"why can't be like that? wish we could be like that. Cuz I'm yours"

I laid comfortably on Joon's chest as we were watching "The Notebook" together. Joon has told me for the longest how he always wanted to watch that movie with me.

And look us. Were do that.

Well not really me. While he was watching tv, I was watching him.

I guess I had missed him so much that instead of wanting to go out with him, my perfect ideal of a day with him is laying in his arms and just watching him.

Weird right.

He chuckled softly before looking down at me, "you know your making it hard for me to watch the movie. Your staring. Again". he tells me bringing me out my thoughts.

"I was? Sorry" I pout looking away. He turns my head back to him causing me to look at him again.

He rubs his thumb swiftly across my lip, whilst caressing my cheek causing me to bit my lip.

"What's wrong?" He asked before pausing the movie. I sat up slowly, shaking my head.

"Nothing. I just missed you" I say.

He sits up more, arching his eyebrow, "but your right next to me" he asked causing me to let out a slight laugh.

"Crazy right? I miss you even when I'm next to you" I say.

"Well us FaceTiming isn't going to be forever, okay. Like you said earlier it may get harder but as long as we trust each other, communicate... well be fine" he says.

I nod.

"Now come here and let me kiss you" he says pulling my arm. I rolled my eyes acting as if I didn't want him kissing me.

He pulled me towards him, causing me to climb into his lap. My lips kissing his as his hands rested on my waist as mine play throughout his hair.

I parted the kiss, looking down at him as he looked up at me. We both breathed heavily looking at each other.

I couldn't help but smile.

"What?" He asked eyes searching mine unsure why I was so giggly at a moment like this. I shook my head.

"I jus— I don't want this to end. This moment." I tell him.

"It doesn't have too" he says voice is low and sexy. I swallowed hard as I feel his hands no longer support me on top of him.

They found there way to my hoodie, he then helped as I took off my top. He stared at my half covered body in amazement as if he's never seen it before.

He then grabs my neck pulling me into his kiss, and I couldn't help but kiss back again.

Things got heated. Quickly. I was straddled over him, but I couldn't help but feel myself get wet.

His hands were know touching my ass fully. I slowly spread my legs causing me to go down into his lap further.

I was now on top of him. He parts from the kiss breathing heavily as I feel him stiffening underneath me. He parts from me, tossing his head back, as I began rocking back and forth causing his breathing to get heavier.

He then holds on to me, before flipping us over causing me to gasp. Before I knew it, he was now on top of me.

"God, I love you" he says before kissing me. He then began trailing his way to my pants, causing me to stop him.

I breath heavily already panting, "w-we can't. What if the boys hears us?" I asked him.

"Well i guess you better be quiet" he tells me before making his way back down.

Moments later, I was arching my back and my eyes were rolled back. I was shaking, and craving him more then anything.

God I missed this.

I missed him.

-

"Mani! You're going to miss it if you don't come now" Taehyung shout at me as I was in the kitchen pouring myself some cereal to eat.

All the boys expect for Joon were gathered around in the living room to watch Joon's interview he was having without the boys to promote "Map Of The Soul".

"I'm coming" I say grabbing a spoon off the drying mat and rushing into the living room holding my bowl making sure it didn't spill.

JungKook removed himself off the couch allowing me to sit, I sat comfortably as Jin pressed play on the remote.

"we are gathered here today with BTS's very own RM!" The interviewer says speaking into the mic as RM smiled and waved.

I bit my lip nervously. This was the first interview Joon's been in by himself since our relationship news got out.

"Ahh. Hyung looks so handsome" Jimin says.

Agreed.

"And now... RM, you're the leader, right?" The interviewer looks at him as he nods.

"Yes, I am" He answered confidently.

"That's wassup. So before we talk about your new album which is trending worldwide, I want to talk about your relationship with Normani who is an Ex- Fifth Harmony Member and a current member of BTS" The interviewer says.

I notice RM tense up a little. I wish I was there with him. It's probably uncomfortable talking about our relationship since for a long time it has been private.

"You're the only two in the group dating, and if you guys didn't know the pair confirmed their relationship about a month and half ago when a video of the pair kissing was released anonymously. Luckily many of your fans are accepting our your relationship. How does it feel that your relationship is finally out with the public?" the interviewer asked causing RM to nod.

"Uh— you know it was nerve wrecking at first. When the news got out. You know Normani and I were a thing long before people found out and it was like trying to hide a tattoo that you knew you weren't supposed to have from your parents. So to kind of have our private life go public so suddenly it was different" he explains so professional.

I nod. Taking another spoonful of cereal.

"Yeah. I'm honestly so happy for the both of you. Unfortunately Normani can't be here right now, but she has been killing the game recently. She's been in and out of China filming for her new movie featuring an EXO member. I've also got report that she's been working on some new music as well. What is it like from seeing her grow since the beginning of when she first joined your group?" He asked him.

"When I first saw her at the BMMA awards, I was taken back.. then from her being in a girl group to going solo to being in my group... I can definitely say that I'm honestly so proud of her, watching her grow into the person she is today. Even after everything she went through she so hard working, and she's amazing" he says causing me to smile.

Jimin nudged me causing me to roll my eyes.

"So the real question is... what does she mean to you? As in which way does she affect your life?" He asked.

Even though the interviewer was asking too many questions I kind of wanted to know his answer.

I watch as his eyes lighten up, and pulls the mic closer.

"Normani... she's the best thing that ever could've happened to be. I went through some hardships but she was always the one that was there for me. I could honestly say that without her, I wouldn't be where I am right now. That goes for the boys as well. She's the best thing that could've happened to any one of us. And I promise if any of the boys were here right now they'd second that. She's my light. My fire. My happiness and my biggest motivation" he pauses causing my heart to pound furiously.

"And.. to tell you the truth I love her" he says expressing and confessing his feelings about me to millions all over the world.

"Well that is just adorable. Don't you think?" The interviewer said causing RM to smile ear to ear.

I bit my lip thinking about how much I have fallen in love with this boy. I can still remember my heart stopping first time seeing him in person.

I remember my first performance with the boys and how nervous I was, and how RM comforted me. I remember our first kiss. It was sparks. I was nervous. Scared.

"Well just like millions of your fans, I support you guys and I wish nothing but the best for you two" he says causing RM to say thank you and nod.

"So let's talk about BTS new album. I have to say this by far is the best album ever released in the year 2019. The duality is amazing. You have rock, rap, RnB, and you have pop. But it's still relates to something BTS is about" the interviewer said.

I was pulled out my thoughts when the door bell rang.

We all looked around waiting for someone to get the door.

"I'll get it.... since no one wants too" Yoongi says rolling his eyes getting up to get the door.

"Mani. Someone's at the door for you" The voice of Yoongi shouts causing me to wipe my mouth and get up from the couch.

"Want me to pause it?" Hosek asks me. I shook my head, walking away from the living room and walking towards the door.

Yoongi stood next to the open door causing me to arch my eyebrows. Turning into the front entrance more, my eyes widen at the sight in front of me.

I swallowed hard unsure what to say or think. I approached the open door as she should there not even making eye contact with me.

"we need to talk" Lisa says arms crossed and anger in her voice.

There was nothing me and this delusional bitch had to talk to about. Nothing I had to say to her either.