"Not of BTS. I mean I am, but I love your music more" he confesses.

"Really?" I ask making conversation.

"Honest. My favorite song from your album is Monies" he tells me causing me to smile.

"well, I really love Manse and Pretty U" I confess as well.

He chuckles at my comment and was about to respond when we were called on stage. Vernon motioned for me to go up the stairs first and I nod thanking him going up the stairs.

An intro song for us played, Adios by EverGlow, the audience screamed when both him and I walked onto the stage.

Vernon and I waved at the fans near us as we walk to the center of the stage. Our faces on the big screen, as we held the results to the winner of the artist of the year.

The song faded as we approached the mic.

"How are you guys feeling tonight?" Vernon starts in the mic causing the audience to scream.

"Tonight we have a lot talented artists lined up to perform and show their talent to the world" I say as I read off the screen.

"such as yourself, I mean did you guys see her perform in her music video Motivation. I think it gave me some motivation to dance better, am I right?" Vernon says causing the crowd to both scream and laugh at his comment.

I smile softly, "speaking of performers, these nominees show what it takes to be one of the very best. With the looks, the talent, and the personality, they have what it takes" I say turning to Vernon whose supposed to finish my sentence.

"Here are the nominees for Artist of The Year"

Moments later, Vernon passed me the envelope that held the winner.

"And now the daseng winner for artist of the year is....." I pause opening the envelope.

"BTS" Vernon says before I can mainly because I was shocked, I didn't think it was possible for someone to be win so many daseng awards, I think the total they have now, it 25.

The audience claps and screams, as Boy With Luv plays. I smile as Vernon congratulates me, handing me the award.

I nod thanking him. I was overcame with joy and also shock.

I wait and watch as my members join me on stage. After they arrive on stage, I stood in between JungKook and NamJoon who were smiling, excited about another achievement.

Jin walks up the mic, "Ah" he starts sounding as if he was clearing his throat.

Oh god. I already know what he was going to do.

"Ah!! ARRRMMMMMMYYYYY!" He shouts causing the audience to scream loudly also causing The members including myself to laugh, I watch as Tae walks up to the mic.

"Wow.. th-this is amazing. I want to take our fans because without you guys... there wouldn't be a BTS. Without any of you, we wouldn't be up here on this stage, today" Taehyung says causing them to scream.

Jimin turns me motioning for me to go up on to the mic and say something causing them all to turn to me.

Joon turns to me, allowing me to get in front of him. I smile into the mic.

"This means the world... to us you guys. To me. Using winning this award means you believe in us. All of us. And I'm so thankful for all of you" I start trying to fight back tears.

"Over the year, there were many hard times you know.... not just for me but for every member standing on this stage, next to me. So many events being take taken place and for some it didn't matter because we felt is that we have so many people around us. Encouraging us, believing in us. So I want to thank you guys for always being there for us, no matter what" I pause.

"And despite everything that has been going on I want each and every single one of you guys to know that... we are BTS, and nothing will ever change that. Thank you" I say ending it short to avoid crying.

I walk back in the line with the members as NamJoon looks at me before going up to the mic.

"like mani said... this year has been amazing but also very scary... with so much happening, things moving so fast that we weren't able to understand... and we even talked about disbanding... and our future... and members leaving the group... and I'm happy we chose to stay together.. and believe in ourselves. I just want to thank my members for allowing me to lead such an amazing group, and thank you to our fans for always making us want to be better. Thank you" Joon says walking away from the mic.

After accepting our award, I headed backstage to get ready for my solo performance. Y'all won't believe the tricks I pulled up my sleeves.

Tonight was going to be iconic.

-

I held onto the pole on the stage lift as my dancers stood lined up with me, with my mic attach to my ear, allowing my hands to be free. Just like I wanted.

"It's a cold and crazy world that's ragin' outside. Well baby me and all my girls are bringin' on the fire. Show a little leg, gotta shimmy your chest. It's a life, it's a style, it's a need, it's Burlesque"

The lights down low, only to see been on five spots on the stage.