I heard the names of BTS and I being screamed before the limo even got a chance to stop.

I turned to boys who were joking around as always. I sat quietly like I did for the entire ride. I had too much to think about so much that was going on, I didn't have time to think.

"You okay?" Jung-Kook bringing me out my thoughts ask him.

I turned him nodding and forcing a smile.

"Are you sure? You really don't look like — I cut him off, "I'm fine. I'm just nervous" I lie to him just he wouldn't make a big deal out of nothing.

I didn't want the boys to worry about me so it's better if I just act like I'm okay. So they think I'm fine.

Today wasn't just about me, it's about all of us.

"Alright. You guys. Show time!" Joon said bringing me out my thoughts as I turn to the door where Hoseok sat next to.

The door opened and fans screamed loudly. I inhaled and exhaled deeply before telling myself to smile.

Eventually I exited the limo, standing next to NamJoon. As all the boys lined up as paparazzi and fans snaps millions of photos, and videos of us.

I smile softly as the flashes went off. After we exited the limo, we walked onto the Red Carpet.

"BTS!"

"Normani!"

"You guys look amazing"

"Over here!"

The voices shouted at us as we all posed for pictures, and videos on the red carpet.

I feel myself getting hotter and hotter every minute, we haven't even entered the building yet and here I was burning a sweat.

After the red carpet photos, it was time for us to be seated. I sat in between the boys sitting next to Jung-Kook and NamJoon.

After he found out that my single was number one, he called to congratulate me but at the time I was busy, so I really couldn't thank him like I wanted too.

The relationship between Joon and I is complicated, and sucks because I don't know where he and I stand.

There's an obvious connection between us, so why was it so complicated for us to say what we want, and not want we need.

What I do I want?

For NamJoon to tell the truth and call of that fake relationship he has with Lisa. To be honest with me, he knows he likes me. To be honest with himself.

What do I need?

I need to calm down. I need to think my options out. I need to think about my options. What would be good or bad. Not just for me but for BTS as a group.

I was caught out my thoughts when NamJoon caught my attention. I turned to him, "you Alright?" He asked me.

"Just the nerves" I tell another lie.

The truth is I was most likely sick, I had a headache, and it was starting to get difficult to breathe.

"It's okay. You'll be fine. It's like every other performance we have. Just more people and more cameras" he tells me.

I smile slightly.

Eventually after a couple of performances it was time to present the award for Artist of the year.

I stood behind stage with the envelope that revealed the winners. I had to remind myself that everything was going to be okay.

There would be no reason for me to get worked up. All I need to do is go on, get off.. then get ready backstage.

"Normani" I was brought out my thoughts when I heard my name being called. I turned around to see BamBam.

I smiled at his appearance. I haven't seen Bam in a couple of days specially because we both have completely different schedules that are very busy.

He approached me looking very handsome in his suit and tie. "Hey!" I say embracing him with a large hug and a bright smile.

"I thought you weren't gonna be able to make it", I say parting starting the conversation.

"What? Miss your performance? I wouldn't miss that for the world even if I was on tour" he says making me smile.

"It isn't just my performance. Its the boys as well"

"Speaking off those devils, how are they? Treating you right? Still arguing on who wants the last slice of pizza?" He asks joking around.

Talking to him kept my mind off of everything that was bothering me which was good.

"Same old. Same old" I shrug.

"I heard about your song going number one. Congrats. I'm very proud of you." he told me smiling.

"Thank you" I nod thanking him.

"And your new Netflix series? I had no idea you wanted to be an actress" he tells me which was true.

Bam and I knew nothing about each other, all we knew is fans loved us together, and we loved spending time together, and honestly right now that's all that really matters.

All I'm saying is Bam wouldn't lie about dating an ex when he know he might like someone else.

"I wasn't so sure of it myself but hopefully it'll turn out as expected"

"I'm really excited for you" he says nudging me.

I smile, swallowing hard.

"Yo... Normani" I hear my name called out once again from behind me.

I turned to see Jay.

I arched my eyebrows in confusion as approached Bam and I.

"Hey?" I say.

"Wow... you look...." he pauses lost for words after looking at my dress the fitted my curves, and looked so good on me.

"Thank you" I say smiling softly.

"Jay? What's up, man!" Bam says greeting Jay in the most boyish way ever.

"Hey.. wassup" Jay says back.

They pulled each other in a hug after the handshake. I watch as they parted, I turned to Jay.

"Jay? W-what are you doing here? Backstage?" I asked him with confusion.

"My publicist just told me I'm presenting the award with you and Bam"

His words confuse me, I could've sworn it was just Bam and I but whatever.

The producer walks towards us holding a clipboard, "your up, you guys" he tells us.

I turn to Bam, then to Jay.

Moments later, I heard "Boy In Luv" By BTS being played as Bam, Jay and I walk out on the large stage.

I walk out from the backstage, and before I could even make it into the spotlight fans began screaming at the three of us.

I forced a smile walking out on stage with the two tall boys behind me. I looked out in the crowd to see the boys of BTS watching me, but watching the two boys behind more.

I walked to the microphone, seconds later Bam and Jay arrived as well, and the music turned down.

I look straight out at the promoter to read the words.

"What is popping everyone. Welcome To The Mnet Asian Music Awards of 2019!" I say into the mic, and audience began to clap their hands.

I stood in the middle of Bam who stood on the right of me, and Jay who stood on the left.

"Wow, there's a lot of sexy people in this room tonight" Jay says into the microphone causing the girls to scream.

The audience got quiet, until someone in the audience shouted, "GOD YOUR SO HOT!" Towards Jay.

"I know" he says so cockily causing both the audience, Bam and I to laugh at his response.

Bam leans to the mic, "Do you want know what my favorite part is about Mnet Music Awards?" Bam asks.

