Normani's POV

I swallowed hard, holding my suitcase and duffel bag before approaching the keypad lock to unlock the door.

I put in the digits, and the door unlocked, I slowly opened the door entering the very once familiar house.

I hear laughter in the living room, "I swore I locked the door" a familiar voice of Hoseok says.

"well go check it out"

"I wasn't the last person in the door"

"Jimin"

"I'm eating"

"fine, I'll do it"

I slightly smiled listening to these idiots argue about who was going to check the door or not. I placed my duffle bag down and along with my suitcase.

I took off my sneakers hearing footsteps approach me. I took off my jacket looking up to see JungKook.

His eyes widen, mouth dropping looking at me.

"oh my god!" He says loudly approaching me with open arms.

I hugged him tightly as he held me, "w-what are you doing here?" He asks.

I live here, remember?

"What happened, what are you oh my goding about?" Yoongi says approaching us.

"hey" I smile.

His expression told me something was up, watching how he approached me and kept looking in the hallway where RM's room was.

"I thought Brandon said you weren't going to be staying here anymore" JungKook states.

Yoongi nudged JK who causes me to look confused, "what? Why would he say that?" I asked wanting to know the answer.

"Mani, you shouldn't really be here... right now. Come back in a couple of hours" Yoongi tells me as if he was warning me.

"Why? What's going on with you guys?" I asked walking past them two and into the living room to greet the other guys.

"How nice, a party and I wasn't even invited" I say announcing myself that I was here. Jimin and Taehyung turned to me, they all sat there in shock.

Everyone was here expect RM.

"Well don't all come hug me at once, I did not just come back from a three month tour" I say sarcastically.

"W-what are you doing here?" Jin asks looking over at Yoongi who stood behind me.

"Why do you guys keep asking me that? Am I not allowed to live here?" I ask them all.

Before Hoseok could answer I hear a familiar voice, "give it back!" I hear a giggling voice causing all of us to turn and see Lisa chasing RM who held something of hers.

I froze standing in this completely weird and confusing situation. Lisa turns facing me as she then looks up to RM, who himself as yet to turn around and look at me.

"what's wrong, why is everyone so sile— he cut himself off turning around to see me standing there.

"hey" I say softly. His eyes search mine looking at me, "h-hi" he stutters. I chew the inside of my lip to calm myself, maybe I was misunderstanding a situation.

Maybe this wasn't real. Maybe it was a prank.

"What are you doing here?" He asks me.

"I-I... uh... came to talk to you" I tell him.

"Okay, talk" he says bluntly.

"In private" I tell him.

He looks around and then turns to Lisa, "I'll be right back" he says and I'm just shocked by all of this most of all.

I walk past Yoongi and JungKook going outside to talk to RM. The door shuts and I turn and face him.

"So what's up?" He asks so nonchalant.

"What's up? What the hell is she doing in there?" I asked him.

"Why does it matter?" He asks me.

"What?"

"Why does it matter if lisa is in the dorm or not. You weren't there" he states and I cannot believe my eyes.

"So just because we're on a break does that mean we could hook up with who we want?" I ask him seriously.

He sighs, "I didn't hook up with her" he tells me.

"So what are you using her to make me mad or something? Because it's working. I'm pissed off"

"You have no room to talk about using people" he says confusing me.

"What?" I asked him.

"There you go again pretending as if you don't know what's going on"

"I literally got back from a three month tour, I haven't spoken to you since I left, and I came here to see everyone confused on why I'm back and you around your ex, so I don't know what's going on" I explain to him.

He looks around to avoid my eye contact, "stop with the victimizing yourself" he says and his words were very hurtful.

I was honestly so confused.

"Joon, just talk to me" I say reaching for him and he pulls away quickly.

"Don't call me that" he says and it was like my heart was breaking. Why was he acting like this? Was it something I did? Or said?

"Then please tell me whats going on"

"What's going on is that you lied to me, Mani. You lied to all of us" he explains. I search his eyes looking for an answer, but it wasn't there.

He sighs, "you knew your position in our group was only temporary, so you used us to get your career starting, and you couldn't even tell me" he says.

Used them?

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"I'm talking about you knowing that your contract with BigHit Entertainment was ending, that you were going to be leaving the group and didn't think of telling us" He says.

"Wh- my contract isn't ending, Joon. I- he cuts me off by raising his voice, "enough with the lying!" He says scaring me causing me to look up at him.

Tears began to form in my eyes; "how can you say that, that I used you guys— I... do you know how hard it was for me to make it... without hearing people say what you just said?" I asked him.

He stays silent, "even if all you said was true does that give you the right to hook up with your ex while still being with me?" I asked him.

"I didn't hook up with her!" He raises his voice.

"But you left me! For her!" I shout pausing trying to calm down. "It didn't take long for you to say were on a break and then end up with her, did it?" I ask him.

He remained quiet causing me to go off more, "do you know how hard it's been for me... being away from you guys.. away from you. There are nights where I can't sleep because I miss you guys so much... there were some days were I wanted to say fuck it and come back here but I couldn't because my fans were counting on me" I pause tears streaming down my cheeks.

"There have been so many people that have been trying to tear us apart and instead of fighting... you... I can't even... That talk about us... focusing on ourselves was bullshit... if you wanted to break up that's all you had to say" I explain to him.

He realizes him acting like this was hurting me, "mani— I cut him off, "you wanted a break... congratulations, you won't ever have to worry about me again" I tell him seriously walking past him.

I enter the house again, quickly trying to avoid conversation. "Normani?" Yoongi asks me as he notices I was rushing to put on my shoes.

"Did you guys think that as well? That I- I was using you all?" I ask him seriously wanting an answer.

He hesitates and that right there already gave me my answer.

I nod trying to fight back more tears that wanted to come out, "we just thought— I cut Jimin off, trying to tie my laces quickly.

"It wouldn't have mattered if I told the truth or not... you all still wouldn't believe me" I state standing up and grabbing my duffle bag.

They all avoid making eye contact with me, the emotions i was feeling right now was different. I actually didn't know how to feel.

A part of me wanted to be mad, another part wanted to cry, at this point I was worried about my career, I was more worried about my relationship. With both Joon and The guys.

But the fact that they thought I would use them.. baffles me.

"You guys have a nice night" I say grabbing my things, and walking out the door, I shut up standing there was Lisa.

She smiles at me smirking, "looks like the truth will always come out sooner or later"

I ignore her comment and walk away from the dorm, rolling my suitcase case and holding onto my baffle bag.

I pulled out my phone and dialed my drivers number.

-

I ranged the door bell and waited for the door to answered. My eyes were red and puffy, I was cold and tired, and I promise I never planned on letting this happen.

Or letting it get like this. To point where I had to do something like this.

The door opens and look up to see him standing there. I swallowed hard trying to build up courage to say the words I planned on saying.

"BamBam, I— he cuts me off, "he hurt you, didn't he?" He asks, and like that tears started coming in again.

I broke down in front of him, "When i told you that I'd wait for, I wasn't lying" he explains.

I let out a sigh, "come" he says pulling me into a hug and embracing me.