It's been a couple days since the trip in America. Joon and I are still secretly together, it's weird now that I think about it.

Not even the boys know. I mean Yoongi sometimes catches on when Joon and I either stare at each other for too long or when we finish each other sentences.

While the boys were practicing for their performance, I on the other hand was in the studio finishing up my new song with this legendary korean rapper.

I was mainly excited about tonight because I get to cheer on my boys, I also get to see Shownu, who I haven't seen since "Let's Play House" Which the show was recently released when I was in Korea and had show far gotten good reviews.

Screams and flashes from cameras brought me out my thought as the limo slowly came to a stop.

I feel eyes on me. I look up to see NamJoon himself looking at me, I smiled before turning to Jimin who I sat next too.

The door opened, and the first one out was the youngest himself. Screams grew louder.

Followed behind him was J-hope, Jin and Taehyung. "BTS!"

"V"

"I LOVE U!!"

Screams from multiple fans shout trying to get our attention. Jimin and Yoongi then exited the car, leaving Joon and I.

"good luck kiss?" He asks smirking pushing the limits of our relationship. In order for us not to get caught we shouldn't be doing anything that could get us caught.

I eyed him.

"Ladies first" he says motioning for me to exit.

"I need to make my grand entrance, you go" I tell him.

"Of course you do" he lets out a chuckle.

"And what's that supposed to mean?" I asked crossing my arms.

He was about to say something when Yoongi opened the door, "hey! Lovebirds... we need to go, we're holding up the line" he says causing me turn to the back to realize multiple other cars and limo behind us.

Joon then gets out, seconds later so do I. Before I could even step foot onto the ground screams grew louder then ever, flashes from cameras went off everywhere.

I posed seductively standing in between the members who like I was dressed to impressed. One of the guards instructed us to follow him down to the red carpet.

I then notice Joon bent down to help me by holding up the bottom of my dress so I don't bust my ass or anything.

Such boyfriend material.

As we walk onto the red carpet the photographer snaps pictures of every single move the boys and I made.

"Right here... over here!" Voices shout trying to get our attention. I smile, and pose. I wanted to compliment my stylists, I mean they usually kill it but today was a different type of kill.

I literally looked like a princess. I loved it though. I made a heart out of my hands following what the boys were doing.

After the millions of pictures the members of BTS and I walk into the large building and it was like all eyes were on us.

We pasted by multiple artists, and everyone we saw we either nodded or waved at them. I then saw seated the four members of BlackPink.

My eye then turn to Joon, I don't know why I always do that but it's a like a normal reaction. This boy I who I love used to be in love with the same delusional whore who I have to pretend to be nice to for the cameras.

I nodded towards the females smiling as if nothing happened between Joon and Lisa. They all waved and smiled back. I know I'm supposed to be like best friends with them but the only unproblematic members are Rose and Jisoo.

"Yo!" I hear a loud voice causing all of us to turn around. Of course it was Jackson. His loud ass.

If Jackson was here, So was Bam. Who I haven't seen in so long and a lot has changed. Between us.

I mean I practically told him to wait for me, meaning I gave him hope of something that most likely never was going to happened just so feed my guilt.

I'm such a shitty person for doing that. Bam didn't deserve that. He's probably going to see me and think I'm waiting for him when as soon as he left I literally went to America and had sex with RM.

"RapMon, what's up man!" Jackson said doing a handshake with Joon who laughed as he did it.

I noticed the rest of Got7 walk up towards us, "hey" I smile softly nodding and greeting the members. My eyes widen once I saw him.

Bam. He looks different. He looked as if he dyed his hair, no. He did. He smiled walking towards me, and I already knew Joon's eyes were on us.

BTS was well dressed just like but this is something. Got7 looked like one of my most expensive boy bands in this event right now.

The most likely were.

"Mani" his voice that I haven't heard in so long called out for me. I smiled as he saw me.

"Bam" I say walking towards me. He hugged me gently, as we let go.

"You look amazing" he compliments me.

"Thank you.... how was the tour?" I asked him making conversation.

Mark buts into our conversation, "it was fun expect for the fact that Bam kept bringing you up every five minutes" he smiled at Bam who had probably told him not to say anything.

I laugh, nudging Bam. "Awe, you missed me that much?" I say.

"you have no idea" JB says causing me to smile at Bam. I then notice the rest of my members beginning to leave. The only one standing there waiting for me was NamJoon himself.

"I-I have to go but talk later?" I asked him.

He nods, "it's so good see you and I missed you too" I tell him before turning around catching up to Bam.

"What was that all about?" He asks me.

"What was?" I asked oblivious to the situation obviously the fact that Bam was so open about wanting to be with me bothered him.

"Bam and you" the words came out his mouth causing me to look up at him. "Just friends. Nothing more, nothing less" I tell him.

"Does he think that?"

What's with the questions? Don't you trust me? Please don't start another argument over something stupid. If I tell you Bam and I are just friends, that means we are just friends.

"You're jealous. Aren't you?" I ask smiling up at him.

"Jealous? No. I just don't like when people want what's mine" he says sound possessive as hell. What's it bad that I was low key turned on by this.

Before I could say something we approached the table that we were supposed to be seated at.

"Took you two long enough. What were you even doing?" Jin asks both of us.

"Nothing" both Joon and I say almost exactly at the same time getting different reactions from everyone at the table.

Joon pulled out the chair for me to sit down, I nod thanking him. I watch as he took his seat. I couldn't help but notice Yoongi eyeing both Joon and I.

It was like he knew something was going on between but he couldn't figure out what.

After about thirty minutes the show had finally begun so far we seen performances from Sumni, Twice, NCT, Momoland. It wasn't long until the boys performed.

