I wake up and stretch feeling a bit disoriented, then I remember. I quickly flip to the other side of my bed, and it is empty. My heart sinks as I quickly sit up searching the room for my boyfriend.

I call to him several times and receive no response. As I look towards the doorway, I see Tannie is missing and so is his blanket. I sit up pressing my back into the plush fabric-covered headboard as I try to make sense of this.

I had the best night ever with the best man ever and now he's gone. My chest feels tight and there is a pain in my throat as I swallow. Why would he leave?

I'm sure we agreed to spend the day together. I pull my knees to my chest as I feel a strong wave of sadness and hurt washes over me. I just want Tae in my arms and him not being here really hurts.

Fuck! I'm really in love with Tae. My sadness changes to frustration and doubt. How could he leave me without saying goodbye? I mean, he is my boyfriend, right?

Right, I think as I question the evening before and recall the details of what happened. I then reach for my phone and call him. It goes to voicemail, and I toss the phone down angrily onto the mattress.

Fuck, Tae! Where are you? I pick up the phone again as I draw in two painful breaths.

Why does this hurt so bad? I hate being this needy. I feel as if my chest will explode without him. I call his number again and it goes right to his cheery voice message.

"Tae where are you? Why didn't you tell me you were leaving? That was rude of you! Call me as soon as you get this message!" I shout out as I disconnect the call.

Almost immediately l regret leaving such an obsessed, clingy boyfriend message and cover my face with my hands. Slowly sanity returns and I realize that I'm overreacting and there is nothing about him since we met, that has been rude, uncaring, or insensitive.

I just really miss him, and I'm terribly disappointed. We had a wonderful time yesterday evening. Well, there was that matter of Suga being rude and Jimin threatening to stab Suga if he tried to take a piece of tiramisu.

Okay, so it was not perfect. What was perfect was everything that happened after that. Oh God, I have a gorgeous boyfriend that I'm in love with.

Tae cares about me, I'm sure of that. He makes me feel so warm, safe, and protected. He's my lover.

What a wonderful lover he is. He certainly had me begging for his touch and other things, I think as I grin widely. We went for four rounds.

Oh, my fuckin' god, four rounds! My man definitely knows what he's doing. I've only had a few boyfriends and have always felt awkward when it comes to sex.

But never have I desired someone so much. After getting over my initial awkwardness, I felt comfortable being naked in front of him. I think it's because he is so confident and the admiration that he has for my body.

I don't have large muscles and I'm not very coordinated. But he removed all doubt and made me feel beautiful and precious. No man has ever made me feel like that. Tae, please come back.

I hear the front door opens and spring from my bed as I realize I'm naked. I look around, and spot my red silk pants and tee shirt folded on a chair. I smile at the thought of Tae neatly folding my clothing.

I quickly slide into my red pants and tee shirt and rush to the kitchen. As I move down the hall, I hear my Tae. Is he on the phone?

"Okay Tannie, eat your food. What a good boy you are. Did you like Papa Kookie? He's a good papa isn't he?" Tae says as he is kneeling and petting Tannie's furry little head.

My eyes flood with tears as I halt and just watch from the entryway. I see a carton of eggs and fresh strawberries on the kitchen island.

"You be a good boy while I make Papa Kookie some breakfast," he says as he rises. His back is still to me as I wipe my eyes.

Oh God, he took Tannie for a walk and stopped at the market to get ingredients to make me breakfast. What a horrible boyfriend I am. Terror then grips me as I remember my angry message. Oh fuck, I really messed up. He then turns and sees me.

"Hey baby, I thought you were sleeping in," he says as he walks over to me and gives me a peck on my lips, and hugs me. I'm speechless and scared. I don't deserve him.

I force a smile as I think of my over-reactive message and cringe. I hug him back feeling even worse.

"You okay, baby? Are you sore? We did get pretty wild last night," he says releasing me from his embrace and stepping back to look at me.

"Uh no, uh I'm just happy to see you, Tae. I woke about 30 minutes ago," I say as I divert my eyes downward.

"Sorry baby, but I didn't want to wake you," he says as he walks over and steals a kiss. "I took Tannie for a walk and then we stopped at that cute little market on the corner. I got a little distracted there. Did you know they have a huge selection of cheeses from around the world?" Tae says as his eyes light up with excitement.