I look on the screen, "the after party" Both Jay and I say causing the audience to laugh because those who knew Bam, knew he loved to party.

"Yes. But seriously. My favorite part of theses types of events is watching everyone come together as a family. We all come from different backgrounds, culture... may speak different languages but we all can communicate through music and that's what the Mnet Music Awards is all about" he says into the microphone.

The audience claps as his response.

I look at the prompt, "and now it's time for nominees for The Artist Of The Year", Jay says speaking into the mic.

As the nominees were being called, I stood there smiling waiting for the names being called to be over.

Moments later the nominees weren't being called anymore.

"Can we get a drop roll please" Bam says as the audience either began making a drumroll sound by stomping on the ground, or patting their laps or hitting the table continuously.

"And The Artist Of The Year Is......" Jay say into the microphone, as I open the envelope that revealed the winner.

"Give it up for Red Velvet!" I shout into the microphone as the audience screamed, Red Velvet's song "Dumb Dumb" blasted through the speaker of the arena.

I clapped along with the audience who cheered for the five girls who weren't able to make it today.

After announcing the awards, Bam, Jay and I walked backstage. I suddenly began to feel dizzy, I swallowed hard placing myself on the wall to balance myself.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply trying to calm my nerves. "Normani?" The voice of BamBam calls out from in front of me.

I removed myself off of the wall, standing up straight. "You okay?" He asks me.

"Yeah" I lie.

No I wasn't.

He obviously saw right through me when he placed his hand up against my forehead.

"Normani, your burning" he says with a serious and worrying tone.

"I'm fine. It's a little hot in here" I lie as I pretend to tug on my dress.

"Your not going on stage like this. Your sick aren't you?" He asks.

He was right.

"No. I'm not. I just water. I'm fine. I promise"

"You know your an awful lair, right?" He asked me. He knew me so well.

"What's wrong?" The voice of Jay ask approaching both of us.

"She has a fever" BamBam says placing his hand on his like he was my father or something.

"No. I don't"

I deny knowing that I was burning bullets in this damn dress and needed water.

"Let me see"

Jay leaned towards me to reach and feel my forehead when I grabbed his hand to stop him.

"I don't have a fever, okay. I'm fine. I gotta go to wardrobe to get ready for my performance. I'll see both of you out there all right?" I say without giving any of them a chance to respond, I walk out quickly to the wardrobe area.

The dark skinned girl reathed heavily standing on stage with the other members of BTS, posing and waiting for the music to start as the audience screamed for them.

As the song started the screams got louder, Normani quickly adjusted the sound in her pack before moving to my position.

"널 위해서라면 난

슬퍼도 기쁜 척 할 수가 있었어" Taehyung sang as the music started, causing the screams of the audience to intensify.

During the entire performance Normani tried her best to catch up and not make it look like she was tired but the more and more she performed the more and more she became weak.

The boys knew nothing of Normani sickness, with everything that had been going on they didn't have time to pay attention to her not that she wanted them too.

Knowing Normani she was going to continue to fight her cold. She wasn't going to let some sickness or cold ruin the performance. Not for the boys.

"oh... I don't know, I don't know why" She sang, her voice sounding clear and perfect as ever despite her being sick.

Finally it was the end of the song and instead of Taehyung and Jung-Kook holding each up like they always did at the end, Normani was the only one who stood in the middle.

She looked up one last time at the audience before raising my hand, and the boys dropped to the ground like we practiced causing the audience to scream.

The entire stage went black as BTS exited off the stage and walked backstage where artists and producers they passed applaud them on their great performance.

"we killed it!" Jimin shouts in excitement. As him and a also very excited J-hope passed Normani not even realizing she wasn't feeling well.

"Told you we were gonna be fine" Joon voices catches her off guard. The girl turns and forces a smile at the leader of BTS.

"What's wrong?" He asked noticing her skin was obviously pale.

She couldn't even answer the question without being interrupted by Got7 very own BamBam.

"God, your so stubborn" he tells her causing Joon to be confused.

"What's going on?" Yoongi ask walking to the conversation.

"Nothing"

"She's sick. Feel her forehead, she's got a fever!" BamBam points to the dark skin girl and before she could walk away, she was grabbed by Joon who then felt her forehead.

"Mani" His voice filled with worrisome.

"You guys.. I'm fine, okay" the girl denies the truth pushing Joon's hand away from her face.

"Not you aren't", Bam tells the girl.

"How long have you been sick?" Yoongi asked the girl who couldn't even think straight at this moment.

Before she could even answer her body collapsed, before she reach the ground almost immediately Joon and Bam realized what was happening and one of them caught her.

Her eyes shut meaning she fell unconscious.

"Mani?" A completely worried and confused Yoongi called out for her as she laid in the arms of Joon.

Joon held her as she laid on the ground.

"Mani? Can you hear us? Wake up?" The leader of BTS shook the unconscious girl.

"Someone! Help!" Bam shouts as producers run towards the unconscious girl.

"Call 911"

The voice told the other. Bam felt horrible. He should've told someone earlier that she wasn't feeling well. He didn't think it was that serious since being normani did tell him it wasn't.

"What's going on?" The youngest member of BTS asked Taehyung, Jin as they were already in the lounge room with Hoseok and Jimin waiting for the rest of the members to get back.

Taehyung shrugs his shoulders and continues to eat his snack.

"Someone call 911!" A voice shout causing the five members to look at each other and exit the room.

It didn't take them long to find out Normani was unconscious in Joon's arms.

"What happened?" Jin asked worried about the girl.

"I-i don't know. She just fainted. She had a fever, and now she fainted" Joon tried his best to explain to the members as he held the girl he wanted to protect most in the world.

Eventually Normani was taken to the hospital for immediate care.