I clapped along with everyone else as the spokesperson went to announce the winner for "Best Collaboration For OST".

"Stay With Me" By Chanyeol

I clapped along with the audience.

"It's Definitely You" By Seok-jin and V

I turned smiling towards my members, V and Seok-jin themself we shocked. V chocked on his water causing me to laugh and clap for them.

"This Love" By Davichi

"Crazy of You" By Hyolyn

"My Love" By Lyn

"Replay" By Normani And Jay Park

My eyes widen. Looking at the screen to see Jay and I in "Me Like Yuh" appear on the screen. Not expecting to be nominated for an OST, mainly because the song was only used in a Netflix film.

The camera went on me and I smiled clapping along with the audience. I nodded.

"The winner for "Best Collaboration goes too... "stay with Me" by Chanyeol.

I with everyone else clapped for the EXO member. "I didn't even know we were nominated" Jin says laughing with V who was still laughing himself.

"Me too" he responds.

"Mani" I hear my name being called. I turned to see my fake husband. Aka Shownu.

My eyes widen.

"Shownu-Hynug" I say causing the members to turn and look at him and his members behind him.

I got up from my seat hugging up, which got multiple reaction from the audience and artists around us.

"How are you? It's been a little minute hasn't it" I asked.

"Yeah. I missed you" he says.

Making conversations

-

After almost an hour it was finally time for BTS to perform. I sat backstage in the lounge room waiting for the members to come out to wish them good luck on their performance.

My eyes moved towards the door that was slowly opening. It was Yoongi who was on his phone.

He looked up to see me, and it was like a frightened him. I bit my lip to hide the laugh that wanted to get out.

"aren't you supposed to be at the table?" He asks me.

"Yeah. I just wanted to which you guys good luck on your performance. Not that you need it or anything I just thought I should say it" I explain getting up from the comfortable chair.

"And as in us, you mean your boyfriend?" He says as a smirk appears on his face causing me to sigh and roll my eyes.

"Why don't you keep saying that. For the last time isn't my boyfriend"

"I don't see why not. You guys have already done things normal girlfriends and boyfriends do with each other" he shrugs taking his seat on the couch.

"It's complicated"

"Yeah. So is every single relationship. So what? Both of you guys are adults. You know you guys like each other but yet do nothing about the situation" he says.

I crossed my arms, "it isn't as easy as you make it" I tell him.

"Right because your still confused about the whole you and Bam situation?" He asked.

Wow. I literally tell him too much.

"No. And since when do you know so much about relationships?" I asked him knowing that I have never seen him have any interest in a girl what's so ever.

"Since I started watching "Me Like Yuh" he jokes causing me to roll my eyes.

Before I could correct him on his stupidity, footsteps entered the room. We both turned to see the rest of the members slowly walking in.

They all either were drinking water or practicing over the choreography for the performance.

Joon walked into the room struggling to button the cuffs on his shirts, causing me to laugh. I walked towards me smiling, a slight smile appeared on his face when he saw me.

"let me help" I tell him as he reached out his arm allowing me to help him. I could tell his eyes were fixed on me as I was trying to button the cuff.

The producer came into the room causing all of us to turn to the door. "BTS were ready for you guys" she said causing them to nod.

I look up to Joon after tying his cuff link, "I really wish you could perform with us, Mani" Taehyung says causing me to smile softly.

"Good Luck Tonight you guys. I know you'll kill it. With or without me" I tell them all.

"See you afterwards?" Jimin asks causing me to nod. The members slowly exited the room, I notice Joon was getting ready to leave when I stopped him.

He turns to me, "I wanna give you that good luck kiss you were talking about earlier" I smirk.

He then leans down and kisses me for a second but it felt like that second would replay in my head over and over again. Which I wanted it too.

I pulled apart smiling up at him. "Another one?" I ask him batting my lashes. He smiled, shaking his head before pulling me closer to him and kissing me again.

He pulls away slowly, "I have to go" he tells me.

"One more" I sounded as if I was begging.

For some reason I felt like deep down inside Joon and I were gonna get hurt. Either I hurt him or he hurts me. Not both. Somehow, something was going to make us split.

I know people like me don't get an happy ever after especially with people like him. And now that we have it... now that I'm happy... loving him.. being with him... I don't want it to end.

He chuckles, "I have to go" he tells me. Before I could disagree footsteps entered the room causing both of us to part from each other.

I pretended to be looking for something in couch, "What are you doing?" The voice of one of the members asked.

"Mani lost her earring.. I was helping her find it" he covers almost instantly.

"Got it" I say loudly pretending to be putting something in my ear.

-

I sat in the screaming and loud audience as BTS performed on stage. I screamed clapping my hands for my members as they gave there all in this performance.

I watched as the other artists were clapping along or nodding to BTS performance. I also heard the army doing the normal fan chant.

"MAMA!" The aggressive voice of NamJoon shout into the microphone, causing immediate response.

The instrumental of "Fire" began as smoke and fire blasted out the stage. As dancers from both sides came into the stage.

"2019!" Yoongi shouts aggressively. I was feeling it. NamJoon looks straight into the prompter screen.

"This ones for you, Mani" he says pointing directly at the camera smiling ear to ear causing me to smile as the camera went on me to blush and wave at the camera.

Screams instantly got louder.

"Let's get it" JungKook says before all them including thirst dancers broke out into the choreography of fire.

It's sort of different. From being performing with them on stage, to watching them. I mean I've seen them before like perform but only online. Never up in person.

And I just have to say they don't disappoint no matter what song they do. Whether it be a slow song, one of their old songs, or something new.

It still will always be impressive.