Tae is a true foodie and I can't help but chuckle. Of course, he would get distracted by the awesome cheese selection at my favorite market.

"Yes, Tae, I did," I say as his excitement and wonder remind me why I fell in love with this normal guy. I start to feel better as he continues to talk, and I again am reminded of what a good man I have.

"Kookie, I'm making you breakfast this morning before we start our day. I plan to feed you good and then carry you off to bed," he says as I can't help but giggle. All of a sudden, tears start to flow down my cheeks.

"Baby, what's wrong?" he says looking at me intently while placing a hand on my shoulder as I sniff and wipe my eyes. I then toss my arms around him.

"Tae, I woke up and you were gone. I missed you and got scared," I say, as he hugs me tight and rubs my back.

"You were scared? Did something happen?" he asks in a stern and protective voice. My heart flutters as I feel cared for and protected. He's my loving alpha.

"I'm sorry, but I thought you had left me. That made me scared. I-I need you Tae and I don't want to be without you, I really care for you and you're my boyfriend. Aren't you? And I d-did something bad," I say in a tone just above a whisper while latching on to him tightly.

I finally let go of him and grab some tissue from the nearby counter and blow my nose. Tae takes my hand and presses a sweet lingering kiss on the back of it as I look down feeling scared about my overreaction.

"Kookie, you did know I was returning, didn't you?" Tae says in a gentle tone as he lightly brushes his hand across my cheek.

I don't respond. I just continue looking down and biting my lip. I want to hide as my stomach drops with the manifestation of dread.

"Kookie, it's okay," he says in a comforting voice as he pulls me to his chest and kisses the side of my head. "We're new and I get it. You don't fully trust me. Baby, I promise you that I will never leave you alone without telling you again. We'll build more trust over time. Now, what did you do that was so bad?"

I divert my eyes towards Tannie who is still eating his food and slowly start to speak.

"I-I uh called you," I say followed by a pause. "I then left an angry message. I'm really sorry baby, it was so inappropriate and I'm terribly embarrassed," I say as my shoulders slump down.

Tae says nothing for a while so I slowly raise my eyes and look at him. I watch as a soft smile slowly moves across his face, and he laughs.

"Hahaha!" he laughs. "Really? I've never seen you angry," Tae says as he pulls out his phone.

"No, Tae please don't listen to it! I'm too ashamed," I plead as I reach for his phone which he holds outward where I'm unable to reach it while he laughs.

Feeling frustrated I pout crossing my arms across my chest and lean against the island, as Tae shows a mischievous grin.

"Kookie, it's okay. I'll delete it but I bet you were too cute. Baby, I don't care if you get angry. Well, I do care. I don't want to ever give you cause to be angry with me but that will be unavoidable," he says as he wraps his arms around me and gives mm--

+9++++++++++e a quick peck on my lips.

"Sorry baby, I should have left a note just in case you woke up before I got back. I know I would not have liked waking to an empty bed after our first night together. And what a night it was. But your anger says to me that you missed me. As I said, we'll have to build trust," he says squeezing me just a bit tighter as if to emphasize how much he cares and is committed to our relationship.

"Oh, my baby boy is so spoiled," he says nuzzling my neck as I can't help but giggle. "Look at that little pout," he teases.

He is such an unbelievable man, and I don't want to start our relationship by playing games and withholding things from him. I want to be more vulnerable with him. That means letting him see me in some of my worst moments. I trust he can handle seeing my angry.

As he said, we will be angry with each other at times. I want to share everything with him, and I already am holding one secret that I cannot share, yet. I don't want to add more to this explosive secret that I will soon share.

"Tae, go ahead, listen to the message. I don't want to hide from you. You are right, we have to work on building trust," I say as he turns me around and looks into my eyes.

"Are you okay with me hearing it because I will delete it if you want me to?" he says unlocking his phone and handing it to me.

I take it and play the message watching him as he listens. I'm uneasy as he shows no expression and then slowly a gentle smile moves across his face and he softly cups my cheek.

"Aw, baby I'm so sorry. You were hurt and scared. It's okay, baby, I'm here now."

He wraps his arms around me as we kiss passionately and just stand there for a minute holding each other. I release a giggle as I feel a sense of relief standing in the strong, safe arms of my Alpha.

