Joon's POV

I watch as Normani walks pass me and out the door and for some odd reason I felt like that would be the last time I ever see her.

The door closes, leaving the guys and I.

"what did you say to her?" Yoongi asks approaching me. I look up at them all, "what should've been said months ago, after we found out" I said harshly.

"We said that we'd ask her about that together, why'd did you have to confront her like that?" Hoseok asks me.

"How long were we gonna wait?" I ask them.

"Until we were ready. But instead you decide to take matters into your own hands like you always do" Jin says angrily towards me like it was my fault.

"I'm the leader"

"I've think you misunderstood, you are only a leader for the group but not for us" Jin raises his voice having a point.

"Woah. Woah. Just calm down" JungKook tells us. I sigh, trying to control my anger.

"It still doesn't make sense, even if what you were told was true, it doesn't add up" Jimin starts.

"Now she thinks we don't trust her— I cut Jin off.

"We don't. I don't because she lied, you guys. Why can't you all see that. She's been lying, not just to us but to me. She knew about her position but didn't tell us" I say.

"And if she didn't" Taehyung says sitting in the corner causing all of us to turn and look at him.

"What?" I froze for a second grasping reality.

"What if she didn't lie because she didn't know. What if she didn't know that her position was temporary... that she was leaving the group... if Brandon didn't tell her yet... what if she didn't know and we just... did that. what do you think that makes us?" He asks standing up.

I looked around in silence realizing what he said.

"Of course she does, I mean— she has too, right?" I ask and they all turn and look at me.

"Wait.. are you telling me she didn't even say that it was true? You just accused her?" Yoongi asks.

"Well..." I pause not knowing how to answer because it unfortunately was true.

"God, we're such dicks" JungKook finally speaks causing us to look at him.

"She just got back from tour expecting us to be excited to see her. Instead she finds her boyfriend playing tag with his ex, and is called a lair for something she probably had nothing to do about." He adds and his tone was much deeper.

"Are you suggesti— he cuts Hoseok off, "I'm not suggesting anything. Its normani, you guys. She may be stubborn and hardheaded but she wouldn't do that to us. She loves us. More so... him" JungKook says having a point.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply, meaning... I just... said that... out of anger... and she... oh my god.

Yoongi sighs; "who even told you that information anyway?" He asks causing all them to look at me.

Because it was me who was informed about normani using us, and leaving the group.

"Brandon, himself"

"Okay, but did you even ask her? Or did you start jumping to the conclusion before even getting her output?" One asked causing me to sigh in frustration.

No.

"you know Hyung, I always thought you were the smartest one in the group... but you proved to me that not only are you stupid, you are dumb" Taehyung spat seriously before walking away.

"She wasn't leaving the group before, but because of you she probably will now" Jin says before walking away as well.

Holy shit.

-

Normani's POV

"I don't... want.. to think about his stupid face" I say swallowing another shot of soju.

"Mani, you got to stop drinking. We-were in public" Bam reminds me.

"Public? Yea... worst mistake I made... letting the world now I dated that douche bag" I say pointing the distance.

BamBam sighs taking the bottle out of my hand causing me to look at his doubled head.

"I think you've had enough to drink" he tells me, and like that I became an emotional wreck.

Tears started to form again, this was like the forth time I was crying today. The way it was different from how I usually cried.

My heart felt heavier, and my body & mind felt just as weak. There wasn't enough words to describe the pain I was feeling.

I loved him and yet I didn't know why. Crazy right. I had been so worried about my relationship with this boy, and there wasn't even a relationship to begin with.

From the beginning it's been Lisa and RM, and it's going to end that way. I was so stupid to even think him and I could actually—

It's funny if I look back now... my night on tour while everyone was either how partying or something.., I was practicing.. trying to keep my mind off of the fact that I had missed him.

"God.. I'm so sorry. Im a mess" I apologize for bringing him into this.

"No. No. Y-your fine"

"It's like I'm using y— he cuts me off, "but you aren't. We were friends before you and Joon started to go out" he tells me.

You know now of this is my fault. It's Joon.

He is the one who wanted a break and I didn't even question it. I let him have it because he probably wanted time to think but no he wanted time to go be with lisa.

"Normani" Bam's voice called me out my thoughts causing me to look up at him. My head was pounding, and my chest felt closed in like I couldn't breathe.

He stood in front of me, "come on, let me take you home" he says reaching to grab my hand when I stopped him by grabbing his wrist.

"I-I don't want to go home, Bam" I say tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Okay" he says softly.

I slowly stand up and feel my knees go weak causing me to crash into him, he carefully holds me up.

I look up at him, "your making it really hard for me to control myself...I'm trying but I can't if you keep acting like this" he tells me.

I realize we were way to close to each other, the liquor in me was telling to not give any fucks about Joon and just move on.

