"I love you"

The words of Joonie repeats in my head like the tenth million time since he dropped the L-word in the elevator.

Luckily for me, I didn't really have to respond because the elevator had stopped and peopled had entered.

I swallowed hard as Joon opened the door allowing for me to go inside the dorm first.

The entire car ride home was silent. After his whole confession in the elevator I didn't know what to say. I mean it the entire ride was nothing but silent and awkward. The only time we exchanged words was when I either asked him to turn the radio up or the A.C down.

I nod thanking him for opening the door for me. I placed my dance bag down as Joon shut the door.

How does he expect me to respond to that. Me myself is unsure about my feelings and just like that he tells me he loves me.

"Close your eyes" he tells me. I turn and look to him almost immediately.

"What?" My heart drops. If this was his way of trying to sneak a kiss on me or something I swear to god I was going lose it.

"Close your eyes" he tells me once again.

"Why? What are— "Just do it" he cuts me off smiling softly.

I exhaled deeply, ignoring the thought in my head telling me to keep them open. I slowly shut my eyes relaxing my body as I feel him come behind me.

I swallowed hard as my breathed hitched.

Feeling his skin against mine made me crave him even more.

I felt as something wrap around my eyes causing me to jump in fright.

"It's okay. I got you" his voice calms me almost immediately.

He moves me forward causing me to be confused on where we were going. I couldn't see anything, I could hear but there was nothing to hear.

"Don't move" he tells me.

I stand still my eyes still shut, blind-fold, my heart pounding furiously.

He removes from behind me. I hear his footsteps walk out in front of me.

"Can I open them now?" I ask getting impatient.

"No"

It almost sounded like he shouted.

"Not yet" he says once more.

I sigh. "Okay. Move forward and step down but don't open your eyes" his voice is further meaning he was no longer near me.

I follow his command placing my hands out in front of me not wanting to fall or hurt myself unexpectedly.

I stepped out and down scaring myself because I almost tripped and I still wasn't allowed to open my eyes.

"Joon" my voice cracks as I scream out for him.

He chuckles before responding, "you're fine", he tells me. I swallowed hard telling to remain claim.

"Okay. Okay. Turn around and you can open take it off and open your eyes now" he says from a distance.

I follow his commands to turn and standing in front of me were both of my parents. Causing my mouth to drop almost immediately, Tears formed in my eyes.

"Hey sweetie" my mother's voice sounded like music to my ears. I haven't heard it in a while. I mean sure over the phone yes but in person, no.

It was like I almost ran towards both of them. I walked towards this quickly hugging both of them tightly.

I parted with tears falling uncontrollably from my face. "What are you doing here?" I asked trying to control myself.

"You didn't think we'd miss your first album and film coming out, did you?" My father asks me causing me to smile.

I turn around to see the members smiling and laughing at my reaction.

"You guys!" I say like a little child causing Jimin and Joon to smile hardly at me.

"Surprise" J-hope says.

"We know much you missed them, and how hard it is for you not see them because of us always being busy so Joon decided to— I cut JungKook cut turning to Joon.

"NamJoon, you did this?" I asked looking at him. He nods smiling, "think of it as an early birthday present even though your birthday is like months away" he says joking making the members laugh.

I walked towards him almost immediately and wrapped my arms around him, as he hugged me softly.

"Well it's the best present I ever gotten, so thank you" I say seriously hugging him as he hugged me.

This was insane. How did Joon even pull this off? Why. When?

God. This boy.

-

The members laugh uncontrollably as my mother was telling another one of my embarrassing stories at a child as we sat at the dining table.

"No way" Joon says laughing harder then any of the others.

"Yeah. That's when she fell and busted her ass" My mother says laughing causing me to frown.

"Ma! Enough" I tell her she was embarrassing me too much.

"No. tell us more" Jung-Kook says laughing eating my mother's shit up.

"No. You... you shut up" I say tossing a piece of bread at him as he smirked at me.

"You know I've been wanting to meet the seven boys that's living with my daughter" My father says being his usually protective self.

I roll my eyes, "dad" I say sighing.

"No it's fine, Mani. We were actually excited once Joon told us you guys were coming. We wanted to meet you guys for the longest" Jin explains.

"Really?" My mother asks looking at the members.

They either nod or said yes.

I took a sip from my drink, "so I assume the rumors and media must be true which one of you are dating my daughter?" He asks out of no where causing me to choke on my drink.

I cough trying to breathe, all eyes turned to me. Yoongi smirks glancing over to Joon who eyes were everywhere but on me.

Taehyung and Jung-Kook laughs uncontrollably hitting the table. I turned to my father glaring at him for asking such a personal and none of his business question.

"You shouldn't always believe the media" I say through my teeth.

"So that means your not dating any one of them?" He asks me as if he wasn't doing anything wrong.

"To answer your question, sir. Your daughter is very attractive and a beautiful individual. But we all just look at her as a little sister" Jin says answering my fathers question.

Nice save. Good answer.

I almost want to applaud him. The members glance at Jin who raised his shoulders shrugging.