"Now, how about some waffles and fresh strawberries?" he asks as I jump up and clap my hands.

"I sure hope you got some whipped cream to top those waffles," I say with a chuckle.

"You know I did," he says showing his big, boxy smile that just melts me. "I've learned from my favorite chef the importance of knowing who you're cooking for," Tae says as my cheeks heat up.

"Tae, can we make the waffles together?" I ask as I reach down and pet Tannie who is at my feet.

"Of course, baby. I wanted to give you a break and let you rest. But since my baby is awake and my favorite chef, I'd love your assistance," he says as I give him a hard nod and smile.

"Now, this is my kitchen this morning and I run a tight ship, Kookie. Are you okay with that?" Tae says in a stern voice.

"Yes sir," I say as I salute and stand tall with a few giggles.

"Saluting is not required but 'yes sir' will do just fine. Know your place assistant. Now get the waffle iron and bowls," He says as I go right to my task. As I turn around, I feel a smack on my ass, and I giggle.

"I see the strawberries are not the only things fresh in this kitchen today," I say as I gather my items and hear Tae's chuckle.

Tae and I making breakfast together is a very sweet moment for me. I'm reminded of those precious memories of being in the kitchen with mom and Jimin.

"Tae, I think the batter needs two eggs," I say as I start to reach across him to the egg carton and hear a throat clear and look over to him.

"Excuse me, but were you not told whose kitchen this was, assistant?" Tae says raising an eyebrow. He is so fucking hot when his alpha tone comes out that I'm tempted to tear his clothes off and have him fuck me bent over the kitchen island.

Slowly I retract my hand from the egg carton. "Sorry sir," I say and return to my task of gathering the utensils as I feel a bit of a rise in my red silk pants.

Tae gives me a quick peck on the cheek. Then when he thinks I'm not looking he adds another egg to his batter. I am reminded a few times to know my place and that the chef in charge does not require my directions which Tae refers to as bossiness.

I sit down and enjoy the most delicious breakfast ever, mainly because I am with the man I love. I feel as if my dreams are coming true. I have my normal guy, my alpha and I couldn't be happier.

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As I wash our dishes and Kookie dries them I can't help but think of my fantasy of him and I cooking in the kitchen of our own home. The only things missing are our ten children and Zeus. That would make breakfast prep and cleanup a bit of a challenge, however I'd welcome it. This thought radiates warmth from deep inside my core. My heart pounds for this man.

Cooking with him was exhilarating and wonderfully connecting. The experience was far more intimate than I could have imagined. As we moved around the kitchen, our accidental touches sent jolts of electricity throughout my body.

We sought every opportunity to be close. This came in the form of affectionate touches, leaning against one another, laughing, and talking nonstop. As we sat at the table and ate breakfast, our legs and feet continued to touch.

I found myself, at times, smiling at nothing or reaching over to stroke his arm. As if to make sure he was real and to make sure we were real. I lost count of how many pecks on the cheeks and lips we gave each other.

It is a wonder that breakfast got made. Does he feel the same deep affection for me as I feel for him? It is too much to hope for?

In time, I believe, he will feel the same way about me. During our love-making and while cooking this morning I almost shared my feelings. I won't, only because I do not want to scare him.

My goodness, we haven't been boyfriends for 24 hours yet. Saying 'I love you' would be too much, much too soon. I will wait and give us more time.

But not long. I don't think I will be able to. After the kitchen is cleaned, I press him into the refrigerator, and we kiss passionately.

As our heat escalates, I lift him as he wraps his legs around my torso and I carry him back to bed. We make love and get lost in each other all over again. A few hours later we emerge from bed, shower, and take Tannie on a walk together.

That evening, we settle on the couch and watch a cute romantic comedy as Kookie rests his feet on my lap, and Tannie rests on Kookie's lap. Tannie is certainly enjoying his time with Kookie. Kookie appears to be doing the same. As the movie ends my phone buzzes.

I check the screen. It is Suga. I look over at Kookie who appears content.

As I show him my phone screen, he pulls his legs back. I rise, walk towards the kitchen, and take Suga's call. I've been pleasantly distracted with my love and had not thought much about the incident with Suga. I've never seen Suga be so rude, with a stranger. I'm puzzled by his behavior and as I give it more thought, at this moment, I'm concerned. He is important to me as is Kookie. I am happy that he called.