Letting me know he was trying is hardest not to kiss me or touch me, knowing we were one, in public and two.. I was drunk.

"what if I don't want you too?" I ask him seriously. I know this was a horrible way to distract myself, to not think about Joon but it was probably the only thing that would make me feel good.

God, I'm a horrible person, aren't I.

"What?" He asks.

"let go" I tell him softly.

He looks around knowing we're in public and someone could see us.

"Normani.. I don't think you know what your ask— I cut him, "I want you to make me forget... loving him" I say seriously.

"are you— I cut him off, "please" I beg him looking up at him.

I woke up to the sound of a alarm clock going off. I raised my hand, reaching out for my phone on the nightstand to turn the alarm off, when I realized it wasn't mine.

I heard groaning near me, and seconds later the alarm went off causing me to turn and see Bam laying down in bed next to me.

My heart dropped and froze, I slowly took a glance underneath the sheets to realize I was fully naked.

My eyes turned to my clothes that had been tossed to the floor. I notice BamBam slowly waking up, I began to breath heavily.

He looks up at me and I look down at him. It took me a good ten seconds to realize I had sex. With Bam. Last night. In his bed.

Holy Shit.

"AH!" I screamed loudly trying to crawl out of bed. "What?" I hear him ask at the same time.

I climbed out of his bed holding the sheets up to cover my body, pointing to the bed as he looked back and forth, from the bed and back at me.

"Did we— he cuts himself off pointing to the bed. I suddenly find a pounding sensation in my head causing me to sigh in pain.

"Yes.... n-now turn around" I tell him seriously reaching down to quickly put back on my clothes which was stupid because he's obviously already seen me naked.

He turns around allowing me to reach out and place on my underwear and shorts quickly.

"Why was I even naked in your bed, Bam?" I ask him, trying to hook my bra.

"I could ask you the same thing"

"You- you were supposed to take me home" I tell him.

"You told me not too"

"I was drunk!" I raise my voice at him as I fasten the strap.

"So was I" he tells me causing me to sigh.

Okay. No ones at fault here. We both got really drunk last night and we both used to have feelings for each other so of course something like this would happen.

It's common right?

Before I could even say anything we were cut off when the door opens, "what happened we heard screaming" a familiar voice says causing me to look up at see JB and Jackson looking into the room.

To see me. Standing there barely clothed.

"Oh- my— JB cut himself off quickly turning around along with Jackson.

"Sorry— we thought- I cut him off, "god! G-get out already!" Bam shouts at his older members.

They close the door leaving Bam and I. I quickly placed on my shirt, reaching for my phone because to put in my pocket when I got a notification.

24 missed calls from Joon

16 messages from Brandon

342k tweets using my name

I click on the twitter notification app, opening it and there it was. A picture of me and Bam yesterday.

I stood in his arms with his jacket around me, looking up at him. The words,

Fans in the comments were going crazy. Some even questions if Bam and I were really friends or not.

God. I needed to get this situation situated. And not me sleeping with Bam, but me leaving Bts.

Let's make one thing clear I wasn't leaving shit, regardless of Brandon decided to listen or not.

"You see it too?" Bam asks bringing me out my thoughts causing me to look up and see him on his phone as well.

My eyes enlarged.

I lock my phone and place into my back pocket, "I-I gotta go, but I'll see you later" I say quickly walking out his room.

Opening the door standing there was his members who were pretending not to be listening at the door.

They all stood awkwardly looking at me. I avoided eye contact with all them.

"I'm sorry" I apologize bowing as I walk past them.

"Mani, wait.. what about your bags?" Bam asks remembering most of my items were in his room.

"I'll come back later, I have to go to the company"

"I'll pick you up" he tells me.

I nod.

-

I basically run out of the elevator, down the hallway, I turned the corner and quickly opened the door where the meeting was being help.

I was late. I opened the door and everyone turned looking at me. My heart pounded throughout my chest as I looked up to see the members of BTS sitting there.

"nice for you to join us, Kordei" Bang says causing me to bow apologetically.

My eyes glance over to Brandon who scolded me but who had been saving me a seat. I quickly walked out the empty seat with eyes on me.

"So where were we?" Bang says continuing talking. I look up and my eyes met Joon's, and I wish it didn't.

"what happened to you last night? Where did you go?" He whispers.

I sigh ignoring him turning to Brandon, facing bang.

"We all know that the contract renewal is due by the end of this year. There's a lot of things to thing of when renewing the contract. Your career, your fans and each other" Bang starts.

And I could already tell the members were looking at me.

"A lot of you already have started pursing solo careers. Yoongi with your second Ep coming out, Taehyung your acting, Hoseok with your album, Joon with your collaborations with western artists and Mani with your countless activities because you do everything" he finishes looking at all us.

"Is there anyone here that wasn't want to renew the contract?" He asks the most important question.

They all look at each other avoiding me, and to break silent... Brandon raises his hand causing me to look at him.