"Oh please. We're all family here. No need to lie. I know when my daughter has a crush, and right now... she has it someone in this room. So who is it?" My mother asks.

Ugh. They won't ever give up will they. So determined.

"Ma, stop" I say as she was embarrassing the hell out of me.

"I bet I can guess" she smirks at me. She looks around the dining room and I couldn't help but stuff my face with food to avoid talking.

"I bet it's you" she says pointing causing me to wonder who she thought I'd might be dating in the group.

The boys laughed as my mothers response. She was pointing at Jimin, whose cheeks were bright red as he turned to J-hope hitting his arm.

"Ma, please" I beg of her.

"Jimin?" She asks causing everyone besides Joon, my father and I to bust out laughing.

"Can you imagine? Jimin and Mani?" Taehyung says hitting JungKook.

"It's no one here, okay" I lie to her. She crosses her arms looking at me knowing I was lying.

"It's me" the voice of Joon says getting everyone's attention.

I looked up at him as he held on too his wine glass, not looking at anyone at the table.

What in the hell. My heart dropped as the entire table became silent.

"What?" My father asked causing Joon to look up at him. Joon clears his throat before formally introducing himself.

"It's me, sir. I'm the one your daughter has a crush on" he pauses causing my mouth to drop.

Why in the world would he do that? Does he not know what he just did.

"But I think it's okay. Because I have a crush on her as well" he says losing eye contact with my father, and then turning to me.

His eyes fixed on mine not leaving them.

"Oh my... you're serious? I-i was only playing" my mother states causing the tension at the table to be thick.

I couldn't think. I couldn't speak. I couldn't move. Joon's eyes looking at me causing me to freeze.

"Is this true?" My father turns to me and asks. I swallowed hard. I look to Joon who wouldn't stop looking at me.

I wanted to choke him and everyone sitting at this table. Why did he have to do that. Couldn't he have joked it off or something.

"They're probably only fooling around. If it was serious I'm sure we would've known by now. Don't you think?" My mother says easing the tension by laughing causing the rest of the members to laugh as well.

"I'm joking" Joon says lying joking causing all of the members to awkwardly laugh and look around.

"Yeah. Can you imagine one of us actually liking Mani like that" JungKook says laughing before uncomfortably forcing himself to drink.

I laugh softly trying to not make it obvious. "Like that would ever happen." Jin says joking causing me to scold him.

"Yeah. Crazy" I say glancing up to joon.

-

I sat outside with a blanket wrapped around me looking up at the sky listening to the quietness of the night. I had so much on my mind. So much going on right now and I just needed to breathe.

With news still going on what happened in Japan, to Bam's and Joon's sudden confession, to my Netflix film and Album dropping literally in one day. To my parents showing up, and now Joon almost telling them that we kind of like each other.

I exhaled deeply trying to get a grasp of all of this. I was pulled out my thoughts when I heard the sliding glass door open.

I turned to see Yoongi. "hey, what are you doing out here?" He asks shutting the door.

"just thinking"

"Ash... it's freezing out here. You'll catch a cold" he tells me before rubbing his shoulders looking around.

My silence was enough for him to know something was up. He slowly approached me sitting down next to me.

I didn't have to turn to him to know he was already looking at me.

"y-you want to talk about it?" He asked trying to be the sentimental person he wasn't. I smiled slightly at how he was trying.

I shook my head.

"is it about tomorrow? The performance?" He asks me.

The boys also had a performance at the music bank tomorrow, as much as they wanted to see me perform solo for the first time in person, unfortunately they're going to have to watch it on screen. Again.

"I know the boys and I can't be there but I already know you will be perfect. There's nothing you have to worry about" he continues causing me to just tell him what really was bothering me.

"Bam told me" I blurted our causing him to turn to me.

"Told you what?"

"His feelings, Yoongi. He told me how he felt" I say and it felt like I could breathe again. Finally it was lifted off of my chest.

"And? Do you feel the same way?" He asks.

"That's the thing, Hyung. I don't know. I don't know how to feel. What to do, to say, or think" I confess honestly.

"So you're telling me both Bam and Joon confessed to you and now your stuck in between choosing one of them?" He asks.

I nod turning to him.

"You want my advice?" He asks

Yes. Please help me. Anything would be helpful honestly.

"I think if you have to choose between two people who you care both about, then choose yourself"

Anything other then that.

"What? I asked him.

"Despite what you tell yourself there's obviously a connection between you and Joon. Same thing goes for you and Bam. There's only two ways I know how this love thing works. You choose one of them, and the other gets hurt. Or you choose yourself that way no gets hurt" he tells me which if you ask me was a pretty smart idea.

The sliding glass door opens causing both Yoongi and I to turn to see the youngest member with a handful of popcorn in his hand.

"you coming? The movie is starting?" He asks Yoongi. I turn to Suga to get him get up from the ground and walking to the door.

Before entering the dorm he turns back and looks at me. "Don't listen to your head, listen to your heart" he says before walking inside.

The glass door shuts and silence starts again. I sigh holding onto the blanket. Yoongi was right.

I knew what needed to be done