"For years. We've always questioned who I am, who are you, who are we. If we're able to love ourselves. If we were capable of being loved. If we even knew what love was. Now, we have the answer"

The pre-recorded voice of mine spoke as sound effects sounded in the background.

I looked up at the mirror to notice that I was surrounded by seven black dancers who were supposed to symbolize the boys. Which just happened to be girls.

There were two introduction in our performance, the first to introduce the boys. The second

We were practicing non-stop for the comeback stage performance BTS and myself included has in two weeks.

Our new album "map of the soul: Persona" drops tomorrow. The boys themselves are excited about performing new music. I more excited that I finally made music with them.

For longest I have been singing their songs and even though I am apart of BTS I felt as if no one really new what I was capable of bringing to this group.

I feel as if Track 2, and Track 7 displays that. For our comeback stage I was in the intro was exciting.

I breathed heavily as the music began, I started dancing with the backup dancer behind me.

I bet all of you are wondering what happened with the whole situation Joon and I dating situation. Where we needed to decide if we were gonna tell people or not.

I suddenly stopped dancing when the music stopped causing me look up in the mirror to see Joon himself smiling looking at me.

Whelp. I guess you can say our relationship isn't a secret anymore. People know where together and that's okay. For now I guess.

A smile appeared on my face seeing his face. I haven't seen him all day, I missed him. These nights things have been a little crazy.

I've been in and out of the studio working on my new single with T.O.P making sure it was right. I've also been traveling back and forth from China and South Korea for my new film starring Lay from Exo "Unexpected Love".

So the closet thing I've gotten to seeing him or any of the members recently has been over FaceTime whenever I'm on my break.

"hey" I say grabbing a water bottle from the ground, as he entered the room greeting the dancers who smiled at his appearance.

"여보세요 [hello]" the dancers all said bowing to Joon who approached me.

"Let's take ten, you guys?" I asked them as they nodded and slowly walked out the room. I turned back to Joon who smiled ear to ear.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him placing down my water.

"I just finished up in the studio, and wanted to come see you" he says.

"I'm taking that the FaceTime calls aren't enough?" I smirk at him knowing that he missed me.

I just wanted to hear him say it.

"They're never enough" he spats.

"I know. But it's only just for a couple more weeks, until they move the filming site officially down here" I explain.

"How much is a couple?" He asks making me chuckle. "You do sure complain a lot" I tell him.

"How about you make it up to me. Let me take you to dinner tonight" he says trying to convince.

"I would but I have a very important photoshoot to go to, then a interview and then I have to be on a flight back to China" I explain to him.

He sighs trying to understand my complicated schedule. Although it's hard sometimes we always push through it. Things won't always be like this.

"Come on.. don't be like that. I promise I'll make it up to you other day. I get back Saturday. I'll make it up to you then. I promise" I say pouting trying to make him be everything but be mad at me.

"It isn't working" he tells me with straight face rolling his eyes.

I sigh knowing the only thing I could do was an ageyo, it always made him forgive me.

"oppa!" I say pouting and speaking in a cute voice making his eyes meet mine almost immediately.

I watch as he struggled to hide the smile on his face.

"Don't be mad, Oppa!" I say before making heart out of my fingers, and there it was. The smile I needed to remind myself that he wasn't mad.

I smile at him batting my lashes.

"Fine. You win" he tells me.

When don't I.

Footsteps enter the room, we both turned to see the dancers. "You. Out" I told Joon pointing to the door letting him know it was time for me to get back to work.

"What? No goodbye kiss?" He asked causing me to smile as I walked towards him leaning up and towards him, he leaned down and kissed me.

Moments later we parted, "okay. I need to get back to work. I'll call you before I go on my flight. I love you" I tell him.

"I love you too" he says before walking out.

-

I sat in the desk with my script reading over my lines for the next scene. I was surrounded by the supporting cast as we were getting ready to record where I enter the class and see Lay for the first time.

I watch as Lay walked into the with the makeup crew following behind him. He smiled softly as he walked past me, I smile in return.

Lay was so gentle. But in a good way. He was very sweet and kind to me since the beginning when we first met.

Even if the whole "Your dating RM" thing he was patient and very respectful. Him and the members of EXO are very familiar with BTS.

While BTS started out, EXO I think had already been gaining so much popularity. It took BTS a while to get the success EXO was at, at the time.

And now when people think of Kpop they don't think of Shinee, or EXO. They don't know of Girls Generation, 4Minute, or Sistar. If it isn't BlackPink or BTS somehow people never really heard of them which is unfair if you ask me.

"Positions!" The Director yelled causing the cast to quickly get into the characters. I placed the script in the desk picking up my character bag and I walked to the door.