He stands up, "when normani first joined the group... my intention for her wasn't to stay... it was only a temporary position. She didn't know... when ever she was away, I was doing anything I could to make sure she leave this group. I even talked about her leaving BigHit and going back to America" he starts.

"What?" I ask anger displayed in my voice.

"As your manager I just wanted what was best for you" he explains turning to me.

"My manager doesn't decide what's best for me, Brandon. I do"

"You're right" he tells me as if I didn't know.

I sigh in frustration, "but that was all before I realized how much this group impacted on her life. These seven boys are mani's world. There would be days were she would call and ask me why they were doing but they were too busy to— I cut him off, "why'd you tell them I was leaving?" I asked him seriously.

He turns to me, "I just thought you'd want to go back home. You know— his voice faded off as I went into my thoughts.

For longest I've been holding back, not speaking up, playing nice. Well done being nice. I am Normani Fucking Kordei. A force to be reckoned with.

I am that bitch and the world will know of it.

I cut him off, "I'm not. I don't. The only way I'm leaving BTS is if I get kicked out. So yes, I am renewing my contract. No, I'm not leaving the group. No, I'm not going back to America. I'm staying here. And you, Brandon... you're fired" I say sassily before getting up.

They all turned looking at me, Brandon stood there shocked.

"Normani, we also need to address the situation with Joon and you. Fans are beginning to think you two have broken up because you ha— I cut bang off turning directly facing joon who had already been looking at me.

"We did" I say.

Joon stands up, "no we didn't, we were on a break. Remember" he tells me.

"Your right. But we just did now" I tell him basically saying that we broke up.

"Wait.. are you confirming that you and Joon are no longer together?" Bang asks as Joon shakes his head at me.

"Yes. The leader of BTS and I are no longer together. In fact, we've been broken up for three months. If you guys don't excuse me... I have to go find myself a new manager" I say before walking out the room.

I walk to the elevator with footsteps followed behind me, I pressed the button and surprisingly the doors opened fast.

I entered the elevator, pressing the door close button and Joon stepped him causing me to sigh.

"You can't be serious" he says as the door close, I pressed the lobby button.

I ignore him, just pretending as if he wasn't there. He then gets my attention by grabbing my arm to turn me to face him.

"What do you want?" I ask him in annoyance.

"What the hell was that? Why did you tell Bang that we broke up?" He asks causing me to look at him profoundly.

"Uh— I don't know, maybe because WE DID" I say snatching my arm out of his grip.

"No we didn't. We were on a break"

"YOU WERE ON A BREAK! I thought we were in relationship, for three months. On my tour I was miserable, I didn't go out... I stayed in my hotel room waiting for you to call... to tell me that we were okay" I say and oh god here comes the water works.

"If this is about yesterday... I'm sorry okay. Im sorry for not trusting you— I cut him off, "you think we broke up because of yesterday?" I asked him.

He remained silent.

"We broke up when you said you wanted a break, It just to me three months later to finally understand"

"Mani— I cut off, "don't call me that. From now on... I'm no longer your ex or the girl you love. From now on, I'm a member of the group" I tell him seriously.

The door opens allowing him and I to walk out, he follows me. I notice how the other members were getting off on the other elevator.

I walk towards the front doors, "so that's it, huh. You're just going to give up on us?" He asks making it seem like I planed this or this was my fault.

"I didn't give up, RM. you did.. you gave up when you wanted a break. All that talk about waiting for me was a lie"

At least Bam wasn't lying.

"Just give her some time" I hear Yoongi tell Joon as we walk out the door. Joon wouldn't listen, my eyes scan the parking lot for Bam.

"Where were you last night?" He asks causing me to turn and face him.

"What the hell did you just ask me?"

"I asked where'd you go after leaving the dorm, yesterday?" He says boldly.

"None of your damn business. In fact I don't have to explain anything... to any of you guys... you don't trust me anyway... so" I say at all them now.

"Mani, you know that isn't true" Jimin says.

"Oh really? Did you guys believe me when I said I didn't know about my position? Or-or did you guys just jump to conclusions, and already thought the worst of me" I say.

I was pissed off now that I think about it. Not just at Joon but at the members as well.

"Mani— I was about to say something to cut them off when a car pulled up next to us. I turned looking out to see Bam driving this expensive ass sports car.

"You want to know where I was last night? I was with him" I say spatting at joon.

I walk towards the door, "Mani, if you get in the car... we're finished" Joon tells me.

There was a part of me that wanted not to, to turn around and let Joon hug me. But that part was dead to me, along with her feelings.

"You don't get to tell me we're finished when I already I said that we're finished"

I opened the door and got into the car, I placed on my seat belt and Bam drove off. He turns to me, "you okay?" He asks me.

"im Sorry" I tell him.

"For what?"

"For not believing you... when you said he'd hurt me"