I walked out to see many producers, and multiple cameras.

"Classroom... Scene 3... Take One. And Action!" The Director says motioning for me to start.

I forced at smile for what felt like the entire day. Today has been long. Especially without Normani. The guys and I have been promoting the hell out of our new album which is dropping tonight.

We were now at another meet and greet. Although Normani isn't here, I'm okay that our fans are happy and here for us.

"You good?" J-hope asked me out of no where. I nod slightly as Yoongi handed me the mic. I smiled standing up looking out in the large crowded area filled with nothing but armies.

"Army!" I shout in excitement causing them to all scream and the boys to react at me. I let out a chuckle at them as they couldn't stop screaming.

I was about to say something when I heard Normani voice causing both the boys and I to get confused.

"Is it on?" Her voice sounded like heaven to my ears. I missed her more than anything but we both have different schedules. Luckily we don't have to put up with this for long.

All this back and forth and FaceTiming was killing me.

"oh!" Taehyung said pointing behind us causing all of us to turn around to see Normani on the screen.

Awe, she look so adorable. But she looked tired. Like she hasn't gotten any sleep last night.

"hey you guys... I know you guys are wondering were I am right. I'm currently on set right now in China. I really wanted to be there. Not only for you guys but for the boys as well. As all you guys know our new album is coming out worldwide tonight" she says getting the reaction as expected.

She paused as if she already knew that they would be screaming.

She smiles before continuing, god she's so cute.

"Please... please. Support us and send much much love to the boys. All of them have worked so so hard on this album, taking the time to produce the music, and write emotional lyrics... they dedicated sleepless nights and long days just for you all. I can promise you now that you guys won't be disappointed. I love it. The boys love it and I hope each and single one of you will love it" she says smiling.

In the background you could literally hear someone call out her name, I'm guessing that she had to get back to work.

"And a message to the boys.... I love you guys, I miss you and I want to say thank you for always being there for me, and never changing" she continues.

The audience screams paneling our reactions on another screen. This was the widest I have ever seen Yoongi smile.

We were all literally gushing at her and she wasn't even here. She's so amazing. And this is one of the reasons why I love her. She thinks about other more then herself.

She didn't even have to do this but the fact that she did means something. It means she cares. This entire time I had been ready to go home and I wasn't really in the mood but after seeing this I really have no complaints.

"And Oppa!" She says doing a cute ayego. She points both of her fingers at each other before batting her eye lashes.

"Ohhh!" JungKook says before smiling

"She's talking about Joon" he points out the obvious, everyone in this building new she was talking about me.

My heart melt as she was the most cutest thing I've seen before. I smiled softly before covering my face because I was legitimately so close to blushing.

What was this? Why does she make me feel like this? Oh my god.

"If I come back and find out that you gave the other members a hard time while I was gone, I'll be sad" she says before pouting her lips and shaking her head causing me to gush over her again.

The audience scream at my reaction as I smiled shyly.

"I have to go... but I'll be home soon. Until then... Nico Nico Nii~" she says causing not only the audience but the other members to react.

She smiled before the screen cut off and I turned back to the audience.

"So cute" Taehyung says speaking into the mic.

"Any word for what you just seen?" Yoongi asked me bringing attention to me knowing damn well I was too flustered to even speak.

"I don't think anyone saw his reaction tho" Jimin points out causing me to laugh.

"Jonnie, was like this the entire time" Jimin says before acting out what I was doing. His mouth spread further and further looking up at the ceiling acting as if that was supposed to be the screen causing both the audience and me to laugh.

"She's too much.. I obviously couldn't done a better ayego then that. She wasn't trying hard enough" Jin says causing J-hope and JungKook to laugh.

Normal Jin. Of course.

"She's cute tho. Wasn't she?" JungKook asked the audience who then screamed.

"You guys I think he's still in shock" Jimin points out my face as I was flustered causing all of them to laugh.

"Someone get him some water, please" Yoongi laughs into the microphone causing everyone else to laugh.

"Joon-ah out of all of was most upset when we found out Normani wasn't going to be with us today. I mean of course we love her but I think you all know what I'm trying to say" J-hope says smiling.

"Ash!" I say tossing a signing marker at him.

"No, but on a serious note... Normani is like a sister to us. Well— the six of us" Jin pauses looking over at me.

They literally were making it so obvious that her and I went out. It's not new. Everyone knew for the last couple of days.

"My point is We all love her. We all expect you to love her. So don't just send us love. Send normani love. This is her first time on a album with any of us. The sleepless nights and long days wasn't just us. She was the main one. Practicing. Writing, and giving it her all" Jin says causing me to agree.